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#1 Birdyflyaway

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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:29 PM

After failing a calorie limit or breaking your fast early, do you ever punish yourself? Of so, what do you do?

I make myself swallow vinegar sometimes, and sometimes I make myself eat a fear food (weird, I know,) or cut the backs of my fet so it hurts to wear shoes.

What do you do, or am I crazy?

Also, I do similar things sorta to threaten myself into following a calorie limit or stick to a fast. anyone else?
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#2 Perfection.Infection

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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:30 PM

I purge anything that I wasn't supposed to eat.


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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:31 PM

I punch my jaw, burn my fingers, cut the pads of my fingers, take away water for three days, make myself fast for longer, fill myself up with water so I'll get horrid stomachaches, etc. Ice and salt (highly not recommended - can cause permanent scarring) happen to make me unable to put anything in my mouth, be it food or water. Or biting my tongue/cheeks. Fasting is always a punishment, but it doesn't work all the time. =/

 

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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:32 PM

oh yes ive punished myself a bunch of times. ill restrict really low or fast. ill work out ALOT ALOT. and ill self harm



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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:34 PM

Purging and cutting


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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:35 PM

I punish myself all the time. Every time I eat I do jumping jacks that amount to the calories I consumed. So if it is 45 calories I usually do 100 though and not 45. I feel the more the better.
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LW ~ 73

CW ~ 81

GW1 ~ 80

GW2 ~ 75

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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:36 PM

Overdose on vitamins, anything that relates to the metabolism that I can get my hands on. Drink Apple Cider Vinegar straight-up, and one time I actually managed to choke on it and all that ACID in my throat made me feel like I was going to die and I literally couldn't breath for a minute trying to gasp for air, ended up with a sore throat the next day. Also exercise compulsively until I'm tired as fuck. Purge food out until I can no longer purge.



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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:44 PM

Corporal punishment. I'll walk on the treadmill for hours.

I'm not a fan of self mutilation, although sometimes I catch me slapping my wrist or biting down way too hard on my tongue....

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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:46 PM

No sleep, Ice cold showers, sleep with the windows opened in the middle of winter with no blankets and almost no clothes, restrict my liquid intake to almost nil......I have some many I can't put them all down. They are my top favs


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Posted 05 January 2014 - 01:49 PM

I'll cut around my waist so that my pants dig into it. Then exercise until the sweat getting into it is unbearable. 



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Posted 05 January 2014 - 03:50 PM

Restricte purge wear too small clothing and cut
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#12 Sweet Secrets

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Posted 05 January 2014 - 05:28 PM

Working out and purging.



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Posted 05 January 2014 - 05:38 PM

Cutting, purging, working out longer than needed, fasting, etc.

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Posted 14 January 2014 - 07:34 PM

No sleep, Ice cold showers, sleep with the windows opened in the middle of winter with no blankets and almost no clothes, restrict my liquid intake to almost nil......I have some many I can't put them all down. They are my top favs

oh my, where you live that is punishment alright.. cold.. (shiver)



#15 coffee-and-smokess

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Posted 14 January 2014 - 07:37 PM

Work out, cut.



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Posted 14 January 2014 - 07:40 PM

Cutting and hitting myself. Laxatives. This one is very counter intuitive but if I've binged really badly, like no going back binging, I force myself to eat a bit more until I feel sick and my stomach hurts. 



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Posted 14 January 2014 - 07:42 PM

i punch myself



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Posted 14 January 2014 - 07:45 PM

Cutting was one way (I'm NOT in any way suggesting that it's a good idea at all. Don't do it please!) but now I'm in a serious relationship and my fiancé thinks I stopped doing that YEARS AGO instead of months ago. I can't hide it from him seeing as how, well...

I do the vinegar thing too. Lol
Ugh, laxatives. I know they don't actually get rid of the majority of the calories, and I HATE diarrhea, so I consider it pure penance.
I also restrict severely or fast for days following a big screw-up.
Deprive myself of fun; Basically ground myself.

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Age:                           23                                     CW:   106.2 lbs. [47.6 kg.]  (BMI: 18.8) - FAT FAT FAT FAT!!!

Hight:                         5' 3" [1.6 m]                    HW:   145 lbs. [65.8 kg.]  (BMI: 25.7)

 

Years Diagnosed                                             LW:    74 lbs.  [33.5 kg.]  (BMI: 13.1)

with Anorexia:           5                                     UGW: 90 lbs.  [40.8 kg.]  (BMI: 15.9)

 

GW 1: 102 lbs. [46.2 kg.]  (BMI: 18.1)            GW 2: 99 lbs. [44.9 kg.]  (BMI: 17.5)      

GW 3: 95 lbs.   [43    kg.]  (BMI: 16.8)             GW 4: 92 lbs. [41.7 kg.]  (BMI: 16.3) 

UGW: NINETY POUNDS!!!

 

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#19 ZoeMawr

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Posted 14 January 2014 - 07:46 PM

If I've done something bad, I sometimes purge, even if I haven't eaten. I'll just chug some water to puke up.


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#20 MalaMila

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Posted 14 January 2014 - 07:47 PM

Cut, purge, isolate myself, and fast longer.


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