I was trying to recover and therefore staying off the forums for the past week. My goal was to eat 2500 calories so I would stop binging. It didn't work.
I binged. every. single day. And each day it kept getting worse: more food, more expensive binge hauls. I've eaten an average of 5000 calories a day (2000 from "normal meals" and 3000-5000 from binging). I've lost all motivation for everything. Gained back up to my SW and probably more. This SUCKS.
hugs, it's hell. i'm in the same boat and can barely budge my weight and part of me wants to recover because this is just hell. but i don't know if i can at this weight.
hope you have better days, hang in there. don't give up