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The Worst Thing to Happen During a Binge

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#21 katiebergen69

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Posted 17 January 2017 - 09:11 AM

Someone wanting my food. I cannot share right now. I can't explain why. Please go away. 


Height: 165cm

HW: 66.7 kg

SW: 57.2 kg

CW: 54.8

GW 1: 54 kg

GW 2: 51 kg

GW 3: 49 kg

GW 4: 46 kg

 

Self-proclaimed wannarexic. Actually bulimic 10 years and counting. BED 18 years.


#22 Methe

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Posted 17 January 2017 - 10:35 AM

The doorbell ringing. And it's your friends who want to come visit you.


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Sex: None if not paid in advance.  Male   
Age: 32
Height: 1.73 m (5"8' ft)
 
I had been morbidly obese my whole teenage and adult life. I had developed a BED by the age of 18.
 
Highest weight, 2013 - April 2015:  145 kg (320 lbs / 22 st 12 lbs) BMI: 48.4
 
From July 2015 to July 2016 I ate 1200 kcal every day and exercised regularly. I got to a normal 
weight for the first time as an adult.
 
Lowest weight, July 2016:               67.4 kg (149 lbs / 10 st 9 lbs)  BMI: 22.5  
 
Here are some disgusting nudes (trunks) showing the difference, watch at your own risk and hold eye bleach ready!
 
After a month of maintenance my BED took control over me again, helped by me not experiencing
real progress in life overall and emotional turmoil during an extended outpatient stay. 
 
Recovery is a lifelong battle and hope the last thing to die!
 
Current weight: I do not want to weigh in this year, but the borderline to center region of overweight
                            would be good guess. As I am fighting for recovery, it's fluctuating of course.
 
                         But since I still fit normal clothes and ride all roller coasters:                                                               
 
                                     I earned my thin privilege!!!
 
 
Official diagnoses: BED (not currently ), ADD, BPD, MDD
 
 
                                  
 
 
 
 

#23 Airare

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Posted 17 January 2017 - 10:49 AM

family walking into the kitchen as i am filling a tray with food

this girl used to be 20 pounds lighter, no wonder she got so fat


 

 

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5'4.5 ft // 164 cm

 

cw (1/18/2017) = 111.3 lb

 

lw (december 2015-january 2016) = 91 lb

 

hw (november 2016) = 114 lb

 

gw = 88 lb, hopefully by my birthday

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#24 Official Piglet

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Posted 17 January 2017 - 12:50 PM

I was so desperate I ate food out of the kitchen sink, and then a roach crawled out from under a dish.  :(


Have a fluffy puffy fabulous day! 
  

 

 

 


#25 OCDSoph

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Posted 17 January 2017 - 01:34 PM

the worst thing is when the day is almost over and ive been restricting the entire day and then i just binge and binge and binge.

and also when you get caught by a family member
"wow you were really going off last night"
"why are you eating so much jeez"


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#26 KayBrooks

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Posted 17 January 2017 - 11:03 PM

The worst is when you're in that binging mode but your family is around or in the kitchen and they see you open the fridge every 10 minutes or they see you stuffing random food in your mouth and then nicely tell you to stop eating now because "you might be in pain later" and you're like nah I'm fine while knowing your binge has probably still got a few hours left to go and you probably won't be fine by the end of it. Or finishing off boxes of cookies and other food and your family asking how (whatever food) disappeared so quickly and who ate it..



#27 katsuomi

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Posted Yesterday, 03:50 AM

  • someone commenting on how much i'm eating
  • or, someone ordering takeout or something when i'm already binging. i'll eat it
  • the feeling afterwards sucks
  • THE FEELING OF TOTAL LOSS OF CONTROL LIKE I KNOW I CAN STOP I KNOW I NEED TO BUT I JUST DONT UGHUGHUGHU


#28 zoeybentley

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Posted Yesterday, 05:43 PM

Once I almost choked because a piece of bread was stuck in my throat. I was at home alone and I literally thought I was about to die, my face turned blue and I completely freaked out.

 

Apart from that the worst thing that can happen is people walking in on me while I'm stuffing food in my mouth.



#29 Alice_in_Chains

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Posted Yesterday, 06:09 PM

Burn the roof of your mouth, bite the inside of your cheek, drool, binge in front of someone.





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