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i have to work tomorrow and i want to binge jfefnjs

Posted by charliecain , 05 June 2021 · 25 views

i stupidly agreed to work tmrw and i am so fcking tired from restricting these past few days. i really just need like 3 weeks off to recharge, since it's summer now i rlly wish i could just say no to everyone i know who is asking me for things. but i know that if i did that i would just feel like im being lazy ffs. i also sTUPIDLY started a new...


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fuck me i might binge again,, a lot

Posted by charliecain , 23 May 2021 · 61 views

i'm thinking of buying a shit ton of binge food today since my mom is gonna be gone at work.  
but i know it's a bad idea and I have graduation and a grad party next week that i want to ~kinda~ look good for so I don't want to arrive there looking like I've been binging for the past two weeks (i have been doing that). 
also, buying food online c...


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rant time

Posted by charliecain , 20 May 2021 · 55 views

i've been binging for like a week and a half and i hate it. i've eaten all of the good food and now there's just leftover pasta and a few other snacks that aren't good to binge on at all. 
i've been thinking about ordering more snacks from instacart but my mom is home rn and isn't planning on leaving. and she would not allow me to order or want me to...


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why does this always happen to me

Posted by charliecain , 14 May 2021 · 56 views

every fucking time i start restricting, i won't have very bad cravings but will still have to stay away from any treats and temptation for about a week or two. even after 3 days or so, i won't really want any sugar or unhealthy bingeable foods. 
buT, every time i'm like a week into restricting, i will somehow get obligated into going somewhere or doi...


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stupid ass just binged

Posted by charliecain , 09 May 2021 · 64 views

i’m so mad at myself bruh
i hate going to my grandparent’s house like i binge eVERY FUCKING TIME I GET THERE WHY CANT I JUST NOT like what is wrong with me when i go there jfc


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ugh

Posted by charliecain , 28 April 2021 · 31 views

im back in one of my famous binging phases :/ i also have to set up a counseling appointment for college to find out which classes i should enroll in but like,, i'm so nervous to make a phone call. i'm fine talking to people over zoom but if it's not face-to-face i never know what to say or anything. i also worry about feeling stupid or wasting time for t...


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*hangs out w friends

Posted by charliecain , 16 April 2021 · 59 views

them: where should we go to eat?? :)
me, a dumb bitch who's restricting: haha i have no idea lol haha i'm not even hungry haha
them: huh? are u sure? :huh: :(
me: yep! i'm totally fine haha *pain*
them: ... are you completely sure?
me:
them:
me: alright, i GUESS i can get something *instantly regrets it and ends up going somewhere and ordering something...


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hi it's me

Posted by charliecain , 14 April 2021 · 35 views

,, the bitch that is exercising at night which will eventually make me go to sleep later even though i have to get up early tomorrow :) :) :)
it's fine,, i guess i had to spend like 1.5 hrs on learning two songs for guitar today and my body just aches for my bed lol. i enjoyed learning them but like,,, i slouch so much and my lower and upper back are...


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i hate everything and myself

Posted by charliecain , 24 March 2021 · 96 views

i think i have reached the point in my life where i have absolutely no love for myself anymore. i can't even begin to get into some of the things that i hate about myself. like most of them aren't even about my self image or my weight/body, they're just things that either won't ever change about me or terrible things in my past that haunt me to this day a...


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skinny teachers

Posted by charliecain , 23 March 2021 · 60 views

this is kinda random but i got to see my teachers in person today and i have like 4 that are so fucking skinny it makes me want to cry lmao,, they are all really pretty too and they seem like really kind people 
the camera does not do them justice at all lmao






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