what anorexic thought is going through your head RIGHT NOW? - Page 547 - Anorexia Discussions - Forums and Community

Jump to content


About MPA

MPA is a site dedicated to the support or recovery of those suffering from eating disorders or body dysmorphic disorders. Please be sensitive to this fact when creating an account and contributing to the board.


Photo

what anorexic thought is going through your head RIGHT NOW?


  • Please log in to reply
10935 replies to this topic

#10921 snork

snork

    Advanced Sage

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 1449 posts

Posted 11 July 2020 - 01:39 PM

"I know I said I would eat today, but I already broke my fast with a low carb monster and that's enough"

Sent from my bathroom floor using Tapatalk
 
"ᴬⁿᵈ ᴵ ᵃᵐ ˡᵒʷ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵘⁿʷᵉˡˡ
ᵀʰⁱˢ ⁱˢ ˡᵒᵛᵉ, ᵗʰⁱˢ ⁱˢ ʰᵉˡˡ
ᵀʰⁱˢ ˢʷᵉᵉᵗ ᵖˡᵃᵍᵘᵉ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᶠᵒˡˡᵒʷˢ ᵐᵉ" 
ᶠˡᵉˢʰ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴮᵒⁿᵉ ⁻ ᴷᵉᵃᵗᵒⁿ ᴴᵉⁿˢᵒⁿ

 

 ( He / Him pronouns)

A sick meme for the MPA mods bc I love them:

Spoiler

ED Playlist

snermk3

 
 

 


#10922 Puzzling

Puzzling

    Advanced Warrior

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPip
  • 305 posts
  • LocationUSA

Posted 11 July 2020 - 01:49 PM

Currently, telling myself I hate myself and I am fat sooooo I need to completed this fast.


Eat for the body you want. And not, for the body you have.
 
Stats:

Spoiler

 

Gifs:

Spoiler

#10923 snork

snork

    Advanced Sage

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 1449 posts

Posted 11 July 2020 - 02:36 PM

Debating with myself whether or not it would be worth it to pull from my meager savings to buy a scale from the store next to my house even tho it might break and I have no way to transport it back to my main house

Sent from my bathroom floor using Tapatalk
 
"ᴬⁿᵈ ᴵ ᵃᵐ ˡᵒʷ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵘⁿʷᵉˡˡ
ᵀʰⁱˢ ⁱˢ ˡᵒᵛᵉ, ᵗʰⁱˢ ⁱˢ ʰᵉˡˡ
ᵀʰⁱˢ ˢʷᵉᵉᵗ ᵖˡᵃᵍᵘᵉ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᶠᵒˡˡᵒʷˢ ᵐᵉ" 
ᶠˡᵉˢʰ ᵃⁿᵈ ᴮᵒⁿᵉ ⁻ ᴷᵉᵃᵗᵒⁿ ᴴᵉⁿˢᵒⁿ

 

 ( He / Him pronouns)

A sick meme for the MPA mods bc I love them:

Spoiler

ED Playlist

snermk3

 
 

 


#10924 SatanDrankMyCoffee

SatanDrankMyCoffee

    Advanced Sage

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 1351 posts
  • LocationHell's Throne

Posted 11 July 2020 - 02:40 PM

I’m thinking about how hard/easy it’ll be to eat one meal a day with no snacks and trying to keep it under 600 calories a day including coffee etc

tumblr_mh8luhvnW31rggpbzo1_500.gif

Life is hard, accepting it is harder

 

 


#10925 SatanDrankMyCoffee

SatanDrankMyCoffee

    Advanced Sage

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 1351 posts
  • LocationHell's Throne

Posted 11 July 2020 - 02:40 PM

-accidental double post sorry-

tumblr_mh8luhvnW31rggpbzo1_500.gif

Life is hard, accepting it is harder

 

 


#10926 pastelpinkloli

pastelpinkloli

    Warrior

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPip
  • 121 posts

Posted 11 July 2020 - 03:51 PM

I'm scared I am going to gain weight from the single piece of chocolate I had that was 40 calories. I'm so stupid I wouldn't have cried or broke down if I didnt have it.

~ Stats ~

 

4'10, 20 yrs

HW: 150lbs/68kg

CW: 90lbs/40.8kg (BMI 18.8)

7/8/2020 goal: Get to 87lbs (BMI 18.4) by the end of July

 

* Will update CW weekly*

 


#10927 Blunder_Road

Blunder_Road

    Omniscient

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 3351 posts

Posted 11 July 2020 - 04:37 PM

I’m not currently freaking out about any food I ate today which means I don’t have an eating disorder and also never had one


Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

How strange it is to be anything at all.

 

tumblr_nmepjy9p3v1sn75h6o1_540.jpg


#10928 Vodkashrine

Vodkashrine

    Advanced Guru

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 560 posts
  • LocationMy bed.

