Just what I needed, I've been looking for others. I relapsed after 8 years recovered. I have a fucking plastic bag full in front of me atm. I mostly feel guilty about how the food is completely wasted, there is no point spending money on this.
I usually line myself up with coke zero, and chew and spit a combo of ice cream and potato chips. I find that I can taste more of both icecream and potato chips if I alternate the bites between them. Then I fill myself up until I feel sick on coke zero and sparkling water.
If anybody is tempted to try this I wish I could show them pictures of the gross plastic bags of spit and chewed up food. It is disgusting. Heck, it can even make me actually vomit at times. The weight of the bag makes me really happy I didn't actually swallow any of it though, but I add an another 50 kcal to my charts, just in case I swallowed some small bits, I know I am covered.
Height: 165 cm / 5¨5"
HW: 58 / 128 (21.3)
CW: below goal weight
LW: 37 / 82 (13.6)
GW1: 49 / 108 (18.0) GW2: 47,5 / 105 (17.4) GW3: 45 / 99 (16.5)
"And your very flesh shall be a great poem."
“I'm so good at beginnings, but in the end I always seem to destroy everything, including myself.”
/ 30+ / sparkling water addict deluxe / walking ashtray / ethanol queen / KiK & MFP in profile