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#1 nextyearillbeskinny

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Posted 15 July 2014 - 02:53 AM

hello fine ladies and dudes

ive been posting here since summer

and got to my goals,

then after being a typical ednos...

i binged my progress away

and now im gonna get there again,

and change my habits along the way.

 

a little about me..

 

im 22 living with my parents who know about my past with ED

they dont really pay attention to my eating habits.... because im 22...

im in my first year of studying fashion design,

its demanding, hard work, no sleep, no time to do anything.

you need to bring you a game almost all the time.

my goal here is to learn how to combine restricting with a very fast life'style'

 

 

 

stats:

(last updated: 7.3.15)

 

        hight - 1.60 cm

               SW: - 54.9 (21.4 - 24.2.15)
CW: - 52.4

    BMI: - 20.47  

 

hw: 64 (2009)

 

 

measurements

(last updated: 24.2.15)

 

bust: 81 cm 80

waist: 68 cm 65

hips: 94.5 cm 90.5

thigh: 52 cm 

upper arm: 27 cm 25

GOALS:

 GW1: 54 kg
 GW2: 53 kg

  GW3: 52 kg 

 GW4: 51 kg

 GW5: 50 kg

  GW6: 49 kg 

  GW7: 48 kg 

  GW8: 47 kg 
    - officially underweight -  

  GW9: 46 kg 

                  UGW for 2015: 45 kg bmi: 17.58     

 

 

                  UGW for next year: 42 kg

+ maintaining happily ever afta! <3
 


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Posted 15 July 2014 - 06:03 AM

i keep this post as a reminder... :)

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ive decided to update here what i eat so that it could help me stay on track and finish what i started.

i will have to write everything i eat.

 

a little about me..

 

im 22 living with my parents who know about my past with ED

and think im better and dont really pay attention to my eating habits.

only bothering me when i try to fast and refuse to be in family dinners and meals.

 

im starting to study fashion design in october and i plan to become the better version of myself by then.

when im not feeling awful about myself i think im pretty\cute, but we all want to be drop dead gorgeous, arent we?

i have a silly dream of modeling. but i also dread the camera since i always think im not there yet, not skinny enough.

 

i already hear im tiny and light but i want to feel it myself and be amazing from the outside too.

 

i will try and stay under 500 cals most days

and change my intake daily to confuse my system like the 2468 diet.

MY SEPTEMBER PLAN
 

MY OCTOBER PLAN, updated daily. 

revising plans. and trying to get back to some living.

 

 

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stats:

(last updated: 21.10.14)

 

         hight - 1.60 cm

                     SW: 53 kg (15.7.14) bmi: 20.7

 CW: 46 kg
BMI: 18   

 

hw: 64 (2009)

 

 

measurements

(last updated: 6.10.14)

 

bust: 80 cm   78 cm

waist: 66 cm  61 cm

hips: 84 cm   78.5 cm

butt: 89 cm  84.5 cm

thigh: 50 cm  47 cm

upper arm: 25 cm   23 cm

GOALS:

   GW1: 52 kg 

   GW2: 50 kg 

       GW3: 48 kg       

   GW4: 47 kg 
  - officially underweight -  
 

UGW    

             45 kg bmi: 17.58     
   

             GW6?: 43 kg bmi: 16.8       

           GW7?: 41 kg bmi: 16.02   
 

               safety weight:               
no less than
40 kg (bmi: 15.62)

 

 

 

*tummie:  flat , no muffin top , visible hip bones, a bit visible abs

*bum: small and round 

*arms: no arm flab ,small and delicate ,dont change shape when pressed against my body ,boney shoulders, bony hands

*legs: straight , thigh gap- feet together, bony feet

*boobs: smallish and defined , a bit visible chest bones

*face: defined jawline and cheeks a little sucked in , thin neck and delicate collarbones

  

*rewards*

52kg - pedicure\menicure

50kg - lip plump

49 - cosmetician

48 - a new peircing

47- pole dancing lesson \ shoes  :P 

46 - black hair

45 (previous ugw) - tattoo, replace all my peircings to black\silver color 

44 - teeth whitening

43 - shopping spreee!!!

