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Posted by sommermaedchen in Maybe tomorrow., 30 March 2017 · 2 views

March 29, 2017  ​Food diary
nothing

=> 0 kcal  
​​weight  ​58,0kg (127,9 lbs)

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Food and exercise diary (vegetarian, vegan) : day 2

Posted by elma-emmers in elma-emmers' Blog, 30 March 2017 · 11 views

My workouts: I also did stepping in front of the TV. :)
 
5 sugar-free sweets

12.30pm
2 Kallo ricecakes w/ tsp. of Meridian peanut butter
banana (medium)
apple (med-large)
200ml of soy milk with cocoa powder and stevia

2.30pm
sugar-free energy d...

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Finally lost some weight!

Posted by number5gum in Welp, 30 March 2017 · 12 views

Ok so last time I checked - which was like, 2-3 days ago - I weighed in at 142 pounds (20.97 bmi).
But today I checked and I'm actually down to 139.8 (20.64)!!!!

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Day 1// Fucked up

Posted by venetian in black-ribbon, 30 March 2017 · 22 views

its only day 1 and i fucked up real bad. 500 calories my ass! i exceeded like 1000+ calories. what the hell was i thinking.
seriously though, now i know why its hard for me to do because i have like zero self-discipline at all. fuck meeh i hate myself today.
started the day good with only green tea and the time i reached college, like after the first peri...

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3-30-17

Posted by dirtylaundry in DirtyLaundry's Progress, 30 March 2017 · 13 views

i start work today and i'm terrified. it's definitely going to be physically painful. and i'll be so stressed out all the time. i've never had a 40 hour a week job before. plus, i have to pack a dinner and eat before i go because it's a fairly physical job packaging boxes for online orders. ughhghghhg i'm so stressed. i've never had to pack meals before,...

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Fuck

Posted by Eshek in Eshek's Spiel , 30 March 2017 · 17 views

Such a fuCKING idiot. Goddfuckingdammit. I fucking hate myself GOD DAMNIT. WAHT THE FUCK IS WRON GWITH MY HEAD? JESU SFUCKING CHRIST. ALL I DO I S JUST MESS SHIT UP OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OAVER AND OVER. GOD FUKCING DAMMIT. i'M SO TIRED OF IT. i JUST WANT TO BE A GOOD FIRNED AND JUST TO SOMEHOW NOT MAKE THINGS WORSE BUT HTS ALL I EVER DOD? LITEARLLY??...

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WHAT THE ACTUAL F*CK

Posted by ThinsTheGame in ThinsTheGame's Blog, 30 March 2017 · 36 views

770 yesterday hour at the gym exercised and I AM STILL FUCKING 136.4 THIS IS THE FUCKING 3RD DAY NO WAY IN HELL I AM MAINTAINING ON 770 THE MOST I HAVE HAD THIS WEEK(SINCE SUNDAY) IS 890. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. Maybe I need to lower maybe im defective and maintain at 770 maybe I should lax tonight or I am gonna binge because this is bull shit bull shit I t...

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day 3 // anorexic nymph diet // last known weight 67.5

Posted by lightinme in Accountability / Process, 30 March 2017 · 32 views

I want to sleep in. I want to stay in bed all day and sleep.
Today's menu:
Coffee
Apple
Kefir 
I am pretty sure I will be drinking more coffee than just one glass. Apart from that, will stick it out. Well, I have to. I am very tempted to weigh myself, but I am afraid that the results will cause me to stop, either because I achieved a nice weight...

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Stress kills my appetite

Posted by SingingSnakes in Thoughts of SingingSnakes, 30 March 2017 · 24 views

Lately, because of all the stress I've been having with my boyfriends depression and suicidal thoughts/plans, I've been unable to eat anything. I've been so stressed that I can't sleep at all, I get 2-3 hours per night regularly, because I constantly think about all the bad things that's happening around me, and I think about how much worse it can get (es...

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Ah, the constant question

Posted by EllieBot in EllieBot's Blog, 30 March 2017 · 38 views

I hate when I can't tell if my pants are looser because I've stretched them out or because I've lost weight.

