689 - dissociation
Visiting my in laws today.
They made plans for the future already, like beyond my countdown which is already ridiculously far out.
Was kind of a weird feeling agreeing to plans I know I'm not going to be there for.
I mean, I want to go back home to the tropical Island I spent all my childhood summers on, but also. I'll be dead so.
I just hope it doesn't fuck up everyone else's plans too much. I know they are planning on going because of me.