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I Purged Today

Posted by MyFatherIsAKarenCarpenter in MyFatherIsAKarenCarpenter's Blog, 23 February 2017 · 0 views

For the first time in 20 years.  
I must be PMSing because right after eating a modest dinner of rice, sweet potatoes, and cucumbers, I craved a chocolate/soy butter sandwich on white bread. 
The whole time I was eating it I thought about what a bad idea it was. I calculated the calories as I was eating it. That sandwich would put me over 1700 c...


02/23 Accountability

Posted by Jamie Nelson's Ghost in MissNomer's Accountability, 23 February 2017 · 0 views

Still maintaining 120 lbs, and still 2 days without purging. This is day 3. Breakfast:


February 23rd, 2017

Posted by Quarantine in Quarantine's Diary, 23 February 2017 · 9 views

Headache, fever, high blood pressure, tachycardia, shaky hands, dry mouth, muscle pain, panic - that's what happens every time I attempt to eat like a "normal" human being. I can't stand the warmth of my body and the vibrations and the exclamation marks. Calories are just numbers and they are rotting in me so of course I want to get rid of them. I want to...



Posted by Ana_Is_My_Best_Friend in Thoughts, 23 February 2017 · 18 views

Why am I so stupid?
Why am I always fat and ugly?
Why do I mess up everything?
Why can't I lose the weight?
Why the fuck do I still eat?
Why am I still alive?
Why am I forever rooted in self destruction?
Why am I always alone?
Why does no one hear my cries?
Why does no one see I don't want to be here anymore?


Entry #3

Posted by Cheekieverything in Starting over, 23 February 2017 · 15 views

•Apple juice (55)
•1 brownie (120)
•18 oyster crackers (30)
•9 oyster crackers (15)
don't think I'm going to eat anything else if I do imma eat it in tiny sections with water between every single sip. I don't know my current weight. I don't know where to get a scale either so I'm struggling. I might get one today though
Total calories:220 Calories



Posted by TXM Glitch in TXM Blog, 23 February 2017 · 13 views


W.E.Y. Gabby's Anorexia & Bulimia

Posted by AnaxMiaFlowerGirl in AnaxMiaFlower's Blog, 23 February 2017 · 30 views


Fasting today

Posted by sunflowermoon in Sunflowermoon's Accountability Blog, 23 February 2017 · 24 views

I'm posting this early so I'm more likely to stick with it. I'm doing a 24 hour water/tea fast which I started after dinner last night, so I will eat at 6 pm tonight. I plan to exercise for at least 20 minutes tonight, so I'll update with cals burned if I do that (usually ~150). Yesterday's weigh in: 120.2
Today's weigh in: 120.8 Drinks: water (...


Day 19: Ugh!

Posted by TenaciousforThin in The Thin Life, 23 February 2017 · 29 views

I was too busy to post last night so, here is my update. I was at the gym for an hour and a half doing cardio. I was sweating like a pig but it was awesome. I also ate 1155 calories. I was proud for the most part. 
However, I have not lost any more weight. I have basically stayed the same. I don't understand. I feel like I have been doing things corr...


Day #16 Reflection, ABC #3

Posted by NotJustANumber in NotJustANumber's Blog, 23 February 2017 · 24 views

Well, I definitely did not stay at my 500 cal yesterday, but I stayed under 900, so I don't feel that bad. I was annoyed when I got on the scale this morning though and saw I was again at 148. Why can't the scale just steadily go down and stop flip flopping? I know fluctuation is totally normal so I'm trying not to let it get me down, but it is discourag...


Non-scale progress!

Posted by Tragix in Tragix, 23 February 2017 · 36 views

While I'm having scale progress(down 12 pounds), it's the non-scale progress I'm super pumped about right now! 
I put on a onsie that used to give me mad camel toe AND LOW AND BEHOLD NO CAMEL TOE TODAY. IT FITS BETTER. 
I went to a pj themed party and hated myself so much in this stupid onsie. Didn't enjoy the party whatsoever. Today, I wouldn't...


2/22/17 Food Journal

Posted by Babydoll901 in Diary of a Fat Girl , 23 February 2017 · 60 views

Food Intake- 655
B- 0
Burrito Bowl- 300
Lindor truffle- 73
Mini Donuts- 140
Baked Lays- 140
D -Over 1000 (Purged Meal, not added to my total intake)
Salad W/ Ranch Dressing
1/2 Bag Mini Donuts
2 1/2 Brownies
1/4 Three Musketeers  I wish I ate under 500 but tomorrow is a new day. As far as intake I'm not too upset at myself for...



Posted by Lοki in Loki's Blog, 23 February 2017 · 42 views

It's been fun


Just Leave Me Alone?

Posted by StarvingGoth in FakingPerfection's Blog, 23 February 2017 · 54 views

People need to understand that when I say I don't want something or can't have it, I mean it. I can't be a normal person and just have a piece of something or a bite of something. I think I'm at 2,000 ish because of my husband. I love him, but he needs to leave me alone when I tell him no. 
It's my birthday tomorrow. I should be in a good mood, but t...


new things!

Posted by // the1975 // in Life blog, 22 February 2017 · 31 views

Ok so I have this dress i could not fit in too well and now I do!
i salty think I've gained it might be water weight but I'm still under my highest witch is 120
scale says I'm 109
so ew
today I've had around 673cals not bad not great either but its ok I'm easing my way back into this
i HAVE to be skinny soon


Chilled Cream

Posted by Eshek in Eshek's Spiel , 22 February 2017 · 22 views

Dissatisfied. With all.  
I need to quit my second job. There's no point in working there anymore. I barely make money. It's mostly just pocket cash. I don't need that. I need a real job. But I'm not skilled enough at anything for a real job. I hate going into an interview or talking to someone and being like "Hahah I dunno" when I'm asked what kind...



Posted by sixfour in sixfour's Blog, 22 February 2017 · 25 views

I realized being someone's "wife" or sugar baby is essentially asking to be a maid who in returns gives birth to your child... What kind of hell hole is that. Nice try boys.



Posted by Onyxa in Onyxa's Blog, 22 February 2017 · 43 views

- push, push until your thighs don't touch -  
weight : 120.3lbs :wacko: :( (weighed at 1am)
119.3 lbs (weighed in the morning)  
hopefully this picture will keep me on track I have no clue what I'm going to eat today. Maybe a mono?...



Posted by kenziedoll in Na Razrusha'ya. E'ya Razrushost., 22 February 2017 · 17 views

I've been awake since roughly 11 am. It was a long restless night. Felt like I was coughing up a lung until my meds finally kicked in. Side note: the mix of Benadryl and cough syrup definitely made me feel like I was drunk. Weight basically stayed the same, so it's whatever. I had way too many Reese's Pieces Eggs yesterday and I've had 300 cals worth toda...


Day 3

Posted by projectskinnybitch in Veganism, 22 February 2017 · 28 views

CW: 51.5
2nd day of period  B - Oatmeal with almond milk and peanut butter
L - 1/2 quinoa, 1/42 lentils, onion, spinach, tomato
S - Banana
D - lentil, squash, tomato soup

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