My life is lowkey falling apart lmao
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- I just got suspended for the second time from my job because I keep having cash discrepancies on the register. I can't fucking count money for some reason...?
- I am falling behind in school. I haven't turned in assignments lately because I just can't focus, and if I have turned them in, I do not get good grades. Luckily I'm on spring break now, so I can rest and catch up, but...
- ...I just got sick. Today. I have a runny nose and my throat really hurts.
- ...probably because every other day, I get shitfaced drunk by myself and binge and purge in the middle of the night.
- I obsess over losing weight, even taking "diet pills" and purging, yet I am barely even losing.
- I am fucking broke. Like, I can't even buy a Diet Pepsi at school if I want to sometimes, because I'll only have thirteen cents. On several occasions recently, I've simply just skipped class and gone straight home because of not being able to afford sustenance.
- My room is a disgusting mess. I literally just throw trash on the floor now. I could probably get roaches soon, or somebody could recommend me for an episode of "Hoarders."
- I don't follow my dreams of creative writing or music at all because of constantly being so depressed and tired, and I get immaturely, jealously angry at anybody more successful than me. This has caused me to push friends away and make acquaintances hate me.
This fucking sucks.