Am I Nelson?
Because it feels like I ‘HA HA-ed’ myself.
I feel like I’m having an existential crisis when I don’t b/p.
My life somehow feels incomplete, like I’ve failed since I’ve kept food down.
It’s what I wanted tho: to not b/p, to be b/p free, to rid this disorder yet when I don’t engage... somehow my existence feels empty, bereft, and hollow.
Is it loneliness? Is it sadness? Is it confusion? Since I am breaking away from a habit so ingrained.
Whatever this is... it is isolating and lonely. The only comfort I have is that I did not binge and purge today.
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