My Brain is being dramatic
Do you ever feel like your world is falling apart around you. All you can do is just sit and watch the destruction. I have now resorted to deadlines for this thing called my life. Oh you can't kill yourself until you've been here, seen this band. Little things to keep me here, but the little things are not working anymore. I've now hit the point of binging and not even purging everyday. My weight is at an all time high. I can't go a day without crying myself to bed. How did I let myself get to this. My life is just literal filth. My room is filled with nasty food I just toss aside. I havent taken a shower in over two weeks. The hardest thing I do everyday is get out of my bed. It's starting to become a challenge to smile. Everyone I care about is leaving me for better things and I can't help but have selfish thoughts wishing that they would stay. I've never had such a need to feel something on the outside because all I am is numb. Cliche I know I feel numb, now I must hurt myself to feel something. But that is how I feel. All I am is a piece of shit who is 21 and still lives with her parents. It might be time that I say goodnight.
This piece of shit of a human