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Day 12 & Day 13 - 200/400 cal

Posted by butterfliewingthin in ABC Diet ~Quarantine Edition~, 13 July 2020 · 10 views

OKAY, Sorry I didn't update last night. I actually the entire day outside from like morning to night which is really RARE for me, so when I came home drunk as I was all I wanted to do was lay back, get high, and then fall asleep. Ugh my head and ovaries were aching so bad this morning I felt like a zombie haha. And yes, my period came on 5 days...


It's been a while

Posted by LottieAna_ in Losing it..., 13 July 2020 · 12 views

It's been a while since I've posted in my barely existent blog. It is what it is. 
I was struggling to lose. Nothing was happening. I would fast and some how GAIN!! I felt it was related to my Mirena Coil, so I eventually convinced my doctor to remove it. It was removed a week ago tomorrow. Since then I have restricted to under 800kcal and managed to...


life as i know it

Posted by coolcru1zrrr in just like clay, 13 July 2020 · 21 views

venting here since i have no one else to vent to. 
covid has done a great job of stripping away any ability to socialize that i had before. as per usual, i promised myself that i would lose the weight and come back to school looking skinnier and try to recover from bulimia, but nothing has changed. 
it's 4 am and i can't sleep, yuck 
i ende...


A little gain.. but thats OK

Posted by Beastly_ in Obese to Happy, 13 July 2020 · 41 views

Back up however yesterday i ate loads and haven't had a BM in a few days so i am hoping some of that is food etc. 
I still cant get over the fact that my B/F now knows about it and i don't need to hide it anymore.So, if i say i don't want any food, he doesn't push it anymore as he knows that its probably because i have eaten already. I am...


From: The Fasting Game (Fasting Log) -- Everyone is Welcome to Join at any Time

Posted by seasnake in The Fasting Game: seasnake, 13 July 2020 · 40 views

Source: The Fasting Game (Fasting Log) -- Everyone is Welcome to Join at any Time


Literally hate everything right now

Posted by Honeyapplecrisp in Honeyapplecrisp's Blog, 12 July 2020 · 40 views

Sooo i found out that my close friend’s parents are giving them “gifts” for every like 10 lbs they lose. It’s supposed to be like motivation or something to lose weight, and while it’s really awful her entire family is on board with this, i can’t help but be super jealous of the fact that for losing weight she gets really expensive things she’s wanted for...


july 12th, 2020- 141.8

Posted by local-loser in local-loser's accountability, 12 July 2020 · 34 views

I wanted to die the moment I realized I gained. his has to be a quick post. today was utter and complete shit. took 20 more mg of bisacodyl for a grand total of 30 mg. spent an hour earlier dealing with that. But I think i will be back under 141 tomorrow. didnt exercise today. low motivation and low energy. alloted intake for day two of ABC: 500...



Posted by thin-is-a-sin in thin-is-a-sin's Blog, 12 July 2020 · 31 views

9:20am coffee. 11:26am a corn dog. 12:10pm 3 slices of pizza. 4:37pm light yogurt - strawberry (90) with honey nut cereal.  
7pm walked on the treadmill for 1hr 14min.  
Morning weight in: 140.2


July 13th (start)

Posted by Rezidiv in fasting for 10 days, 12 July 2020 · 38 views

So yea I'm going to fast for 10 days (July 13th - July 22nd), I'm super excited, haha.
I update my weight and how I feel on this blog everyday. Start weight is 116lbs.
With fasting I mean I won't eat anything, the only products allowed are: water, tea, black coffee, coke zero, chew gum. I might take some supplements, depends on how I feel.  Moreov...


7/12/2020: New Blades (tw)

Posted by 4m83r in The Mourning Pages, 12 July 2020 · 48 views

I got new blades today. I barely know how it happened, let alone how I got away with it. I went to Home Depot with a family member, and we passed right by the razorblades. Like, the big boy ones. So my family member needed to go look for something, and I asked if I could go look at nails or something, and then I went and bought blades. I bought myself bla...



