does this have an ending?
you also wonder if this is ever going to have an end?
I really want to have a more "peaceful" life. stop thinking about food for at least 24 hours, stop purging one day!!
I tried many things and I can't. sometimes I wonder if I'm going to live like this all my life.
for a couple of weeks I was trying to eat healthy, exercise every day, had a personal trainer, etc. But I couldn't handle the fact that I gained weight and gave it up.
I tried intermittent fasting, but it made me even more anxious to eat as much as possible at the allowed time and since I felt guilty afterwards, I threw it all up ... I feel like there is nothing to get me out of this.
in a month I'm going to live with my boyfriend and it scares me a lot to think about eating with him and not having privacy in the bathroom.
I really want to have a healthy life and be in shape, I want to live in peace.