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#1 kevi

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Posted 24 November 2014 - 08:43 PM

So this is a shameless filler topic. I regurgitate my food, and have since I was a toddler. My first instances of purging were all extensions of the fact that I was always spitting food into my mouth, re-chewing and re-swallowing anyway. I thought everyone secretly regurgitated for YEARS and just didn't discuss it. Like pooping, it just wasn't something you talked about.

 

SO let's talk about regurgitation. Do you do it? How long have you done it for? Why? And most of all, have you had any goddamn success in making it stop?

 

Hopefully we get more people who relate, and less "ew"s in here hahaha. Probably not. I don't see how it's any grosser than purging, to be honest.


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Posted 24 November 2014 - 08:59 PM

I dont do it but I would never judge another persons e.d. behaviors. I am sure I do things people would say "ew" to.

I am curious though and want to ask a question but dont want to offend you. :/

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Posted 24 November 2014 - 09:01 PM

Oops I read the other thread and my Question was answered.

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Posted 24 November 2014 - 09:01 PM

I've never done it but my brother used to when he was younger. It feels weird that it's now classed as an eating disorder. He was a huge binge eater as well so he'd eat all the food in the house and then bring his food up and swallow it again. He thought it was totally normal so would do it in front of anyone, but hey, I thought throwing up all my food was normal for quite some time so I couldn't judge him.

 

He did this for around 5 years and then somehow stopped binge eating and regurgitating his food. I want to know how he stopped doing both! I'm ridiculously jealous of him.

 

It's definitely no grosser than purging though.


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Posted 24 November 2014 - 09:07 PM

I don't but I think my sister might.  She brings up her food and swallows it again, I've seen her do it but I haven't said anything about it.  When she feels anxious, she throws up everything.  I suppose normal people do that too, but the way that she does it is a bit different.  I don't quite know how to describe it.  It's especially interesting to me because I'm a hands-free purger, so I wonder if there's a certain degree of heritability in the mechanism that allows food to come up so easily, or if it is purely psychological (which I know rumination disorder, by definition, is).


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Posted 24 November 2014 - 10:40 PM

I personally think you don't do regurgitation, it just happens (At least in my case). But you can choose what to do with it (eighter chew it, swallow or spit it out.)
I've had this condition since I was a toddler too and when I was 8 I started to gain weight because of my poor diet and my love for junk food and candies. The same year I went to ballet classes and started to eat healthier but still, I was chubby so I thought I could spit my regurgitated food to "loose some weight" and then It became an habit. Sometimes I wouldn't spit it out for like a week and notice the regurgitation times to lower to 2-3 times per meal instead of 5-10, but it has never stoped at all.
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Posted 24 November 2014 - 11:09 PM

I dont do it but I would never judge another persons e.d. behaviors. I am sure I do things people would say "ew" to.

I am curious though and want to ask a question but dont want to offend you. :/


Go right ahead, I'm not even offended if people think it's ew really haha. I secretly love talking about gross things, even though I wish I didn't do it.

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Posted 24 November 2014 - 11:14 PM

I personally think you don't do regurgitation, it just happens (At least in my case). But you can choose what to do with it (eighter chew it, swallow or spit it out.)
I've had this condition since I was a toddler too and when I was 8 I started to gain weight because of my poor diet and my love for junk food and candies. The same year I went to ballet classes and started to eat healthier but still, I was chubby so I thought I could spit my regurgitated food to "loose some weight" and then It became an habit. Sometimes I wouldn't spit it out for like a week and notice the regurgitation times to lower to 2-3 times per meal instead of 5-10, but it has never stoped at all.


I agree, though I wonder if the degree of force behind it varies from person to person. It feels like an active action when I bring food into my mouth, but it's something I'll do without paying attention, and requires negative effort to happen. If I try to fight it, or stop it coming up, that's where I have issues. That is fucking painful and stressful and I really, really struggle. When I was little, I never tried fighting it, just let it happen continuously. It's making it a real bitch to quit purging now though.

I never spit it out when I was little, it tasted good still haha. I used to use it to fake vomit and get out of school though. Then I used it to relieve pressure in my tummy when I overate, and actively purged then. It wasn't about weight control for a very long time.
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Posted 25 November 2014 - 01:51 AM

It's making it a real bitch to quit purging now though.

