Posted 10 May 2020 - 06:40 PM
I am devastated. I seem to be losing control again. Binging after a couple days of low restriction or a fast. I feel very heavy and uncomfortable right now. It didn't even taste good. I feel violated.
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Oh i GET the violated feeling. Each calorie feels like an intruder and then I remember I AM THE ONE THAT PUT THE FOOD THERE. And it breaks my heart every.fucking.time. :'(
Maybe u were just restricting too low?
Fat. Miserable. Ughhh.My accountability: https://www.myproana...k-to-beautiful/
5,2ft/158cm (I grew a centimetre over the past year or so)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
SW: 125lbs / 56.7kg / BMI : 23
LW: 74.9lbs / 34kg / BMI : 13.7
CW: 102.1lbs / 46.3kg / BMI: 18.5
(I'm MUCH happier with my body! Still feel insecure and unattractive BUT I feel more myself, I feel safer and more in control. It's weird and almost spiritual; I actually feel motivated to enjoy moments and confident enough to be more authentic around myself and my friends😊💖)
GW1: 110.2lbs / 50kg / BMI: 20✔
GW2: 105.8lbs / 48kg / BMI: 19.2✔
GW3: 99.2lbs / 45kg / BMI: 18
UGW: 95lbs / 43kg / BMI: 17
𝐌𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐇𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐭𝐡 = 𝐃𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐁𝐲𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐃𝐚𝐲