Breaking the cycle
Thought it was about time I started an accountability thread, especially due to the fact I can't stop binging and my weight loss feels like it's plateaued, especially in the past 7 days where it's been an uncontrollable shitshow, bouncing between 48 and 51kg.
The past few weeks it's gone like this:
Restrict between 400-1400 for 3-4 days
Eat stupidly for 1
Fast and down a whole bunch of laxatives for 2 days in lead-up to being weighed by my doctor one day a week.
Prior to a few weeks ago I was consistently restricting between 0 and 800 daily with no binging. I don't know what the hell happened. All I know is that I've lost control and I can't deal with plateauing.
Which brings us to this.
Hopefully reporting here will keep my intake in check and limit it to purely restricting.
Also to note - I'm having a heart procedure done next week and there's no way in hell I'm weighing in anywhere higher than 48 fully clothed when I get to the hospital.
Yesterday was stupid binge day, today is day 1 of fasting. The plan is to fast tomorrow and Sunday, eat something (probably a bowl of oats) Monday due to a netball game I need to play, restrict below 400 or fast Tuesday, fast both Wednesday and Thursday until the procedure on Friday which I have to fast for anyway. I need to lose this disgusting binge weight and fat hanging off of me.
Allowed: diet soft drinks, tea and water today (Friday), total fast tomorrow up until my doctor's appointment on Sunday, after which I can have diet fluids again amongst restricting or fasting up until the procedure.
Allowed: Occasional 5 calorie glucose tablet if my blood sugar drops below 3.5
Not allowed: weight gain or inadequate weight loss (must reach at least 47 kg)
Not allowed: fucking this up by not being in control and eating too much
Not allowed: ending up in hospital unplanned before this procedure.