I used to use it to fake vomit and get out of school though. Then I used it to relieve pressure in my tummy when I overate, and actively purged then.

 

Same! haha.


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Posted 25 November 2014 - 11:45 AM

I only got rumination recently, if I'd had it at school I'd totally have faked being ill. :S

 

But yeah, I do it, on a regular basis. It used to be pretty mild but now it sort of happens after every time I eat. I see it more as a method of purging than anything, considering the reason I developed it was through purging in the first place.

 

It's pretty terrible when you're fasting, though, and you have a coffee or something. There's no food to bring up so your stomach is like "throw up the coffee!!!!" and the few times I have done it, it tasted revolting, and really acidic.

 

I have had noooo success in making it stop. After a certain time at night, once I have my retainers in and stuff, I just have to ignore it. I don't necessarily swallow it but I just try to avoid the urge to bring it up.


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Posted 25 November 2014 - 06:41 PM

So interesting that this has a topic here.

 

I developed rumination at some point during my biggest major depressive episode, like, two years ago. Never had a history with mia. Still shows up every once in a while; always spit if I have the opportunity to do so. I thought for a long time that it had to do with overeating, but these days I ruminate empty or mostly-empty stomachs. Cute!


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Posted 25 November 2014 - 11:07 PM

I've always done this and didn't realize it was an ED thing. It started before my bulimia but I wonder if it was a precursor or something. I'd just eat, burp it up and chew and swallow again. Now when it happens, I spit the food out usually. Weird how I never realized it was weird.

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Posted 26 November 2014 - 10:22 AM

I am anorexic but the other day I mentioned this thing I do and they said its rumination then I come on here and voila, you guys do it too!

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Posted 26 November 2014 - 10:34 AM

So this is a shameless filler topic. I regurgitate my food, and have since I was a toddler. My first instances of purging were all extensions of the fact that I was always spitting food into my mouth, re-chewing and re-swallowing anyway. I thought everyone secretly regurgitated for YEARS and just didn't discuss it. Like pooping, it just wasn't something you talked about.

SO let's talk about regurgitation. Do you do it? How long have you done it for? Why? And most of all, have you had any goddamn success in making it stop?


I haven't been here very long, but you always blow my mind. I thought I was the only person who used water bottles. Now THIS.

I can remember regurgitating in early elementary school. I saw a professional regurgitator on TV a few years later and contemplated his training schedule. He seemed like no more of a freak than someone who can shred on a guitar.

Losing teeth has made me stop. Eating fewer foods that are fun to regurgitate has helped, too (looking at you, Caesar salad). Being alone less has made me more conscious of my behavior.

Also, I just purge more. Sad but true. As I'm sure many others have, I perfected the hands-free purge before bulimia had a place in my mind. I used it as my "Get Out of Jail Free" card. Don't want to take a test? Vomit. Don't want to be in PE? Vomit!

Writing this all down is shocking.

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Posted 26 November 2014 - 06:19 PM

I've always done that with food I really liked or when I had the feeling I didn't chew enough. I've done this all my life without knowing it's actually a disorder?


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Posted 26 November 2014 - 06:33 PM

I never have, but I knew a guy in primay school that used to eat say, pizza, then chew it up, spit it back onto the pizza and then eat a bite and repeat until the pizza slice is gone, he would do it with potato chips too.



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Posted 27 November 2014 - 05:06 PM

It's quite literally by reflex. I don't regurgitate on purpose. It just happens when I'm stressed. I end up swallowing it back down because it never fully comes out like vomiting... 


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Posted 27 November 2014 - 05:09 PM

I don't like the new forums....

I don't like that they made everything else shift down a spot

I don't like changes

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Posted 29 November 2014 - 10:51 AM

I don't like the new forums....

I don't like that they made everything else shift down a spot

I don't like changes


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Posted 29 November 2014 - 11:01 AM

I used to be an adult  special needs teacher and one of my students did this frequently.  He had severe autism so I speculate that there was a sensory element to it.  At lunch time, he would sit there regurgitating and re-chewing and re-swallowing his meal, over and over.  He also used to just throw up whenever something didn't suit him.  He was non verbal and had not learned many more socially appropriate ways of communicating so had to use a collection of somewhat "challenging" behaviours in order to tell us what he wanted. 





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