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What Bulimic thoughts are you having right now?


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#1 thesatellite

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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:19 PM

vent, just let it out. Say all the things we wish we could say in public in the moment of now.

me, right now?

I just want to binge and purge so bad right now.
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:22 PM

Right now I'm thinking about purging since I'm bingeing at the moment. 


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#3 idk_maybe?

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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:22 PM

Me: I wonder if I have enough to go get binge food and be able to purge without passing out.

I'm feeling faint af today but still want to b/p.
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:26 PM

I want to bp so bad... Omg why did I take ten lax this morning after spending all night on the toilet swearing never to be dumb enough to do that again??!?
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:30 PM

i wish he'd leave so i could b/p
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:30 PM

My arm is so fat I can almost the fat crawling around. 

 

My stomach hurts so much from the purge but the strained muscles make me think maybe it'll do some toning good LOL! 


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:32 PM

I'm so fucking full, my waist diameter is a planet on it's own, population: ugly.
I feel like crap already, so hopefully, if there's something out there taking care of me, I'll get explosively car sick and throw everything up.
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:33 PM

i am hungry. i wish i could have eaten a normal lunch today like a normal person. instead I'll just have a few "safe" snacks until dinner. i am so afraid to eat more than a tiny bit during the day because i am afraid that will trigger a binge/purge. 


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:35 PM

I wanna binge binge binge purge purge purge. Fasting is hard with these thoughts.
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:39 PM

I've eaten everything in this house, so I'm desperately trying to figure out some secret stash of food I haven't devoured yet, but am instead gonna go out and purge as of now.


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:41 PM

Trying to convince myself not to purge dinner later. Boyfriend is taking me out to a nice place :/
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:46 PM

i literally have no money to binge and purge right now. i'm so fucking broke it's not even funny. I have to keep the 25 dollars i have left for gas money or i won't make it to class for my midterm this week :/ 


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:49 PM

that i need to eat - so that i can be sick


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 02:52 PM

I want to binge and purge so bad but I'm trying to stop. Just fighting the impulse to say f*ck everything, it doesn't matter if you b/p your life sucks anyway, you might as well do it.
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Posted 01 May 2015 - 03:02 PM

Me: Why are these laxatives not working? Shall I take more?.....I need to go to the gym! What if they start working whiles I'm at the gym?


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 03:11 PM

I could just order food so I can purge. God, I want to purge. But I can't. Well I can. I shouldn't though.


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 03:14 PM

Earlier, I almost choked to death on a giant chunk of food lodged in my throat while purging and instead of saying "purging is stupid and dangerous, this is not worth it" I just told myself "I need to chew my food better" ...........  haha, idk anymore. I swear in some way, shape, or form, this will be the death of me, lol.


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 03:17 PM

thinking about all of the leftover chinese food there is in the fridge right now and how badly i want to b/p it, but resisting because my fam would freak if i said i ate all of the leftovers. sigh..


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Posted 01 May 2015 - 03:18 PM

I hate my parents and I want to waste their money and eat everything and then vomit and then block the toilet/sink/bathtub to cause them problems
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