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What made you feel fat today?


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#1 Racidy

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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:24 AM

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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:27 AM

I looked down at my thighs 

 

 

and then felt really bad. 

 

 

 

 

Oh and some pictures of when you were 20+ pounds heavier will do the trick 

 

 

 

 

 

It's okay though, because I had a good day 


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#3 So.Far.Away

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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:28 AM

Oh wow sorry to hear that.

I felt fat tonight by eating popcorn and frenchfries. Also when I was looking at pins of other girls on pinterest
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:44 AM

Sushi. Sushi happened.
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:49 AM

I got paranoid with my pants. Please don't laugh (though I reckon I KNOW it's completely ridiculous).

So I don't have a scale right now, so I basically am convinced that I am gaining weight no matter what happens. Like this morning I noticed my pants fit me larger than they used to. I then proceeded to get paranoid that I had actually gained weight and that the fabric had gotten looser and that's why they felt larger. I kid you not. Even started crying because of it.

You can stop rolling on the floor now ;)
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:49 AM

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Going outside and seemingly like everyone is skinnier than you :( 


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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:50 AM

Ooopsie I am completely in the wrong section. Sorry guys, just read the topic title and I liked the idea. I'll be gone now.
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 04:55 AM

Living in East Asia (I am not asian) surrounded by skinny people will do it everyday... 


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I won't stop until I look as fragile on the outside as I feel on the inside. 
 
 
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 05:22 AM

Feeling bloated, water weight because I ate so much yesterday - I feel fat because I am fat?!?  :P


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HW: 185

LW: 129

 

CW: 146

GW: 145, GW: 138, GW: 132, GW: 129, GW: 124, GW: 120

 

 


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Posted 21 August 2014 - 05:37 AM

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I was walking down road in my new dress, feeling ok after losing 25lb when I realised that all the strangers don't know I've lost weight and are just seeing a fat girl in a dress and scorning her for it. That and the sight of my thighs, bingo wings and awful face. Fast anyone??
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 05:46 AM

Seeing a picture of me when I was thinner. Also my mum asked whether I ate her bagel, I didn't but it made me feel fat because she thought I did...
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 05:49 AM

Feeling bloated  :( 


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Posted 21 August 2014 - 05:52 AM

Any reflective surface at all ever. That and the fact my pants press into my huge a$$ stomach. :/ ugh.
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i just can't be fat anymore.


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Posted 21 August 2014 - 08:55 AM

Seeing the guy I like at work flirt with all the skinny girls.
And even just looking at myself in the mirror.
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Posted 21 August 2014 - 09:01 AM

Waking up and realising i'm still a heffalump


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Posted 21 August 2014 - 09:12 AM

Waking up and seeing myself in the mirror 


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#17 petitemasquerade

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Posted 21 August 2014 - 09:13 AM

Being terrified to weigh myself, MPA, sitting up :/


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"Everything else is transport." ~ BBC Sherlock Holmes

 

"I don't know what grey is. I never did." ~ Hedonist Poet

 

"I know exactly what I want and who I want to be. I know exactly why I walk and talk like a machine." ~ Marina & The Diamonds, "Oh No" 

 

"I think there's a flaw in my code. " ~ Halsey, "Gasoline" 

 

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HW

 291 lbs

(Wednesday, November 3rd, 2021)

 

LW

101 lbs.

 

CW

291 lbs. 

(Wednesday, December 1st, 2021)

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UGW

80 lbs. (but maybe 78 lbs. or 74 lbs...) (New wardrobe)

 

HM

53"(46K)-46"-56"

(Thursday, June 3rd, 2021) 

 

LM

Unknown

 

CM

53"(46K)-46"-56"

(Friday, June 18th2021)

 

UGM

28"B-20"-28" (or maybe 24"B-20"-24"...)

 

Additional Goals

 No longer obese (158 lbs.).

No longer overweight (132 lbs.).

No longer plus size (34"-26.5"-37"; Misses Size 6).

Normal bra size (No longer DD).

Double digits (99 lbs.).

Wrist 5.5"-5.75"

Wrist <5.5"

Ribs visible.

Hip bones.

Collar bones.

Underweight (97 lbs.).

 

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Discord: petitewonder#9438 (***18+ only please!***(just a comfort level thing, I'm in my 30s!))

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Neopets (because I use it as a distraction from binge urges): http://www.neopets.c...?user=petite_id

 

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#18 ShrinkingThinking

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Posted 21 August 2014 - 09:13 AM

Feeling my body ache under the grotesque weight I'm carrying.
Pouring myself into my clothes hoping they'll hide my hideous body and realising, wait, every body can see that you're disgusting.
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#19 Gretchen9

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Posted 21 August 2014 - 10:34 AM

jeans not buttoning.  considering pulling out maternity wear.


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5'5.5''

 

in recovery from bulimia.

 

cw: 106

(I have gained weight since I attempted recovery...trying to not let that scare me.  some is water shifting).

 

gw:  trying to maintain at the moment.

 

 


#20 tea4two

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Posted 21 August 2014 - 10:45 AM

I realized that after a summer of people lovingly force feeding me "just a little bit more", and having no mirrors available, I no longer fit into my fat pants. Screw you stretchy pants and your lying ways. Next summer I'm bringing old school jeans with no lycra. I'm too old for this bs. Every summer I play normal and gain weight.

Sticking to my plan for the next 180 days. My fat pants will once again be my fat pants. 


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*it's the final countdown*

It took 5 years to put on. I am giving myself 5 years to lose it. No past stats. No looking back. No resting on past wins. Doing my best everyday. Starting fresh with the sunrise. 

These ladies are my inspiration. They are in my healthy range. Goals: I have them. 

140 - Sophia Loren (5'8") (about 120 if she were 5'3")

135 - Kat Denning (5'4")

130 - Marlene Dietrich (5'4") 

125 - Shakira (5'2") Marilyn Monroe (5' 5") Kareena Kapoor (5'4")

120 - Salma Hayek (5'2") Reese Witherspoon (5'2") Anne Margaret (5'4")



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