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#8461 TinyBunneh

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Posted 28 May 2020 - 10:46 PM

Binged yesterday.... Taco bell, Mcdonalds, Jack in the box. Really hate myself for that.

Woke up today and drank 40 oz of water, healthy Gyudon with rice, and a small chai tea latte. Plus, I took my beautiful pup hiking.
 
It was all worth to to see my smiling puppy happy and I def wouldn't have gone had it been a binge day.
 
She gives me the will to change.
 
It gets better xx
 
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#8462 Kuebiko

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Posted 29 May 2020 - 12:52 AM

Can’t stop eating, I am vile.

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#8463 activecheesecake

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Posted 29 May 2020 - 01:52 AM

been trying to stop all week


AGE: 21 HEIGHT: 5'7

 

BODY CHECKS

 

CW: 108 (BMI 17.2)

150   130   110  100

GW: 88


#8464 Nana0

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Posted 29 May 2020 - 06:01 AM

I love my bf but I hate how seeing him eat makes me binge more & more, yesterday night was an awful one

Was planning to have a romantic date at home with him tonight but now I feel gross & fat & definitely not in the mood anymore

How pathetic

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Posted 29 May 2020 - 10:02 AM

yup, last night


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#8466 forumghost

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Posted 30 May 2020 - 05:01 AM

3100 calories at least. A lot of waffles and syrup I stuffed into face before purging + beer. I dont drink for this reason. I’m ashamed of myself. I was doing so good. I knew this would happen and yet I still allowed myself to continue.

#8467 itsbcuzimfatisntit

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Posted 01 June 2020 - 03:01 AM

Ate around 800 cal over my goal, but not above my TDEE, thank god. Hopefully I don’t bloat too much. I need to drink more water, period, so I’ll start with that now to help me get over this feeling. 



#8468 Kuebiko

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Posted 01 June 2020 - 12:31 PM

I am so tired of eating. It’s barely noon and I’ve eaten over 1000 calories

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#8469 Mirja

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Posted 01 June 2020 - 02:56 PM

Cake, Nutella,Pasta Sauce, Bread, breakfast meat, creamy cheese

170cm

CW: 82kg

I wish I was thin.


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Posted 02 June 2020 - 06:53 AM

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#8471 luciadilammermoor

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Posted 02 June 2020 - 02:27 PM

I was trying to recover and therefore staying off the forums for the past week. My goal was to eat 2500 calories so I would stop binging. It didn't work. 

I binged. every. single day. And each day it kept getting worse: more food, more expensive binge hauls. I've eaten an average of 5000 calories a day (2000 from  "normal meals" and 3000-5000 from binging). I've lost all motivation for everything. Gained back up to my SW and probably more. This SUCKS. 


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EDNOS

5'2"

Age 25

 

HW: Not sure, around 55 kg 

LW: also not sure, around 43 kg

 

Eternal yoyo-er 

 

SW: 112 lbs/50.8 kg 

CW: 119ish????  :angry:  :( so depressed 

GW 1: 105 /47.9 

GW 2: 102 /46.3

GW 3 : 99/ 44.9

UGW: 88 lbs/40 kg 

 


#8472 craft_glitter

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Posted 02 June 2020 - 03:11 PM

Literally just ate raw noodles. I had a package of lo mein noodles that said to boil for 4 minutes, which I did. They were clearly not fully cooked and literally still crunchy, but I said "screw it," doused them in soy sauce and brown sugar, and cronched away.

WHY.

#8473 Kuebiko

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Posted 02 June 2020 - 03:29 PM

I can’t stop. I cannot stop eating I cannot stop drinking. A drink is in my hand as I type this out. I know I’ve gained so much, but I am so tired of going back and forth back and forth.


Tomorrow I must start anew

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#8474 boneswilldefine

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Posted 05 June 2020 - 09:08 PM

At least 2000 calls today. Idk what’s wrong i haven’t binged in 3 weeks I thought I could finally stop and then here I am. I walked 4 miles to try and offset some calories. Ugh. I am so close to be out of the 150s and now I’m sure I’ll be at least 154 tomorrow. Fuck.


