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what anorexic thought is going through your head RIGHT NOW?


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#10821 WildflowerGirls

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Posted 30 June 2020 - 04:47 PM

if my friend under estimates her caloric intake onE MORE FUCKING TIME. (i know she doesnt understand calories, but me drinking coffee, 1/4 cup of nuts 1/2 cup of blueberries, and 1 cup of milk is not the same as her eating a burrito, a slice of pie, cooked meat, and 7 glasses of milk even if she exercises alot more then i do)


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#10822 Enthusiastic Turtle

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Posted 30 June 2020 - 05:27 PM

Has anyone noticed me yet haha

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CW: 168.4 lbs / 76.3 kg

LW: 134.2 lbs  / 60.8 kg 

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#10823 Enthusiastic Turtle

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Posted 30 June 2020 - 05:28 PM

Double post

20 years old

5'5" /  166 cm

CW: 168.4 lbs / 76.3 kg

LW: 134.2 lbs  / 60.8 kg 

SW: 165.8 lbs  /  75.2 kg

HW: 172 lbs / 78 kg

  
Goal Weight

170  165  160   155   150   145   140   135   130   125   120   115   110   105   100   95

 

"Bear in mind, people with eating disorders tend to be both competitive and intelligent. We are incredibly perfectionistic. We often excel in school, athletics, artistic pursuits. We also tend to quit without warning. Refuse to go to school, drop out, quit jobs, leave lovers, move, lose all our money. We get sick of being impressive. Rather, we tire of having to seem impressive. As a rule, most of us never really believed we were any good in the first place."


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#10824 anarchiczera

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Posted 30 June 2020 - 08:45 PM

god i should just start c/s'ing all my food again...


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gw: as close to 0% body fat as I can manage

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I just want to leave my mark... make people feel like they belong... make people happy... and be happy... if my chaos-ridden brain will let me do that...

I am not mortal, I am lunar energy trapped on earth... one day I will be able to return home to faraway stars where i belong..

If I am lucky, one day I will have the great honour of offering if only a little beauty to this world... there is none within me, but every day I still try to grow flowers in the wasteland.


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#10825 Abbey84

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 07:18 AM

I'm on the last day of my 72hr fast. Just keep fasting and don't fuck it up...

#10826 daikon

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 07:45 AM

fuck i forgot to take the bag i hid food in out to the trash when i went on my walk, so will have to go again today but win for me actually so I can burn more calories


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#10827 acetylenedream

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 07:49 AM

I didn't think I was going to get invited to anything for the 4th of July but I just did and I know people are going to be bringing so much food. I really wish I could get out of it.

Does anyone else feel like they're an all-or-nothing kind of person? Like when I'm restricting, I can restrict forever but if I fuck up once that's it and who even knows if I can get back on track. I'm honestly so scared because I've been doing good lately and FEELING way better and if I fuck this up and go back to living like I was before I won't be able to forgive myself
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#10828 milzybabi

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 08:09 AM

thinking about what food to lie about and say i ate earlier so i can get out of dinner


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#10829 Hokey_Pokey

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 08:17 AM

What if i just lived on cupasoups??
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#10830 FobicZ

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 09:17 AM

That I'm not thin enough to be AN, usual denial and thinking I'm a whale.... :blink:


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#10831 Blunder_Road

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 11:26 AM

I can eat when i get x amount of stuff done for work but I can’t get any work done because I can’t focus because I’m hungry so I guess I’m just gonna vibe forever


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How strange it is to be anything at all.

 

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#10832 anarchiczera

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 11:29 AM

Water instead of food

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age: 21  |  h: 5'8.5"  |  cw: 109lbs

gw: as close to 0% body fat as I can manage

~accountability~

I just want to leave my mark... make people feel like they belong... make people happy... and be happy... if my chaos-ridden brain will let me do that...

I am not mortal, I am lunar energy trapped on earth... one day I will be able to return home to faraway stars where i belong..

If I am lucky, one day I will have the great honour of offering if only a little beauty to this world... there is none within me, but every day I still try to grow flowers in the wasteland.


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#10833 anarchiczera

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 11:30 AM

Water instead of food

-- ⚜ --

age: 21  |  h: 5'8.5"  |  cw: 109lbs

gw: as close to 0% body fat as I can manage

~accountability~

I just want to leave my mark... make people feel like they belong... make people happy... and be happy... if my chaos-ridden brain will let me do that...

I am not mortal, I am lunar energy trapped on earth... one day I will be able to return home to faraway stars where i belong..

If I am lucky, one day I will have the great honour of offering if only a little beauty to this world... there is none within me, but every day I still try to grow flowers in the wasteland.


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31-25-34

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#10834 Mortifera

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 12:05 PM

Debating on whether or not I should count calories and carbs on my vitamins since they're essential and I'm trying to limit to 20 net carbs daily. I've been counting them, and it's difficult to NOT count them; I need to take gummy multivitamins because all others make me sick.

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#10835 whydoitry

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 06:37 PM

That coke zero gon make you gain

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Posted 01 July 2020 - 07:37 PM

nothing sepcific tbh but the fact that i'm lying in bed scrolling through MPA at 1;36am with my stomach grumbling says enough



#10837 Abbey84

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Posted 02 July 2020 - 06:14 AM

What if i just lived on cupasoups??

God I used to love those years ago. Still got some slim a soup minestrone might have that later

#10838 icarus4

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Posted 02 July 2020 - 06:15 AM

I wanna curb stomp my cravings :))

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Posted 02 July 2020 - 06:15 AM

I wanna curb stomp my cravings :))
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#10840 anarchiczera

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Posted 02 July 2020 - 11:46 AM

ugh i'm so frustrated with life. i just want to do a one week protein bar mono/fast to make it all better. i miss low restricting. i am really sad today.


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age: 21  |  h: 5'8.5"  |  cw: 109lbs

gw: as close to 0% body fat as I can manage

~accountability~

I just want to leave my mark... make people feel like they belong... make people happy... and be happy... if my chaos-ridden brain will let me do that...

I am not mortal, I am lunar energy trapped on earth... one day I will be able to return home to faraway stars where i belong..

If I am lucky, one day I will have the great honour of offering if only a little beauty to this world... there is none within me, but every day I still try to grow flowers in the wasteland.


37X2b47.png

31-25-34

repentance  •   purity  •  selflessness

disordered since ... like 2010?



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