41 - photoshoot

 

 

*binge free since 18.7.14*

 

 

feel free to support, post tips,

 

be mean and tell me im eating too much  ;)

 

15/7/2014

 

Breakfast: -

Lunch: tea (0.5) + salad (76) + rice cake (28) + low fat cottage cheese (15) = 119.5

Dinner: broccoli (40) + cranberries & low fat yogurt (10+70) + oatmeal (160) = 280 

Snack: coffee (10) + apple (50) + coffee (10) +water melon (50) = 120

 

= 519.5

 

Exercise: 45min walk with my dog, 1.5 hour power walking

 

 

 

i have a day off and i thought that if i rest i can fast.

but i love this non binging streak.

i feel in control and i know that losing weight this time may take some time as opposed to fasting

but im less prone to losing control, feeling deprived and gaining it back as fast as i lost it.

this time im doing it right. 



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Posted 16 July 2014 - 01:04 AM

16/7/2014

 

Breakfast: coffee (10) + egg white (15) + tomato (15) = 40

Lunch: peas (54) + 2 tablespoons of canned tuna (about 70) = 124

Dinner: kohlrabi (25) + 2 tablespoons of low fat cream cheese (40) + 1 whole egg (70) + 2 rice cakes (56) = 191

Snack: egg white (17) + a small apple (50)2 cups of coffee (25) = 92

 

= 447

 

Exercise: walking

(might workout later or do more walking)

 

 

woke up super hungry today... and wanting to weigh myself. resisted both :)

im not used to restricting, im just regaining control

 

so i told you about my physical goals but i also have these small goals for now:

drink more water (i seem to drink only when im hungry)

drink less coffee (and maybe stop with artificial sweeteners...)

less salt! (i put lots of spices on my veggies.. but all this salt is making me feel puffy)

get in better shape (im active and move around but i barely do serious workouts)

 

 

this is really helping not to eat more than i should..

im too ashamed to write here so much stuff so i actually eat less <3


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Posted 16 July 2014 - 10:12 AM

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Posted 17 July 2014 - 06:08 AM

*yesterday i went to visit friends. did more walking, stretching, yoga and had some white wine and smoked.

today im hungover and kinda hungry so my limit is 1000

 

17/7/2014

 

Breakfast: coffee X 2 (20) + grapes (30) = 50

Lunch: salad (75) + spoonful of homemade tahini (about 70) + a slice of whole wheat bread (70) = 215

Dinner: rice cake X 3 (84) + an egg (70) + low fat cheese (50) + cereal (130) + yogurt (about 150) + some cake (about 500) = 984

Snack: tuna (70) + 1 spoon cottage cheese (30) + a nectarine (60) + ice cream (about 1000) = 1160

 

= about 2409

 

Exercise: yoga, stretching, cleaning



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Posted 18 July 2014 - 04:11 AM

yesterday went bad and i can only blame myself. 

 

i asked a friend who is also a therapist with shiatsu about my binges. i didnt ask directly but i said i have a problem that i dont let myself succeed and i try to get to somewhere in life but keep setting myself back.

so she said that everyone set themselves back sometimes and ruin their path. but she asked if i ruin everything or just a little setback? and i thought about it and realized that i havent been more that 55kilos since 2013 (my highest weight ever was about 64...). so obviously even though i got lower than what my CW is.. i never gained it all back.

also, my mind is stronger. i keep learning and taming myself and getting better. i dont let myself fall and crash just sometimes i stumble or rest for a bit and feel like its hard to get back on track.

 

i learned a lot from this binge and previous binges. im gonna write it here and keep this as a reminder.

i dont think i can say that ill never eat high cal fatty stuff never ever again.

i cant say that ill never be that hungry that ill just eat something quickly and it wont be under control.

but i want to get rid of the habit of binging, which is more than losing control. for me- its eating after im full, its not about food, its about feelings. and the feeling that 'ho no ill never eat again, might as well eat the whole kitchen now!' or the feeling of 'i fucked up this day, tomorrow is a fresh start but today i can keep ruining'...

these thoughts im gonna let go of.

