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4681 diet - (gw: 47.5Kg) ugw: 40Kg


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#1881 LighterButterfly

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Posted 12 July 2020 - 02:44 PM

Omg :/ my boobs are getting big, if my period comes or is about to come then i’ll have to cancel my weighing-in only after it ends.


I’ll see if they stay the same or not

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Posted 13 July 2020 - 12:33 PM

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Total 800-900 calories. Well max 1000

TDEE - 1700

Deficit - 700-800 so far but will be 1000


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Posted 13 July 2020 - 12:49 PM

so i am actually deciding to weigh in myself a little bit later, after my period ends and i don't even know when it will start but i feel like soon because it's time in a week so i never weigh myself before i know i should be getting my period because i always gain fake weight before it and during it so it's just u know like pointless to weigh in or to do any weigh in sooooo yeah.. also my intake doesn't have to be as strict as before, i can easily do just 5791 diet which is okay too, but of course my deficits will still be 800-1000 so i will still lose weight but it's just not my time to restrict too much or to weigh in, i also feel a little bit of cramps already but yeah. so i'll weigh in only in like a week or two, and of course i'll still be hoping to be 49kg by that time :) i am 50kg right now, so it's good, i will still reach that 49kg with whatever restriction i do, and after that, i'll goooo wild and strict all august and probably a week before that  to reach 47kg  :)

 

so yesterday 600, today 800-900, tomorrow 1000, then it is my birthday so whatever intake :) and 500 on thursday, 600-700 on friday :)


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Posted 14 July 2020 - 04:22 AM

Hey, breakfast was this !

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Around 300 calories !

lunch

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around 500-600 calories

total - around 900-1000 and 100 left for dinner

I think i ended at 1100-1200 today :(

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Posted 15 July 2020 - 11:21 AM

hey so today i ate banana, curd snack, 2 frankfurters, bit of meat and veggies + cake because

My birthday

But i think it was around 900 calories, max 1000 it’ll be high restriction today but i’ll be fine hopefully

I think i will weigh myself only after my period starts and ends lol - probably next week wednsday, thursday or something :) i’ll hope to be 49kg by that time


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Posted 15 July 2020 - 12:04 PM

Idk what to do i almost binged i think, its hard because I DONT KNOW HOW MANY CALS WERE IN THAT CAKE FUCK

I think i ate 1200 but what if more? What do i do now? What if i gain????? I will weigh myself after period anyway so i will be fast enough to lose all of that till that time anyway..... i should stop panicking, what is done what is done. I will still be 49kg by august, im sure


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Posted 16 July 2020 - 02:06 AM

Hello everyone! So i think i should be fine, i mean even if it was 1300 calories its still better than a big binge and even if its 50Kg, i still can lose it to 49Kg till the next weigh in next week!

Today intake max 800

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Posted 16 July 2020 - 08:55 AM

Ugh I GOT PERIOD CRAVINGS.............. they were so big.... and binged again... :( now i dont know what to do... i will just weigh next week, whatever it is, whatever.


Even if i gain i still can be 50kg by next week. I just dunnoo what wrong with me. I feel sad and lost

Or i will weigh myself only on july 28, and ill hope to be 49kg or less

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#1889 LighterButterfly

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Posted 17 July 2020 - 05:07 AM

So i decided to eat 650-700 calories max everyday to lose all the binge weight and weigh myself only on july 25-28..... hoping for a number anything close to 49kg . that’s it.


i will weigh on july 25-24, and see the number . and then decide what to do next.

 

days left till weigh in: 8


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Posted 18 July 2020 - 11:02 AM

I need help

Im falling into a deep hole again

All because of this fucking period coming

But i am doing bad right now, very bad

Again

:)

I was doing well recently
I got better

But now

I am not again

I need someone to talk to

I feel so fat

I hate my weight
And i hate this disorder too

I am losing my life for another time

Because of you, ana

Ana is always sittinng on my back

Telling me not to go anywhere

Because ur too fat for that

To restrict

To be nothing

I am not good

And i am falling again

I dont feel worthy of anything if i look like that

I want to dissapear ok

I HATE MYSELF. But i dont hate myself enough

To destroy myself with restriction

Instead i binge

And make things worse

:)

I dont even know if i want to be skinny anymore

I just dont want anything at all

Because im a fat fucker

Who tries to stay positive and forget about how i look

But who are you trying to hide from huh

YOU ARE FAT PIECE OF SHIT. FAT PIECE Of SHIT.

What is wrong with me why cant i just lose the weight

I am tired of this life im tired of feeling fat

...............


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#1891 LighterButterfly

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Posted 18 July 2020 - 11:07 AM

What i realized is that im only happy when im skinny or when im getting skinny

Other than that im not happy

I AM NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING

i was 50kg last time

1 day binged 3000 cals
2day binged 2200 cals
Today binged again but 1600 cals :(

I mean.... today was not a big binge + i can pace it off, to even a deficit right? So today wouldn’t almost count and well those other days........ i think the most i can gain in that would be to 51Kg?

