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#8521 skinny-space-gh0sts

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Posted 19 July 2020 - 11:54 PM

I was doing fine today. No real cravings. I was almost 5 days binge free. But as soon as 9pm hit the binge monster came out and I just couldn't stop. It was all junk food, about 1500 cal worth. And I can't even fast tomorrow to try and make up for it. I'm literally about to start crying, I'm so mad at myself. I don't know why I wasn't able to just say no. I wasn't even hungry.

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HW/SW: 310.0 lbs / 140.6 kg / BMI 43.2
CW: 294.6 lbs / 133.6 kg / BMI 41.1

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#8522 barkingmermaid

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Posted 20 July 2020 - 05:45 AM

After 4 months of binge eating to cope with lockdown (then the inevitably harder return to work) I've gained 20 lbs. I'm disgusted at myself and have to do something, starting right now. 



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Posted 20 July 2020 - 09:06 PM

this is my first proper binge in months, I’m pretty upset and I feel gross. I’ve drank some lax tea and I guess tomorrow is a new day.

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Posted 25 July 2020 - 06:03 AM

I was starting to get back on track. At work I ate 2 cookies and a piece of cake. I came home and ate broccoli and cheddar soup, white rice, chicken curry, and 2 slices of American cheese. My stomach feels so full. I want to cry but I feel so numb. When I wake up, I’m forcing myself to restrict no matter what it takes. I can’t go backwards now. I can’t gain my weight back.

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#8525 Kuebiko

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Posted 25 July 2020 - 06:31 PM

Still am :(

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Posted 28 July 2020 - 01:27 PM

I binged on 2800 calories worth of donuts and crisps just now. ((((:



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Posted 28 July 2020 - 06:56 PM

I was doing great today, then I started to snack on some chips, then like 4 mandarin oranges, then I ate cashews while I cooked dinner. I ate too much of that, then all of a sudden I got that super full feeling. When I binge it just feels like I have a bottomless pit that never is satisfied until I’ve had too much.


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Posted 28 July 2020 - 08:18 PM

I feel so, so guilty.

is there a chain saw of the soul, an ax I can take to my memories or fears?

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#8529 Starjelly

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Posted 29 July 2020 - 08:10 AM

I'm f*cking disgusting. I started this cycle by binge drinking alcohol and now I can't stop. I'm going to fast the rest of the day and fill up on water and coffee. Shit. 



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Posted 30 July 2020 - 11:03 AM

The year started so well, been binging almost daily, it's amazing I'm still around the same weight



 
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69.22 lbs lost. 41.00 lbs to go.
 
Dx: AvPD, OCD, BED-EDNOS
HW: 102 kg     ~     225 lbs   
        Height: 167 cm     ~     5 feet 53/4 inches
 CW: 70,8 kg     ~     156.08 lbs
              GW1: 83 kg ~ 183 lbs    --     BMI 29.8 - No longer obese
      GW2: 69,6 kg ~ 153,44 lbs    --     BMI 25                                 
               GW3: 69,5 kg ~ 153.22 lbs    --     BMI 24.9 - No longer overweight
       GW4: 67 kg ~ 147.70 lbs    --     BMI 24                              
       GW5: 65,1 kg ~ 143.52 lbs    --     PTs goal for healthy weight 
     GW6: 64,2 kg ~ 141.53 lbs    --     BMI 23                                
          GW7: 62 kg ~ 136.68 lbs    --     Total loss 40 kg (88.18 lbs) 
      GW8: 61,4 kg ~ 135.36 lbs    --     BMI 22                                
      GW9: 60 kg ~ 132.27 lbs    --     Round number                
      GW10: 58,7 kg ~ 129.41 lbs    --     BMI 21                                  
      GW11: 55,7 kg ~ 122.79 lbs    --     BMI 20                                  
       GW12: 55 kg ~ 121.25 lbs    --     BMI 19.7 - Lower normal   
     GW13: 52,9 kg ~ 116.62 lbs    --     BMI 19                                 
             UGW: 52 kg ~ 114.64 lbs    --     Total loss 50 kg (110.23 lbs)  
 
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#8531 chocolatewaif

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Posted 30 July 2020 - 11:58 AM

Well, I binged last night then passed right out. A medium Dominos thin crust spinach and feta pizza. Its almost 1 p.m. the next day and I have half a mind to go get another one when my IF window opens at 3  >.< 


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#8532 homemadedynamite

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Posted 30 July 2020 - 01:06 PM

i can’t stop think about it now. so much guilt, so much self hatred... i have to stay on track today.

