I'm really starting to hit a realisation that, if I ever want to recover, overcoming purging will be a problem. Not just because of the emotions and addictive feeling it has, but because of this. I've been trying to keep purging to an absolute minimum over the last week because it never does any good for me whatsoever but, whenever I felt more towards full than hungry, I could feel it start to come back up anyway and I even choked on some regurgitated juice a couple of times :/
It's so annoying, while I want to keep it right now because I have no interest in recovery, I also know that one day that could change and yet I'll be fighting my body's physical urges every day to keep my food down. And I just don't see how that would be sustainable when it's so much more physically comfortable to just throw up.
Anyway...yeah, does anyone know if there is any medication or anything that helps keep this under control or make it stop?