So i Can still reach 49Kg till August. And i will


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Posted 19 July 2020 - 08:20 AM

i will have a new goal to pace at least 20k steps everyday because fuck im such a potato couch i need to get myself moving


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Posted 19 July 2020 - 09:26 AM

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Food today, around 1000 -1100 calories


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Posted 19 July 2020 - 09:45 AM

I need help

Im falling into a deep hole again

All because of this fucking period coming

But i am doing bad right now, very bad

Again

:)

I was doing well recently
I got better

But now

I am not again

I need someone to talk to

I feel so fat

I hate my weight
And i hate this disorder too

I am losing my life for another time

Because of you, ana

Ana is always sittinng on my back

Telling me not to go anywhere

Because ur too fat for that

To restrict

To be nothing

I am not good

And i am falling again

I dont feel worthy of anything if i look like that

I want to dissapear ok

I HATE MYSELF. But i dont hate myself enough

To destroy myself with restriction

Instead i binge

And make things worse

:)

I dont even know if i want to be skinny anymore

I just dont want anything at all

Because im a fat fucker

Who tries to stay positive and forget about how i look

But who are you trying to hide from huh

YOU ARE FAT PIECE OF SHIT. FAT PIECE Of SHIT.

What is wrong with me why cant i just lose the weight

I am tired of this life im tired of feeling fat

...............


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Posted 19 July 2020 - 11:24 AM

 why do i feel this on a 100% level

helloo ,

 

i recently lost abit and i had less thoughts about eating or about my weight but now i binged and i feel like thoughts are coming back 

i guess it's never ending cycle lmaooo 

 

 i thought you were recovered alreadyy :/ how are you doing actually? u relapsed? 

 

 

things are soo hard sometimes but it can get better anytime i guess ,shit just happens sometimess


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#1896 MissDragun

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Posted 19 July 2020 - 12:02 PM

helloo ,

i recently lost abit and i had less thoughts about eating or about my weight but now i binged and i feel like thoughts are coming back
i guess it's never ending cycle lmaooo

i thought you were recovered alreadyy :/ how are you doing actually? u relapsed?


things are soo hard sometimes but it can get better anytime i guess ,shit just happens sometimess


I‘m kinda the same. I was really good but past week has been mostly binging and I look pregnant haha..

Anyway yeah I had better days. I actually was recovered at least I thought so. I lost weight the healthy way, exercising and eating 1600 calories daily and I got to 55kg (which you know for me it looks quite thin) and then idk some bad shit happened in life and I had a binge after so long I think it was beginning of June and from there on it went to shit.. I‘ve been restricting again and binging and it‘s a non ending cycle. I‘m just sad I ruined recovery and I‘m back here. I started an accountability I can send you a link if u wish.

Anyway sorry for spamming your thread! Feel free to message me anytime if u need to rant or support*
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Posted 19 July 2020 - 12:58 PM

I‘m kinda the same. I was really good but past week has been mostly binging and I look pregnant haha..

Anyway yeah I had better days. I actually was recovered at least I thought so. I lost weight the healthy way, exercising and eating 1600 calories daily and I got to 55kg (which you know for me it looks quite thin) and then idk some bad shit happened in life and I had a binge after so long I think it was beginning of June and from there on it went to shit.. I‘ve been restricting again and binging and it‘s a non ending cycle. I‘m just sad I ruined recovery and I‘m back here. I started an accountability I can send you a link if u wish.

Anyway sorry for spamming your thread! Feel free to message me anytime if u need to rant or support*


It’s okay ur not spamming, if anything i needed someone to talk to as I felt very lonely and lost and sad and I’m sorry you too had to get back to this lonely road here :/ I hope things get better for you soon! And yeah, I might message you any day or follow your acc!
At least we know now we aren’t the only ones dealing this kind of pain and that things CAN get better, anytime.
I actually had to admit that I too had less ED thoughts and I was more focusing on my life and other things than this and idk it felt great so I am definitely sure we will get better eventually and everything will be ok eventually, & also we will find the love and right weight to our bodies eventually
Sending hope your way!


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Posted 20 July 2020 - 04:33 AM

so if I will be done with my period by friday-saturday, then i am planning to weigh in on saturday-friday . :) if not , then only monday, in the worst case . :D i really don't want to do this after all this binging, but i have to. i'll have to face the truth.... i can't just be living in another lie again. so i will be trying to lose all the binge weight now, until my weigh in. :)

 

but the most IMPORTANT weigh in will be on 30-31 july.. :P where i will hope to be close to 49kg.. so yeahhhh

 

so today intake max 700

tuesday 600-650

wedsnday 300-400

thursday 600

friday 650

saturday (Weigh in?) maybe.. ~


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Posted 20 July 2020 - 07:12 AM

foods that i must eat everyday for maximum fat burn :

 

~apple cider (With salad)

 

~yogurt

 

~25g-40g protein 


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Posted 20 July 2020 - 07:55 AM

Food today

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Around 950 calories


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