Posted 11 July 2020 - 05:12 PM

I have to fast today, I have to fast today, I really fucking need to fast today.

Sent from my SM-G950U using Tapatalk

#10929 strivinggperfectionn

strivinggperfectionn

    Warrior

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPip
  • 200 posts
  • LocationWashington

Posted 11 July 2020 - 05:14 PM

how long can i go with just drinking the white monsters? also mad at myself for eating some peas lol


  • SatanDrankMyCoffee likes this
Avery they/them
 
weight.png
 

#10930 Sunnyfuckle

Sunnyfuckle

    Member

  • Members
  • PipPip
  • 28 posts

Posted 11 July 2020 - 05:21 PM

God I always want to snack at night and it's so hard to resist but I know I'll feel like total trash if I cave 😰
  • blxckbexuty likes this

~Anxious, Insomniac, Diet Soda Addict. UK~


#10931 anarchiczera

anarchiczera

    Advanced Sage

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 2326 posts
  • Locationpurge-atory

Posted 11 July 2020 - 10:21 PM

Lemme do 1hr of stomach vacuums while watching this ep


Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk

-- ⚜ --

age: 21  |  h: 5'8.5"  |  cw: 109lbs

gw: as close to 0% body fat as I can manage

~accountability~

I just want to leave my mark... make people feel like they belong... make people happy... and be happy... if my chaos-ridden brain will let me do that...

I am not mortal, I am lunar energy trapped on earth... one day I will be able to return home to faraway stars where i belong..

If I am lucky, one day I will have the great honour of offering if only a little beauty to this world... there is none within me, but every day I still try to grow flowers in the wasteland.


37X2b47.png

31-25-34

repentance  •   purity  •  selflessness

disordered since ... like 2010?


#10932 blxckbexuty

blxckbexuty

    Advanced Warrior

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPip
  • 249 posts

Posted 11 July 2020 - 10:26 PM

my arms are so fat

#10933 someBODY ONCE TOLD ME

someBODY ONCE TOLD ME

    Advanced Member

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPip
  • 103 posts
  • LocationRiverdale

Posted Yesterday, 05:22 AM

how did I end up this fat

I hate myself so much


  • SatanDrankMyCoffee likes this

cw: 47 kg
lw: 45 kg
gw: 43 kg
ugw: 40 kg
h: 160 cm


#10934 Shyblonde

Shyblonde

    Member

  • Members
  • PipPip
  • 38 posts

Posted Yesterday, 05:33 AM

You really don’t need to eat, you ate yesterday.
  • Moonrisekitten likes this

#10935 maeisdead

maeisdead

    Newbie

  • New Members
  • Pip
  • 2 posts

Posted Yesterday, 06:10 AM

i can't believe i let myself get off track so bad i'm disgusting

#10936 goodnightandgo

goodnightandgo

    Sage

  • Accountability access
  • PipPipPipPipPipPipPipPip
  • 1294 posts
  • LocationUSA

Posted Today, 08:38 AM

i had a crying breakdown last night bc my mom and stepdad forced me to eat popeyes when i got home from work and i tried to get out of it but they kept being invasive and guilt-trippy. i have been mostly clean from my previous bulimia behaviors except some purging the last few months (via both vomiting and lax) but bc of that and bc of the guilt i felt for being almost 2 months purge free i purged this weekend and took lax last night and the night before. i tried to tell my mom that i'm tired of them always wanting fast food and making me eat it too and that i'm burnt out on it and that it's triggering my ED (and that i'm trying to eat healthier. i buy and pay for my own safe foods) but she still won't listen. btw "well u need to eat something" isn't an excuse and guilt-tripping me bc i don't want to keep eating this much junk food anymore isn't cute or being a "good parent". i'm 23 let me control my own life for once :)) i just wanna starve myself and restrict in peace.

Sent from my galaxy S9 using Tapatalk

nicole. 23. sad and pathetic fangirl. diagnosed bulimia/und. atypical anorexia/osfed (started in 2013, before the bulimia) plus a ton of other issues. arianator :wub: :unsure:

edc: goodnightandgo

ed twt: sweetenercals

tumblr: sweetenerthin

💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

------------------------------------------

| GW1: 140
| GW2: 130
| GW3: 125
| GW4: 120
| GW5: 115
| GW6: 110
| UGW: 96 or less
| SW: 140ish
| HW: 167-ish
| LW: 125-ish?
| CW: 160
| height: about 5'1-ish |
| longest time without self-harm: 135 days (2014/2015)
200+ days (2016/2017)|currently: 7 months clean from self-harm (2019/2020)
--------------------------------------------------------
you are you no matter how much of you there is - shane dawson 💕
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐛𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮" - cameron boyce {1999-2019} 💕
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

https://twitter.com/...527616789889024

https://twitter.com/...203475007307776

https://twitter.com/...256021869060098



2 user(s) are reading this topic

1 members, 1 guests, 0 anonymous users


    goodnightandgo