hey everyone, new to this site, not really new to the whole ana thing though. Ive struggleed with my weight since i was about 10 and 17 now. Ive been motivated to be deadly skinny and ive been motivated to try recovery on my own terms. Ive been forced into recovery and hospitalised when it all becomes too much and i lose control.. Guess i just have decided to give into ana once and for all, i dont care what my counsellors say anymore, no matter if they threaten me with hospital again... this time im staying motivated. Getting out of the 'healthy' weight and finally back to underweight.
Anyways, im 162cm and 48.4 kilograms. My ultimate goal is 39 kilograms (maybe lower, maybe higher depending on hospital situations and how i feel about myself then)