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What Bulimic thoughts are you having right now?


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#41 Sandyll

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Posted 02 May 2015 - 12:26 PM

My stomach twisting after the laxatives i took. Like those who posted before, I always say its my last time and then I take them again next binge.
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Posted 02 May 2015 - 12:33 PM

My stomach twisting after the laxatives i took. Like those who posted before, I always say its my last time and then I take them again next binge.

YES i absolutely hate it.

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Posted 02 May 2015 - 12:49 PM

That this is ruining my life....

My heart hurts so bad...


And even after all of that I just want to purge...
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Posted 02 May 2015 - 12:55 PM

I need to purge my dinner cause I had a granola bar before!! I already b/p twice to... My mum is around and she knows aboutit so I need to wait until she's busy with her own dinner.... Mann I could binge again... Fucking mouth ulcer too. I'm so hooked on food if they really knew how much I ate - they'd be disgusted. I sure as hell am.
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Posted 02 May 2015 - 01:02 PM

I'm looking forward to go to college so I'll be able to purge after every meal without my parents noticing because I'll have my OWN appartment !

Sadly it's the main reason I want to go to college...
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Posted 02 May 2015 - 01:33 PM

Should I b/p for the 93284823899929th time today, or actually eat something? 


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 01:44 PM

A month ago this girl who was supposed to be my friend told me that she was thinking about throwing up recently when I told her that i have bulimia. I was like BITCH! Why the hell did you make it about yourself???? It sstill really bothers me. I'm thinking about that and I feel this will turn into emotional eating



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Posted 02 May 2015 - 01:44 PM

Trying hard to decide between purging the lean cuisine I had for brunch and throwing up my thyroid meds, or holding down the 270 calories... Leaning towards purging since I also ate three crackers and two tiny slices of cheese. 350 sounds like too many calories to have eaten at noon...

But I ate 25 min ago... Will I even be able to get all that much up?

Its so fun in my head rn, not.
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Posted 02 May 2015 - 02:15 PM

OMG I'm vegan and craving cheeseburgers, pizza, rotisserie chicken, macaroni and cheese...but NO!!!NO!  Be a good girl and don't binge non-vegan.  Hell don't binge at all.  I'm a horrible human being for just thinking about it.

 

ugghhh the cravings succkkkk, man :(

 

 

i can be vegan only when I'm not b/p-ing  :( there are simply no satisfying vegan binge foods. vegan pizza? my bank account is against that  :P

 

honestly, same :( like, what, am i going to binge on baby carrots or..? haha  :lol: 


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 02:16 PM

I've been going to the protests / marches in Baltimore and this headline cracked me up:

 

Baltimore rioting kicked off with rumors of 'purge'

 

I was like, "Oh shit did I start it?!"  And then I couldn't share my hilarious bulimic thought with anyone.


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 02:21 PM

I've been going to the protests / marches in Baltimore and this headline cracked me up:

 

Baltimore rioting kicked off with rumors of 'purge'

 

I was like, "Oh shit did I start it?!"  And then I couldn't share my hilarious bulimic thought with anyone.

 

honestly, you are amazing. i love you.


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 02:24 PM

I'm waiting for everyone to leave so I have the house to myself and can finally binge and purge in fucking peace. 30 more minutes...
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Posted 02 May 2015 - 02:32 PM

I'm waiting for everyone to leave so I have the house to myself and can finally binge and purge in fucking peace. 30 more minutes...

 

honestly this is me almost every weekend


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 02:37 PM

I wouldn't mind eating something today... but everyone is home so I wouldn't be able to purge. Oh, well... fasting is good for me. I have enough fat to live off for awhile! One day won't hurt... I'm so disgusting it will probably do some good.


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 02:38 PM

honestly this is me almost every weekend

This is me every DAY. Unfortunately i never am fortunate enough to have the house to myself more than once or twice a week. I b/p everyday anyway, but I have to wait until everyone goes to bed. It's torture waiting that long :/
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Posted 02 May 2015 - 03:38 PM

I just put a homemade chicken pot pie in the oven....and I have to wait FORTY FREAKING MINUTES before I can destroy it.  Oh wait.  Husband is home.  Dammit.  Have to control myself.  Eat a lot, but not all of it....

 

How am I going to purge without him knowing?  I'm thinking a bubble bath is in my near future. 

 

OH GOD I want to have a full-on binge tonight, but I can't!

 

I'm such a horrible person for wishing my husband wasn't home tonight so I had the freedom to b/p. BAH!  He's the most important person in my world and I'm wishing him away so I can destroy myself (and my kitchen/bathroom).  *sigh*  Ugh.


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 03:48 PM

I ate 310 calories over my limit (500). MUST PURGE MUST PURGE MUST PURGE



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Posted 02 May 2015 - 03:56 PM

Well, i WAS thinking: I shouldn't have eaten those 10 hotdog wieners and all that bread.. Then i purged and it was mostly water and wiener coming out and now i feel gross and pathetic, tried to not b/p today, failed. This week is not a good week, i NEED to get back into restricting and out of this binge/purging cycle, it only makes me gain/maintain :(

Oh, and i totally forgot that i took 3 laxatives before i went purging, wasted those pills ugh. I'm almost out and i don't want the check-out girl lecturing me about laxatives.

 

Also: wiener. hehe.


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 03:57 PM

I want to binge so badly on a giant pizza but through some miracle I restricted all day and I don't want to ruin my progress


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Posted 02 May 2015 - 04:02 PM

My thought hurts so badly because of purging and I die every time I swallow );


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