Come here if you just binged
Posted 19 July 2020 - 11:54 PM
Posted 20 July 2020 - 05:45 AM
After 4 months of binge eating to cope with lockdown (then the inevitably harder return to work) I've gained 20 lbs. I'm disgusted at myself and have to do something, starting right now.
Posted 20 July 2020 - 09:06 PM
Posted 25 July 2020 - 06:03 AM
Total Weight Lost as of Jan 13, 2020: 34.2 lbs
Posted 28 July 2020 - 01:27 PM
I binged on 2800 calories worth of donuts and crisps just now. ((((:
Posted 28 July 2020 - 06:56 PM
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Posted 28 July 2020 - 08:18 PM
is there a chain saw of the soul, an ax I can take to my memories or fears?
height: 5' 6.5'' (169 cm) | hw: 179 lbs (81 kg) | gw: 110 lbs (50 kg)
Posted 29 July 2020 - 08:10 AM
I'm f*cking disgusting. I started this cycle by binge drinking alcohol and now I can't stop. I'm going to fast the rest of the day and fill up on water and coffee. Shit.
Posted 30 July 2020 - 11:03 AM
The year started so well, been binging almost daily, it's amazing I'm still around the same weight
Posted 30 July 2020 - 11:58 AM
Well, I binged last night then passed right out. A medium Dominos thin crust spinach and feta pizza. Its almost 1 p.m. the next day and I have half a mind to go get another one when my IF window opens at 3 >.<
I wanna be special. So fucking special.
Posted 30 July 2020 - 01:06 PM
Posted 31 July 2020 - 07:03 AM
Just told myself a few hours ago that I would be fasting for 3 days since I have to work 3 12 hour night shifts and I know that food makes me lethargic. So here I am, up at 7am after an all nighter to prepare for work, having just binged on a bowl of ramen, a piece of cake, a handful of tortilla chips, a couple of spoonfuls of mac and cheese, some coffee, and a diet soda.
Taking on responsibility knowing it will weigh you down.
Freedom is a possibility only if you're able to say no.
Posted 31 July 2020 - 06:56 PM
Posted 01 August 2020 - 10:24 AM
- 3 donuts
- 2 muffins
- 1 fruit bar
- 2 biscotti
- 1 cup coconut flan
- 1 cup sweet rice pudding
- 1 slice of toast with butter
- 2 chocolate peanut butter bars
- 1 whole box of saltine crackers (with a whole can of soup) wtf
- 5 meringues
- 1 cup jelly beans
- a whole venti starbucks frap
i weighed myself and gained 5 whole pounds )))) feeling super guilty and bloated and disgusting rn haha i need to exercise it all off but my whole family’s awake and they’ll see....sigh maybe i’ll just do a 48 hour fast
cw: 83lbs (BMI 14)
gw4: 80lbs (BMI 13)
ugw: 70lbs (BMI 12)
Posted 02 August 2020 - 09:13 AM
I had over 2500 calories worth of a binge this evening. I'm usually a restricter so when having this much food in my stomach, my body rejects it and purging is almost effortless as a lot if it comes up on its own. That's about the only thing I've got going for me in this scenario.
Tonight (on top of my planned daily calorie intake) included:
About half a block of chocolate
2 banana cake bars
2 cereal bars
5 pieces of bread/toast with jam
1 bowl of cornflakes with soy milk and way too much sugar
1 bowl of roasted muesli with soy milk
1 porridge sachet made with water (which burned my mouth because I didn't even wait for it to cool down)
So as a result, including the purging, I've just downed a bunch of laxatives and I'm fasting tomorrow.
Not looking forward to shitting my brains out in about 12 hours time, but I need to feel empty and in control again.
Being this full is mentally and physically excruciating.
Also problematic: I've just taken the laxatives but I think I'm about to involuntarily vomit again and ah fuck, I don't know if I'll need to take more laxatives if that happens?
Ugh, why do I do this to myself?
I'm a fat overindulgent pig.
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Weights, Goals etc:
HW: 82.5kg (BMI 26.04)
LW: 43.8kg (BMI 13.82)
CW: 43.8kg (BMI 13.82)
GW1: 45kg (BMI 14.20)
UGW: 40kg (BMI 12.62)
Posted 02 August 2020 - 10:57 AM
Posted 08 August 2020 - 06:20 PM
2 x portions of millionaires cake
1 x pasta and lentil portion
1 x big chip portion
1 x big garlic bread all of it to myself
1 x appetiser
And yesterday I had
4 x Victoria sponge cakes
1 x pesto pasta
1 x large vegetable samosa
6 x ice cream balls
1 x artichoke Full packet
I feel so fucking disgusting and I can’t stop. It’s like I’m high when I’m binging and I forget all my problems . Except for the fact I eat until I’m in physical pain. My brain won’t let me stop. It feeds off of bingeing (excuse the pun) and I just want to be skinny again
I want to restrict so bad but I can’t
Posted 08 August 2020 - 08:37 PM
i have been upset about slowly gaining weight over the past week, and ended up eating over 3k calories today. womp womp. not sure what's wrong with me.
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