Hi, I'm Kris. I'm in the US and came here for some community who knows the "crazy." Oddly enough, I'm logging on to this site and yet I'm going into residential treatment in a couple weeks. My goal in the meantime is just to have people to talk with. I'm going into treatment early July cos I need to, not want to yet. And I haven't been able to hang out with my local friends or do normal stuff because I have a neuromuscular disease affecting my eyes (which I was affirmed can't be resolved until I'm significantly better).
You know, some days I can honestly say to myself, I'd rather have to wear an eye patch all the time and still lose another ten lbs, while other days I recognize how flat-out miserable as my vision deteriorates. I'm not going to post goal weights, even though I have one set to reach before my entry date to treatment. I wish I could say getting to that weight will make me happy. But, reality is, I'm caught between a rock and a hard place with the neuromuscular disease and ultimately have to get recovered (I'm more scared of failing at this last-ditch bid than ever starting and just suffering on. Anyone ever felt that way?