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Posted by ChaosMinx , 17 October 2020 · 56 views

Sleep away the hunger pains
Skinny mini, dizzy daze


The Perks of Stress

Posted by ChaosMinx , 12 September 2019 · 38 views

Tuesday & Yesterday, I lost 2.5 lbs, & today, despite eating a whole footlong sub, I lost another 1.5 lbs. 142.5 lbs, baby! Stress makes me drop weight. Now, I just have to get working on losing the rest of the weight I want to lose...now that the stress has passed.


First Day of Exercise

Posted by ChaosMinx , 06 August 2019 · 66 views

Today, I consumed 587 calories. It was also my first day of exercise on the 6-week plan designed by my boyfriend. I couldn't do the whole routine, but here's a breakdown.

I was supposed to do squat-to-press for 30 seconds, but he forgot to borrow his mom's weights, so I just did squats for 30 seconds, then rested for 30 seconds.
I did v-ups for 30 secon...


God Damn It!

Posted by ChaosMinx , 20 July 2019 · 59 views

Whatever meat my boyfriend's cooking smells amazing! However, after 3 days of eating like a fucking pig, I've gained 3.5 lbs, so I can't eat today. I was already hungry & had just finally stopped craving the Chef Boyardee in the cupboard. Fucking asshole having to fucking eat! Right now, I wish he was anorexic with me. I realize how fucked up that is....



Posted by ChaosMinx , 19 July 2019 · 57 views

Okay, new rule: Only eat when happy. If someone says something negative to me, I don't eat that day. Getting skinny will be my revenge. No one values or respects me, but they did before I got fat, so obviously, it's because I'm fat. FUCK this! Rules
If anyone says anything negative to me that makes me feel like I'm not valued or respected, I don't e...



Posted by ChaosMinx , 21 December 2018 · 49 views

I'm only alive in your memories. I'm just a ghost that hasn't died yet. Do not resuscitate. I'm not coming back. 
I've turned to dust- just scattered memories. There's no light left inside. I'm just emptiness and pain. I'm just a shell moving through life without a soul. I only choose to live for you. I would never want to hurt you, so I'll stay in t...


Fasting Fail

Posted by ChaosMinx , 18 December 2018 · 51 views

After last night's blog post, I caved & made some rice & corn. I have to fast now, though. Last night, right after I finished eating my rice & corn, something happened. My boyfriend were talking about the "bro" lifestyle because he's been going to the gym the last 7 months & has lost almost 100 lbs. He's not a "bro", but we talked about h...


Christmas Is Coming...

Posted by ChaosMinx , 17 December 2018 · 59 views

Due to lack of money for groceries I actually want to eat, I thought I'd take advantage & try to fast as much as possible this week. I have 4 family dinners in a row from the 24-27. Today, I ate 4 tbsp of peanut butter, 360 calories, so I'm not doing terrible. Did better than I thought, actually. :) I have plenty of time to sleep off headaches &...


I Should Not Have Done That

Posted by ChaosMinx , 24 November 2018 · 85 views

Read yesterday's post for context. 
After that post, I eventually caved & ate 1 cup of rice with 2 tbsp of margarine & a tiny bit of salt, which brings my calorie count yesterday to 635~. I have had a migraine ALL DAY, which caused me to sleep ALL DAY, & my head STILL fucking hurts. :( I can't restrict that much if it's going to set off m...


Just a Log

Posted by ChaosMinx , 23 November 2018 · 72 views

Yesterday, I ate 2 Viva Puffs & 3 suckers. Nothing else. I also weighed 144 yesterday. :) Feels good to lose weight without any real effort put into it & just skipping meals for a day. The day before that I had 2 Viva Puffs, a few suckers (I don't remember how many) & 2 chicken breasts with chicken & rib sauce. Being too broke for grocerie...

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