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#9581 anashreksic

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Posted 10 January 2017 - 04:28 PM

Yesterday I took some alcohol from the cabinet. I'm not allowed near it because there is a high risk that I'll have a heart attack if I drink it. I just can't keep eating, I'm too tired to fight it. A heart attack sounds exhilarating.

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Posted 10 January 2017 - 04:32 PM

I'm absolutely going to b/p on Zaxby's after work

#9583 Storyofmylife3

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Posted 10 January 2017 - 06:15 PM

No this is nothing but hell and I'm only still at the acute ward which is a madhouse. Currently 3 people in restraints.

Waiting for a bed at another ward


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Posted 10 January 2017 - 06:21 PM

Don't think I purged all of what I ate earlier. I feel like I can feel it in there. META BO LI SI N G. Yuk. Too late now though. I shouldn't have allowed myself to be distracted by conversations with humans.


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#9585 Storyofmylife3

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Posted 10 January 2017 - 06:22 PM

The inconvienience of having to go see the psychiatrist after going food shopping...im prob gunna sit there day dreaming about food and have no idea what hes talking about lol. And then having an hour of therapy after....why why why, 6 other days in the week ;)


I feel your pain!
I will never forget an appt with my psychiatrist convinced her I was doing so well as my stomach was about to burst from 13 giant deli bagels (gotta love bakers dozen) and a car full of food...
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#9586 dyingwillow

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Posted 10 January 2017 - 07:32 PM

^^^ oh god, respect for being able to sit there with a full stomach!!!

 

My appointment somewhat consisted of talking about home made pizza...was rather entertaining


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Posted 11 January 2017 - 01:43 AM

My parents usually hide certain foods from me so I won't binge on them...
Last night I found an apple pie in the laundry basket (?!) and of course, I ate the whole thing. I tried to hide any evidence of it because I was feeling ashamed, but my mom probably wanted a piece for breakfast this morning... (I bet she's looking for it right now because I can hear the noises from my bedroom).
I was planning on buying another pie today and leaving it where I found the other one lol, but I know she'll notice.
This feels so humiliating. Now I can't get out of bed until my mother leaves the house because I don't want her to ask me about the pie
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Posted 11 January 2017 - 09:09 AM

my SO is actually positive on the idea of getting a tube placed sticking out of my stomach.  #purgeeasymode

 

i have a the select-few-foods that i don't want to purge, i just ate some and i'm trying not to "shower".  i don't purge nuts.



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Posted 11 January 2017 - 09:59 AM

Can I survive on green tea mints

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Posted 11 January 2017 - 11:03 AM

I'm frickin scheduling a b/p around when people are going to be gone and like making a mental list of what foods will be in it. To do: be productive, get stuff done, gorge myself and vomit at 1:30...


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Posted 11 January 2017 - 11:44 AM

I stayed home from college today and for some reason instead of studying and catching up on sleep my brain decides it's a good idea to binge and purge while my roommates are out.

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Posted 11 January 2017 - 11:56 AM

I wonder if I could/should fish my wellbutrin out of my purge so I don't waste it :/ I'm on a limited supply since they won't prescribe it to me anymore (obvs) and I only have a few left :(

#9593 MyLanugoIsSexierThanYours

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Posted 11 January 2017 - 02:49 PM

I have not binged and purged in 7 days and my swollen glands have completely disappeared although I've purged 5 times a day but only little meals and no flushing.

Magical. I look so different.

...I want to bp,fuck IP

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#9594 littlestpetshop

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Posted 11 January 2017 - 03:08 PM

as soon as my gag reflex is back I want THIs. specifically with Krispy Kremes b20137babd018429ea1497797739eba0.jpg

I've accepted that I'm a worthless trash person :)

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Posted 11 January 2017 - 03:35 PM

I have not binged and purged in 7 days and my swollen glands have completely disappeared although I've purged 5 times a day but only little meals and no flushing.

Magical. I look so different.

...I want to bp,fuck IP

Keep pushing through it'll all be okay.


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#9596 Kodos

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Posted 12 January 2017 - 04:47 AM

I'm a failure if I purge and I'm a failure if I don't purge.

 

I can't win.


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#9597 isthisjustfantasy

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Posted 12 January 2017 - 04:52 AM

I should have bought more coconut water
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Accountability for HSGD & no b/p:

http://www.myproana....hsgd-no-bp-log/

 

 

                                                           Height: 167.6 cm (66.5 inches)?

                                                                    

                                                                           BMI:  ?

            HW (at 5'3"): 77.1 kg (170 lbs)      LW (at 5'5"): 43 kg (95 lbs)      CW (at 5'6.5" or more?): ??

 

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#9598 isthisjustfantasy

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Posted 12 January 2017 - 04:53 AM

as soon as my gag reflex is back I want THIs. specifically with Krispy Kremes b20137babd018429ea1497797739eba0.jpg

I've accepted that I'm a worthless trash person :)

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Dude I feel like I need to try that to really be an American citizen
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Accountability for HSGD & no b/p:

http://www.myproana....hsgd-no-bp-log/

 

 

                                                           Height: 167.6 cm (66.5 inches)?

                                                                    

                                                                           BMI:  ?

            HW (at 5'3"): 77.1 kg (170 lbs)      LW (at 5'5"): 43 kg (95 lbs)      CW (at 5'6.5" or more?): ??

 

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#9599 fiveyears

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Posted 12 January 2017 - 12:59 PM

I just received an email about noise complaints in my building and even though it was for everyone in the building i'm paranoid my neighbours have complained about me because i've been throwing up and running the shower for ages and just making so much noise almost every night. aaaarrrgghh. I really need to change my schedule and start bping during the day and sleep at night lol.



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Posted 12 January 2017 - 04:35 PM

Binged at work.Got the idea of purging at work but i got paranoid that there Will be cameras even though in the ceiling theres only one of those things for pretty smell and an Air duct.I know the chances are very small but what if theres a camera in The Air duct?!

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