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(30/03) it's 1:27am

Posted by silverdarksteel in random thoughts at 2am, 30 March 2017 · 30 views

and I just want to dream and never wake up.  I hate my job. I used to love serving coffee, chatting with regulars, but recently, the people I work with get on my nerves. They push me around and order me around like I have no significance, like I don't matter.  And I've always been fine to do more than my share but when you're asking me to do th...

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The Days Are WAY Too Long

Posted by emily_carter in A Life By Any Other Human, 30 March 2017 · 34 views

Keep it short:
I work all day, watch TV all night.
Been having weird dreams. They aren't nightmares but they're far from good dreams.
I'm still fat (not really anything new).
Can't go more than 2-3 days without purging.
Overeating has become a given (at least it's vegetarian?).
I'm in challenges again. (Excited - or at least what passes for excited).
The...

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No Scale. Feeling Unsure. Body Checks.

Posted by CoffeeUnion in Fuck This Shit. , 30 March 2017 · 45 views

So... My scale is gone, we are at a family members house for the week. Not freaking cool, its like the universe decided - oh shit your feeling mildly unstable right now? okay lets just take ALL your comforts/crutches away from you then. yes, perfect. So sans scale, i took to a morning of bad body checks. EW. I need to get rid of this fat so bad... AN...

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Tummy troubles & weird weigh-ins

Posted by sunflowermoon in Sunflowermoon's Accountability Blog, 29 March 2017 · 21 views

I've been having stomach issues lately and I cannot wait for it to settle. I had a lot of fiber today because I haven't had a decent BM since last Friday, just little ones, and I've been drinking lots of water, started taking a probiotic again, etc. But today it's just been uncomfortable. I really don't want to take any sort of laxative, even natural ones...

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i need to start losing weight again

Posted by Ophelia's_Starvation in StarvingNeko's Blog, 29 March 2017 · 30 views

Im tired of not being enough, of never being good enough. Im exhausted all the time. I can barely speak. I keep forgetting to take my meds. Im drinking daily. I cant seem to do anything right, I'm always left. I can barely breathe. Im not taking care of myself. I give up daily. I'd rather be asleep most the time so I'm really hoping i can pay my fine and...

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3-29-17 back to 2 days ago.

Posted by CSmith94 in CSmith94's Blog, 29 March 2017 · 28 views

CW: 124.8 BMI: 22.8 (Same weight I was 2 days ago)
Cals: 462  Changed it up and had subway for dinner. Turkey chopped salad. Pretty much the lowest cal thing they have lol it was so good though with sweet onion sauce. Even though I was still where I wanted to be for cals, I felt like I was cheating lol been craving veggies a lot lately! Lots of veggi...

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☽ 29 March 2017 ☾

Posted by Miss_A in Shoogi's Journal ♡, 29 March 2017 · 29 views

Not sure if any of you are kpop fans, if anyone is actually looking and reading these. But I learned the dance for Pristin's Wee Woo the other day and it's very fun. My favorite dances that I've learned recently are Rookie, Knock Knock, and Wee Woo. I also really have fun with Lion Heart but it's not very energetic. I want to try learning Russian Roulette...

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ABC diet day 3 (semi-binge)

Posted by ImMariaMaria in My 'diet' blog, 29 March 2017 · 33 views

Today I had 1.5 bananas, 3 large strawberries, 5 spears of asparagus, 2 mushrooms, clove of garlic, spinach, and 2 beets. That totalled around 300 calories. 
My 'binge' was another banana + a handful of organic rolled oats so it wasn't THAT bad, oh and 3 figs. Well.. one fig tasted bad at the end so I c/s it out. I used to like figs but it tastes rea...

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Day 5: Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Posted by LovelyLolita in Lolita's Blog, 29 March 2017 · 25 views

Another binge day.  I tried to make up for yesterday's binge, but then I had dinner with my family tonight, and I was kinda pressured into eating more than I would have liked to. I think my fasting is one of the reasons I binge so often lately. I think I might just stick to restricting my calorie intake.  Perhaps 500 calories one day, and 2...

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Patient 3.2

Posted by AfterShock in AfterShock, 29 March 2017 · 39 views

Hm.. Where to start.. The last time I seen a mental health professional was a little over a year ago, which was my psychiatrist. Unfortunately for me, he terminated me as his patient because I was smoking pot to help with my anxiety, and other symptoms.. even though I was trying to quit so that I could keep my psych. When you're a pot smoker in my state w...



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