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Posted 31 July 2020 - 07:03 AM

Just told myself a few hours ago that I would be fasting for 3 days since I have to work 3 12 hour night shifts and I know that food makes me lethargic. So here I am, up at 7am after an all nighter to prepare for work, having just binged on a bowl of ramen, a piece of cake, a handful of tortilla chips, a couple of spoonfuls of mac and cheese, some coffee, and a diet soda.

 

Fuck me. 


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#8534 dye

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Posted 31 July 2020 - 06:56 PM

i woke up at 1am and had jelly sweets, cola, a couple of fries with sauce and part of burger. and might as well continue sleeping. let my dreams be gentle

#8535 shuas

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Posted 01 August 2020 - 10:24 AM

binged because today was eid :( i had so much junk food holy shit

- 3 donuts
- 2 muffins
- 1 fruit bar
- 2 biscotti
- 1 cup coconut flan
- 1 cup sweet rice pudding
- 1 slice of toast with butter
- 2 chocolate peanut butter bars
- 1 whole box of saltine crackers (with a whole can of soup) wtf
- 5 meringues
- 1 cup jelly beans
- a whole venti starbucks frap

i weighed myself and gained 5 whole pounds :))))) feeling super guilty and bloated and disgusting rn haha i need to exercise it all off but my whole family’s awake and they’ll see....sigh maybe i’ll just do a 48 hour fast
sw/hw: 118lbs (BMI 20)
gw1: 110lbs (BMI 19)
gw2: 100lbs (BMI 17)
gw3: 90lbs (BMI 15)

cw: 83lbs (BMI 14)
gw4: 80lbs (BMI 13)
ugw: 70lbs (BMI 12)
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#8536 Parayeet

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Posted 02 August 2020 - 09:13 AM

Holy moly I feel like I'm going to explode.
I had over 2500 calories worth of a binge this evening. I'm usually a restricter so when having this much food in my stomach, my body rejects it and purging is almost effortless as a lot if it comes up on its own. That's about the only thing I've got going for me in this scenario.

Tonight (on top of my planned daily calorie intake) included:
About half a block of chocolate
2 banana cake bars
2 cereal bars
5 pieces of bread/toast with jam
1 bowl of cornflakes with soy milk and way too much sugar
1 bowl of roasted muesli with soy milk
1 porridge sachet made with water (which burned my mouth because I didn't even wait for it to cool down)

So as a result, including the purging, I've just downed a bunch of laxatives and I'm fasting tomorrow.
Not looking forward to shitting my brains out in about 12 hours time, but I need to feel empty and in control again.
Being this full is mentally and physically excruciating.

Also problematic: I've just taken the laxatives but I think I'm about to involuntarily vomit again and ah fuck, I don't know if I'll need to take more laxatives if that happens?

Ugh, why do I do this to myself?
I'm a fat overindulgent pig.

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HW: 82.5kg (BMI 26.04)
LW: 43.8kg (BMI 13.82)

CW: 43.8kg (BMI 13.82)

GW1: 45kg (BMI 14.20)

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#8537 closethedoor

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Posted 02 August 2020 - 10:57 AM

It feels like I’ve had three times this, but so far my binge is worth 985 kcal. I cannot purge, use lax or fast tomorrow as I live with my partner. I hate that my eating disorder is killing me. Tried to find a public bathroom to throw up but there are none around me.

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Posted 07 August 2020 - 04:03 PM

Just when I thought I had my sh*it back together doing HSGD and bam here we go two days of binging in a row. What a show, hate myself totally. "tomorrow I'll do better"


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#8539 thatfatbitch99

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Posted 08 August 2020 - 06:20 PM

I binged today

I’ve had
2 x portions of millionaires cake
1 x pasta and lentil portion
1 x big chip portion
1 x big garlic bread all of it to myself
1 x appetiser

And yesterday I had

4 x Victoria sponge cakes
1 x pesto pasta
1 x large vegetable samosa
6 x ice cream balls
1 x artichoke Full packet


I feel so fucking disgusting and I can’t stop. It’s like I’m high when I’m binging and I forget all my problems . Except for the fact I eat until I’m in physical pain. My brain won’t let me stop. It feeds off of bingeing (excuse the pun) and I just want to be skinny again
I want to restrict so bad but I can’t
Please help!!!

#8540 rcow

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Posted 08 August 2020 - 08:37 PM

i have been upset about slowly gaining weight over the past week, and ended up eating over 3k calories today. womp womp. not sure what's wrong with me.




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