 

have a good day :)


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Posted 18 July 2014 - 09:39 AM

tips for not binging:

 

try to remember the feeling you get after a binge before you do it

you dont want to feel like a failure, bloated and hurt.

 

why eat lots of rubbish alone and ashamed

when you can allow yourself to eat\drink normally with friends and family?

i think to myself after a binge that it was a total waste of calories...

i couldve eaten with friends instead of by myself (so they see me eat, worry less, and im under better control).

 

i already know what the food tastes like

and it NEVER tastes good when you have too much of it.

 

personally i tend to binge if im in a bad mood\ tired\ havent drank enough water

 

remember, a binge would delay the dream body.

why eat too much and make myself suffer and gain some weight... when i can resist and get closer to my goals?

 

carry a reminder of your goals, inspiration and reminder of how far youve come.

i binge when i forget my goals or think im too fat and ill never be thin

 

believe in yourself!

when i believe this diet will change my life and body i succeed.

its when i dont actually believe i can change and i fear ill always stay this way..

and then i just make it a reality and eat too much. 

 

 

after a binge-

its not the end of the world

but at any point its better to stop then continue stuffing my face with food.

it will give my metabolism a boost

i will probably lose this weight fast if i dont continue binging. and no, it doesnt mean i have to fast.


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Posted 18 July 2014 - 09:44 AM

18/7/2014

 

Breakfast: -

Lunch: -

Dinner: tomato (16) + cucumber (9) + piece of chicken (50) + broccoli casserole (75) + quinoa (100) = 250   

Snack: 2 X coffee (20)

 

= 270

 

Exercise: stretching + 1 hour walk

 

im a little upset from yesterday and not hungry.. but i have to have dinner with ma fam (limit: 400).

 

 

im setting a new importent rule.

when alone- do not eat

when with others- eat with them

i wont lose control with others and they wont worry about my weight.


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Posted 18 July 2014 - 10:37 AM

 

What if?

When I first came onto this site I joined a few kik groups and had a few weight loss-buddies. I recently stalked the ones that I could remember the names of and almost no one had lost any weight. The most of them was still stuck at my SW and still felt horrible about themselves.

What if they had tried their hardest? What if they had refused to give up no matter how hungry they were?

They could have been were I'm at today. 4 lbs from their UGW.

 

The thing is, when I look back on the last 2½ months I don't regret putting down that ice cream in the store, I don't regret not having 15 meatballs for dinner, I don't regret being hungry my entire shopping day, I don't regret any of it.

What you will regret is the cookie you ate, the cookie that's probably cozying up to the pizza in your thighs.

 

Stop making the wrong decisions and start making some good ones, for you! So that you don't have to look at someone else's journey and think "If I had just worked hard for 3 months that would've been me"

 

Start today and remember - You haven't failed unless you stop trying!

 

this is the most inspiring thing ever


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Posted 19 July 2014 - 02:20 AM

19/7/2014

 

Breakfast: -

Lunch: coffee (10) + cucumber (10) + egg white (17) = 37

Dinner: a piece of homemade bread dipped in olive oil and vinegar (125) + coffee (10) = 135

Snack:  tea+soy milk (10) + diet juice (10) + 10 grapes (30) = 50

 

= 222

 

Exercise: 1.75 hour walk

 

 

WEIGH IN DAY...

52.2 kg :)

 

thats a 0.8 kg loss (-1.7 lbs) !

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my new rule is working great! 

im not allowed to eat when alone means no binging

i eat with others means no fighting, no worrying about my eating habits

and i have more energy to actually stand being around other people.

i dont feel deprived this way. and no way im gonna over eat,

near people im in super control.

