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#8501 siut


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Posted 04 July 2020 - 03:00 PM

i binged today:( after being depressed about gaining for a few days bc i tried to up my caloric intake for maintaining. idk why i binged exactly, probably because i ordered a bunch of my trigger foods (biscuits). i ate three packs in total which was 735 cals in total. kind of bummed because it's so hard and slow to lose weight yet here i am ruining my progress by adding more calories more than i shouldve eaten. i probably made a mistake because i should have eaten more protein instead of eating mochi with had sugar in them (which in turn caused cravings and i wasnt satiated bc lack of protein). i also shouldve only ordered 1 serving of my trigger food (like literally 1 pack of biscuits). im just going to do omad tomorrow to fix this. im gonna drink coffee throughout the day to keep me energized and hot tea to help soothe the bloating.
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Posted 04 July 2020 - 05:07 PM

I ate so many cupcakes. I just shouldn't bake.

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Posted 06 July 2020 - 08:37 AM

Day 1 back to work & I’m already fcking up everything
I’m tired of myself

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Posted 07 July 2020 - 05:36 PM

I was doing so good. So so good. But I fucked up today. I'm probably not over my calories but I ate so much so fast I feel disgusting. My stomach feels greasy and I want to throw up. I ran out of nicotine today and I'm so irritated that I just started eating.
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Posted 11 July 2020 - 02:40 PM

Still reeling from last night's binge,,,,, I'd fasted for 3 days,,,,,,,,


I shovelled in salad, cereal, smoothie, hot chocolate, cheese, a BIG dinner, pancakes, chocolate, biscuits and cake and my stomach hurt so much I had to sit up for hours massaging it, it looked like a beach ball


Today my head is all over the place, I've got that "what did I do last night?" feel about me as if I got really drunk and can't remember what happened

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Posted 11 July 2020 - 07:27 PM

I just binged on almost 4000 calories and am dreading tomorrow so much that I don't want to sleep.

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Posted 11 July 2020 - 07:31 PM

binged on 1000 cals rip, still under my TDEE






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Posted 11 July 2020 - 07:50 PM

Any time that fkn granola is on offer it feels like I /have/ to binge on it

Other staples this evening were vegan jellies, expensive ice cream, 9 mini sugar doughnuts, galaxy bar, snickers bar, and a toffee+banana slice

The ice cream is still in the freezer, its taunting me but it never purges well so

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Posted 12 July 2020 - 12:34 AM

b/p and then ate two grilled cheeses :/ 

i took a laxative earlier so hopefully i maintain


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Posted 12 July 2020 - 02:35 AM

i have this weird habit of trying to convince myself i’m not bingeing by opening another package of something before i’m even done eating the first package. like, i would eat all the outside parts of a pack of belvita crackers, then open another pack and eat half of that, and then another, and by the time i know it, i’ve eaten a bunch of halves of everything and equate to WAY too much food.

as of today, i’ve officially gained back to my original weight :( all that hard work for nothing... 😭


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Posted 12 July 2020 - 08:17 AM

Ate nothing all day! And was around like 2 hours from my fast goal and then let loose on a bag of pizza flavored goldfish and then meatballs, pigs in a blanket and a salad (I guess to make myself feel better) -_- I exercised that morning and did quite some running around of errands so I’m hoping that helps balance things out

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Posted 12 July 2020 - 03:21 PM

I've been binging every day for over a week now and I feel so so awful I don't even know why I can't stop like I feel completely disconnected from what I'm doing but also at the same time so full and sick like I can't think or do anything and then I just eat more, and I've started drinking by myself in my room which is always just such a bad sign for me. On friday I had my first drink at 10:30 am wtf is wrong with me I'm living with my parents and I can't tell them any of this so Im also eating full normal meals with them

Ive gained so much weight and Im just fed up but I can't stop bingeing and its costing me loads of money and basically EVERYTHING IS SHIT

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Posted 12 July 2020 - 08:03 PM

Ate a snickers.

Had 4 cadbury chocolate biscuits after that. 

Then I followed it up with a dairy milk bar.









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Posted 13 July 2020 - 05:48 AM

i was binge free for 10 days and ruined it last night. rip my existence. 

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Posted 13 July 2020 - 05:50 AM

The last 3 days have been binge central.
Today I said I was fasting but I ended up eating a slice of bread and a protein bar.

What. Am. I. Doing?

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Posted 15 July 2020 - 09:30 PM

i made chicken fried steak and sausage gravy because i had the ingredients leftover from a larger family dinner the other day.

i ate enough helpings for 3 people and i feel terrible. truly feeling low and gross and like a extreme failure. 
I'm trying to fill the rest of my stomach up with ridiculous amounts of water so the painfully full feeling will supersede the manic hungry feeling.

This sucks.

What makes it so much more upsetting is that my brain was screaming the entire time to not. don't do it, don't take that much, don't back for seconds, DON'T.
i never listen. 

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Posted 15 July 2020 - 11:13 PM

LEGIT never gonna stop since start of march i’ve gained 5kg lmao every attempt i make at eating healthy turns into a binge on 3000+ calories haha

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Posted 16 July 2020 - 12:17 PM

For BREAKFAST  I ate a large family bag of salted, roast peanuts, tons of salad, a Bounty bar, choc cake and third of a box of cereal with milk.


My stomach looks like a python that's eaten an antelope and still I want to stuff more in my face, ffs

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Posted 17 July 2020 - 07:56 AM

I just ate a ton of white rice, lamb stew and endive. I'm glad that all of my binges at least consist of homemade meals, but I still feel really guilty after eating so much. I wasn't even hungry, so what was I thinking?

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Posted 19 July 2020 - 02:12 PM

Ate a whole jar of pub mix at a friend’s
House while she was asleep. Couldn’t purge, but about to head in to my second kickboxing sesh of the day. Approx. 3000 cal binge. Ugh

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