Posted by berin in berin's notebook, 12 July 2020 · 41 views

+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+-+   Intake: 1855 cal.   Binge @ 0:30 (685): 1 shrimp & 4 scallops w. butter & wine, 3 slices multigrain bread, 1 cup 2% Greek yogurt.
Breakfast @ 7:00 (165): 1 crêpe, 2x coffee .
Lunch @ 11:00 (310): Salad , 9 shrimp & 9 scallops w. butter & wine, water.



Posted by LARD ASS in LARD’S Blog, 12 July 2020 · 27 views

So when I’m full of binge food I’ll be super energized and motivated and feel ready to tackle the world hit but as soon as I purge I am exhausted, wiped out and all my energy/motivation has goes down the drain along with my food effectively making me a useless blob. Wtf.


✰day 66✰

Posted by ChalkOutline in Stairway to 120lb, 12 July 2020 · 40 views

walnut (14cal)
apple (78cal)   ✰Lunch
3 meatball (205cal)    ✰Dinner  

protein crepe (123cal)
salad (42cal)   
Today's Mood   Nearly a week passed but I'm back on my track again and I'm so happy and excited for my proana days! I feel motivated. I'm 59 kg now and by...


die or be fat

Posted by youcantbuythin in counting down, 12 July 2020 · 35 views

it's the 12th of july.  my new scales arrived yesterday! i weighed in at 144.5 , a loss of 1.5 lbs since the 7th. :) my BMI is 20.7 now.  i've been reading my old biology book and i was reading about the gallbladder, and apparently just by looking at or smelling food it triggers the vasovagal nerve and your gallbladder contracts to rele...


life is rough

Posted by keeeet in keet: dear diary, 12 July 2020 · 17 views

i don't even remember what did me in first, but about two weeks ago something happened and i fell off the wagon, but then my grandmother had a massive stroke and is in hospice and it's been way harder on me than i anticipated. so i had a harder time getting back on track dealing with such intense sadness. I haven't had a full-fledged binge the past two we...


it's 2am / it's eating me up

Posted by caffeine-bluejeans in for the world is hollow and i have touched the sky, 12 July 2020 · 20 views

i'm so tired but i can't sleep, i think i'll go listen to some nirvana. already did the beatles earlier.  
if i oversleep i'm gonna exercise and then start studying for the upcoming exams. 
if i manage to wake up for school i'll allow myself some cheese for breakfast and chocolate milk for lunch, and i'll probably go straight to bed the moment i...


Brain fog lol

Posted by absolutelyunfabulous in Long Road lol, 12 July 2020 · 29 views

So I've been doing super super well these past three weeks, haven't binged once, worked out often, done 72 hour fasts and managed an 100 one too, and when i have eaten its only been a decent sized meal, not a whole day, which has been planned in advance. Had a meal last night, and today have woken up with the BIGGEST urge to binge that i've ever had. Like...


First BP in a long time

Posted by FatGirlz97 in Fat Obese Bulimic, 12 July 2020 · 40 views

I just ordered an ungodly amount of food that I am going to pick up in a few minutes. Haven't had a proper BP in a while so I'm pretty excited to have a nice puke session. The only downfall is I'm not totally sure what I'm going to do with the trash. Maybe leave it on the side of the road or something? Idk. I'll figure it out. Anyways, I ordered lots of f...



Posted by Rain614 in Blogish Things, 12 July 2020 · 27 views

Yoo    So I'm a week in to the hsgd and I might just switch to the lower cal one. I got my maple syrup so I have made up my iced coffee. Only 120 cal per litre. I've had one of those already today. The caffeine is insane. And it has the side affect of making me feel a little sick. It's great cause I don't have to worry about eating til...



Posted by gonestill in gonestill's blog, 12 July 2020 · 28 views

i've mentioned in posts before how much my weight fluctuates, and although i'm using unhealthy behaviors...
it's almost as if my weight fluctuates in a healthy way? but maybe i don't even know what that looks like.
i'm drunk and i just realized how long my weight has been fluctuating between 135-130? i'm really happy
i'm no longer 10 pounds heavier but n...

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