 

i did a test for body type today

apparently im banana shaped

which is a big surprise for me

when i was bigger i held most weight in thighs and butt

no boobies and narrow waist, made me think im pear shaped

i guess that when i got thinner my perspective about my body hasnt changed... but my body has... im buttless !

at first i was a little upset, but ive realized most of the thinspos i liked were bananas

so one more thing i accept about myself! cant wait till i get to my dream body

but i will wait ;)


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Posted 20 July 2014 - 12:55 AM

Weight update: im down to 51.5 !!! :D

 

thats a 0.7 kg loss in a day! (-1.5 lbs)

 

i mark my GW1 and getting closer to GW2!!!

 

summer... here i come :)

 

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Posted 20 July 2014 - 01:11 AM

20/7/2014

 

Breakfast: egg white (17) + tomato (16) + tsp. vinegar (5) = 38 

Lunch: salad (186)

Dinner: salad (30) + broccoli casserole (60) + piece of chicken (50) = 140

Snack: coffee X 3 (40) + 3/4 apple (40) = 80

 

= 444

 

Exercise: 1h walk, 20 min power walk and jogging

 

 

im working with my dad today so it means ill have lunch with him

we usually order takeouts or i fight with him i dont want to eat..

but he's awesome and take what ill say, so no fighting today, we'll have salad :)

my limit for today is 400 cals

 

does anyone read this anyway ??

hehe talking to myself :P


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Posted 20 July 2014 - 03:14 AM

I read it ! you're awesome
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Posted 20 July 2014 - 05:23 AM

I read it ! you're awesome

 

thank you! <33


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Posted 20 July 2014 - 07:16 AM

Following your progress :)

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Posted 20 July 2014 - 07:19 AM

Following your progress :)

yay! thanks for the support. :)


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Posted 20 July 2014 - 12:08 PM

more tiny gals thinspo!

 

if anyone is wondering.. im petite, dark hair and light skin.

ill be posting girls that i might actually look like when skinny.

 

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stay strong loves

we can do everything

we set our minds to

<3



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Posted 21 July 2014 - 12:29 AM

21/7/2014
 
Breakfast: chai tea + soy milk (10) + plum (30) + 2 tablespoons cottage cheese (38) + oatmeal (100) = 178
Lunch: half a salmon sandwich with low cal bread and low fat cream cheese (220) + salad (90) = 310
Dinner: -

Snack: coffeeX2 (25) + diet coke (1) = 26
 
= 514
 
Exercise: 1h walk, work 6 hours on feet and running around. 

today im working from 9am to about 11pm (2 jobs), this means no dinner and probably a decent lunch and breakfast.
my limit for today will be 500 in case i need the extra energy.

 
my parents dont suspect a thing! i tell them how i enjoy eating with them and keep losing weight. i dont dread those meals together anymore..  i tell them that i want to eat more healthy and add some low cal stuff to the table. i also think im starting to get less obsessed and attached to food.
 

 

bbahhahwawa.. few babbaling unrelated to food things:

1. i have a cockroach army in the toilet at night waiting there quietly... to eat me alive!

2. my country is at war and it makes me nervous and sad, and this thread is a great relieve..

3. i read last night a few theards at the mono diet forum and got major cravingsss... i think that if ill do a mono thing it will totally trigger binges back.

then i thought about it and realized that i do not care about the taste of food, i care about my body. i want to enjoy myself in a skinny body, not eat a bunch of chocolate(with that said... what do you guys think of mono diets? i might try it on fruits to speed up metabolism...)

 

lovely day everyone<3


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Posted 21 July 2014 - 08:32 AM

not sure if im extra cranky or just surrounded by stupidity...

also, noticed today my fingernails are blue

 

i have few minutes before my next shift..

this means, yes you know it!

teeny tiny thinspo. enjoy

 

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grace neutral


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Posted 21 July 2014 - 10:56 AM

Sorry I know it's totally off topic but grace neutral and Hannah snowdon <3

Good luck btw!! :)
SW - 130 ( NEVER AGAIN)
CW - ??????
LW - 99lbs
GW1 - 100lbs -
GW2 - 95lbs
GW2- 90lbs -
UGW - 85lbs (bmi 14.6)

UUGW - 80lbs (bmi 13.7)



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