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𝘛𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘑𝘶𝘯𝘦 2𝘯𝘥

Posted by twilyyy , 02 June 2021 · 22 views

So I'm too scared to weigh myself. I've been eating around 100-200 calories a day still. I did fuck up twice lately and I ate 340 calories one day and and 500 calories another. But I'm back. Ive been trying to aim for five miles a day like I used to, but exercising sucks. It's so boring. Whoever said chewing gum to replace meals would cause hella bloating...


𝘞𝘦𝘥𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘔𝘢𝘺 19𝘵𝘩

Posted by twilyyy , 20 May 2021 · 28 views

I'm gonna lose it one day. I'm not doing well. I know it's from me eating too little, but I can't go back now. Also I haven't been weighing myself but I have been told by more and more people that I look "little". That's a good feeling.  
But tbh I reaaaally want to kill myself or self harm because I feel like no matter what I do and no matter how m...


𝘚𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘔𝘢𝘺 9𝘵𝘩

Posted by twilyyy , 10 May 2021 · 21 views

So, for mother's day I actually had a really good time. We had to drive to Chicago (well I did dml) and there actually wasn't alot of traffic. We did park my car all wrong tho in the parking garage. We didn't know that we had to park then pay we paid then ended up exiting and we couldn't get back in. So we wasted almost twenty dollars for nothing. After w...


𝘍𝘳𝘪𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘔𝘢𝘺 7𝘵𝘩

Posted by twilyyy , 08 May 2021 · 26 views

I honestly miss him so much. He was like my best friend and now I feel hopeless without him. Part of me is telling myself that i’ve ruined things because of my mental illness and ed and that I could have done better if I had just taken care of myself. But another part of me is saying that he should have worked harder to keep me in his life even though I h...


𝘚𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘔𝘢𝘺 2𝘯𝘥

Posted by twilyyy , 02 May 2021 · 42 views

It's been a while, but umm. I've been so depressed lately. I'm still not eating normally, I eat less than a 1000 calories a day and try my best to burn it off. For a while, I walked 5 miles a day and about thirty miles a week. But then finals happened. :') So now I'm stuck doing homework and working with no time to exercise. Also, as I type this there is...


𝘛𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 22𝘯𝘥

Posted by twilyyy , 23 April 2021 · 35 views

Soooo I got an apple watch. Which was the best thing ever. I can now monitor ALL of my calories during an entire day including work instead of relying on dumb ass apps. I also have been cheating. Cauliflower rice is my go to. It's under 100 cals in three cups and it's filling. Plus, I finally bought some chai spice tea. Iv'e been CRAVING it. I don't reall...


𝘔𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 19𝘵𝘩

Posted by twilyyy , 19 April 2021 · 51 views

HE SAID “I ALWAYS CARED ABOUT YOU”! lmaooo dude, how? how can you say you cared about me when you literally left me after freaking out about my ed? You only want me back because I got another guy’s number and we might become a thing. ;) Guys are so desperate and sad. I should just block him tbh. At this point, he’s just lying to himself and me. I told him...


𝘔𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 12𝘵𝘩

Posted by twilyyy , 12 April 2021 · 67 views

𝘔𝘰𝘯𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 12𝘵𝘩 So I guess my bf and I are still talking? (Just as friends though) Which is fine, he's a dick. I feel much better after hooking up with someone to get over him. Yes, I'm a bit of a slut. But we didn't have sex. I told him I wanted to get over someone and he was super hard to understand because of his Polish accent, but he was cute enough. We did some stuf...


𝘛𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 8𝘵𝘩

Posted by twilyyy , 08 April 2021 · 46 views

𝘛𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 8𝘵𝘩 I am such a fatass, I keep eating because my mom is literally forcing me. She asks me if I eat, and she almost broke down crying because I told her that I wasn't going to eat. So umm I finally did. I ate cauliflower rice which is really low in calories and carbs, and a (vegan) sausage link. Which is like five carbs and about 200 calories? (In all: 230 cal...


𝘚𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 3𝘳𝘥

Posted by twilyyy , 03 April 2021 · 47 views

𝘚𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘈𝘱𝘳𝘪𝘭 3𝘳𝘥 It's been such a rough week for me. I broke my fast at 45 hours and ate half of an avocado and a little bit of white rice. I then burned it all off the same day and now I'm back on my fast. I only ate because the night before when I got into a huge fight with my boyfriend, I literally begged him to stay and told him that I would stop fasting. That's how I...