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#221 xaesthetic

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Posted 29 July 2017 - 04:39 PM


The imagery the just flashed through my head legit made my entire body tense up.

I need to calm the fuck down

Frfr 💯 srs


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Posted 29 July 2017 - 07:46 PM


Is it bad that I want to reach a critically low weight just to tame my sex drive?

Ok that's not the only reason... but still.

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Posted 29 July 2017 - 07:47 PM


I think I was supposed to be a guy, but ended up with a vagina.

This would explain a LOT of shit tbh


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Posted 29 July 2017 - 08:36 PM


Sometimes, I stalk my ex-Dom on facebook.

He had his issues, but also a huge dick and the sex was always on point 💯

10/10 would fuck again

im sorry. I should really start using spoilers for some of this shit.


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Posted 29 July 2017 - 09:21 PM


My boss looks like a young Edward Norton and I've legit had 7 sex dreams about him since I started working here.


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Posted 30 July 2017 - 11:53 AM


Netflix is $20 billion in debt.

Probably because nobody actually pays for a subscription. They just borrow the login info from some other sap willing to pay for it.


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Posted 30 July 2017 - 11:58 AM


I already hate my new user name...

Why do I even bother changing it?

I am xaesthetic
I will always be xaesthetic

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Posted 30 July 2017 - 01:08 PM


Rate me and my boyfriend's passive aggressive fridge magnet exchange tbh
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Posted 30 July 2017 - 07:36 PM

Queue panic attack. My palms are sweaty. My heart is racing. My breathing is shallow. I'm anxious and I don't know why. I'm getting nauseous and dizzy. My fingers feel like they're going numb. I can't sit still. Writing this is kind of helping. I don't know what to do. I'm freaking out and I can't calm down. Maybe if I just keep typing. What do I write about? ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm how about some of my favorite things.

I really love the Harry Potter series. The movies are good for getting a better visual of the wizarding world, but nothing beats the book. Although, the book does have a lot of flaws. I should do a master post of everything wrong with Harry Potter. You can love something and still be critical of it.

This is helping.

I also really love cats. I've never understood people who hate cats. They're very cute and soft and, while some can be assholes, most are really nice and cuddley. I love cuddling with my kitten. 

Wolves are my favorite animal though. They're quite beautiful and interesting. Arctic wolves are my favorite.

 

Red is my favorite color. I used to say it was green and I really like the color green, but my whole life, I've always gravitated towards the color red. It wasn't until I was 16 and painted my room red with black trim that I realized how calming the color was and how at peace I felt to be surrounded by it. I was really nervous about painting my room red at first because I was sure the color would make me anxious or angry, but I was really surprised to find it had the opposite effect.

I love ballet. It was the only thing in the world that I was actually good at. I really miss taking dance classes and performing on stage. I'm going to look into some local studios to see if I can't get back into it.

 

I think I'm okay now.......



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Posted 01 August 2017 - 11:03 AM


Rent: $1115/m
Utilities: $70/m
Electric: $30/m
Phone bill: $130/m
Gym fee: $100/m
Avg gas money: $80/m
Car insurance: $125/m

Total/m: $1650


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Posted 01 August 2017 - 02:31 PM


Is it weird that I feel like a failure because today I woke up and actually felt normal for the first time in a week?

I'm not empty enough...

Wat do?


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Posted 01 August 2017 - 08:10 PM

This is a test

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Posted 01 August 2017 - 08:19 PM

This is a second attempt

 

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Posted 06 August 2017 - 02:24 PM


#vitdidnothingwrong
#notbelievinginfeminismisnttrolling
#bantherealtrolls
#thisisafuckingjoke


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Posted 06 August 2017 - 02:27 PM


I love when people say centrists are conservatives because they have conservative views.

Do you even know what centrism is?

Yes I have some conservative views.
But I also have some liberal views.
But I subscribe to neither ideology on a whole level that I'm willing to label myself one or the other.

I.e. centrism.

It's stupid that I should even have to explain that.

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Posted 06 August 2017 - 02:36 PM


I also love when people talk shit about people who don't agree with 3rd wave feminism, but then asked why it's actually needed in first world countries, the best they can come up with is

"Gender wage gap" (fake)
And
"Pink tax" (lies)

And then when given actual examples of how these are debunked, they turn to "men catcall me on the street. I should be able to wear what I want without being harassed"

Fair, but... How can feminism help you with that?

Seriously... legit, like how?

Every action that can be taken to make women equal in western society has already been done. Legal action can be pursued if you're ever discriminated against because of your gender.

Feminism will not stop men from being assholes. Period.

Now if you REALLY want to fight for equal rights for women, you should really start standing up against Islam and it's treatment of women. It's so funny that people get mad when you don't want to agree with their feminist views, but these are the same people protecting Islamic culture which greatly oppresses women.

Make up your mind. Equal rights for ALL women through the WORLD... or nah?


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Posted 06 August 2017 - 02:38 PM


All I've seen 3rd wave feminism try to do is censor people's speech, police people's thoughts, and try to ruin videogames and modern day television.

Everything exists to push a bullshit narrative nowadays and it needs to stop.


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Posted 06 August 2017 - 05:54 PM

About to purge this lunch.
Shame the only people who'd talk me out of it are gone now...
Not like anyone else gives a shit.

 



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Posted 06 August 2017 - 06:42 PM

Well that was embarrassing.
So there I was, standing next in front of toilet.

My feet were apart, my finger was down my throat, and I was looking up.

I WAS NOT expecting puke to come out before I was able to bend over and I ended up getting it all over the wall behind the toilet.
Talk about a nasty clean up....





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