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5'7"

HW: 178lbs (fat af)

CW: 151.0lbs (slightly less fat than before)

 

Weight Goals:

178(BMI 27.9)  177 176 175 174 173 172 171(BMI 27) 170 169

168 167 166(BMI 26) 165 164 163 162 161 160 159(BMI 25)

158 157 156 155 154 153(BMI 24) 152 151 150 149

148 147(BMI 23) 146 145 144 143 142 141(BMI 22) 140 139

138 137 136 135 134(BMI 21) 133 132 131 130 129

128(BMI 20) 127 126 125 124 123 122 121(BMI 19) 120

 

Personal Goals:

Have my family notice my weight loss 

Have my friends notice my weight loss

Have my bf notice my weight loss

Be able to piggy back ride on someone and not kill them

Hip bones are visible

Collarbones are visible 

Wear a size small shirt

Wear size 2 pants

Wear a B cup bra

 
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#8475 illya

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Posted 06 June 2020 - 05:00 PM

I binged yesterday. It was pretty bad. I've been trying not to keep sweets or junk food around, but was sent a "care package" from someone full of the stuff. My roommates wanted them, so I had to keep it all but I tried to put it away where I wouldn't be tempted. It got later and later in the day, and I thought it wouldn't hurt to have a little bit, just so my roommates didn't think it was suspicious I wasn't eating some of my favourite stuff. Big mistake. I ate most of it and then couldn't stop eating. This was the day after I had my "cheat day" (eating under 1200cals instead of my regular under 850cals). I probably gained a lot, which I know is partly food weight. I feel like crap and I feel bloated, yet I'm so tempted to go and finish off the rest of the candy and junk food that came in the package. I started a fast this morning. I'm not sure how long I'll go. I'm planning somewhere between 24-72hrs. Its not to punish myself, because I'll normally eat the day after a binge, but at 500cal. I guess I'm just trying to push away the temptation to eat the rest and continue this binge.

 

I want this cycle to stop.


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HW: 199.8lbs | CW: ??????

GW1: 174

GW2: 160

GW3: 145

GW4: 125

GW: 110

UGW: 99

 

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Posted 07 June 2020 - 11:34 AM

the last two weeks i've been binging so often idk what's wrong with me. i literally spend about 4 hours today buying food and cooking and eating, i haven't eaten this much in forever. i'm scared to fight the urge to eat because i don't want to go back to unhealthy restriction again, it's ridiculous. i'll probably regret this in a few days but for now i'm thinking if i gain weight i'll just let it happen, i don't even care anymore.


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#8477 Curiouslyold

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Posted 07 June 2020 - 01:13 PM

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#8478 Lo13374

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Posted 10 June 2020 - 09:59 PM

the last two weeks i've been binging so often idk what's wrong with me. i literally spend about 4 hours today buying food and cooking and eating, i haven't eaten this much in forever. i'm scared to fight the urge to eat because i don't want to go back to unhealthy restriction again, it's ridiculous. i'll probably regret this in a few days but for now i'm thinking if i gain weight i'll just let it happen, i don't even care anymore.

 

I feel this so much. I've been afraid of trying to control my binges for fear that I'll swing back into obsessive restriction. Like I just throw my hands up and I don't know which side to be on and let the binges roll over me.

 

I'm sorry you're feeling this too. <3



#8479 honeybee714

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Posted 11 June 2020 - 11:18 PM

This thread popped up like a godsend. My stomach hurts after bingeing on a pint of ben and jerrys. It took me way over my cal goal and i feel frustrated and helpless. It took away my power and i don't want to feel like this anymore. But I got a sweet message that I'm holding on to tonight and trying to remember that tomorrow is a new day and this is a battle of patience, and discipline means getting back on track even when i fall off it. Starting with this next deep breath im giving myself permission to start over. Thank you for creating this safe place <3

 


#8480 bitmynails

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Posted 13 June 2020 - 02:14 AM

i feel so bloated :( just binged about 1900 on pizza hut and i’m so disappointed. i’m so tired of doing this and feeling like this
5'7 | 18 | they/them
sw: 159 lb | cw: 131 lb | ugw: 115 lbs
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