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#9161 agokachan

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Posted 28 May 2021 - 07:11 AM

I freakin binged. Hard. I am laying in bed feeling nauseous and now I get to go to sleep with the disgusting feeling of being out of control. Tomorrow I will restrict.

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Burger King
Ice Cream
Chocolate
Thai Gapao and Extra Rice
Oatmeal
Cereal

What is wrong with me!!!!!

#9162 I.dream.of.skinny88

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Posted 28 May 2021 - 10:20 AM

So I'm an idiot and smoked weed last night. I've never really been good at it, I'm sensitive to anything like that, and I know that because I used to be pretty heavy into harder stuff. When completely clear of mind I can control my eating along with anything else I want to. But last night me and my partner smoked, then ate nachos and shared a pint of Ben and Jerry's strawberry shortcake ice cream. And tbh, idk what else I ate... But today I feel super sick

#9163 selfhelpgroup5

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Posted 28 May 2021 - 12:59 PM

i was 13 days binge free and doing super wellll. i had my day all planned out, but my mom made blueberry muffins and i couldn’t help myself but to have one. once i had eaten something outside of my plan, everything else just went to shit. this was a relatively small binge compared to the ones i usually have, i had an ice cream sandwich, yasso bar, trail mix, and a bowl of raisin bran. i’m pretty sure i was able to successfully purge it all so i’m honestly not that upset about it, however it feels like shit knowing that i fucked up my no binge progress. well, time to fast!

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Posted 28 May 2021 - 01:47 PM

binged. second day in a row, I don't even know the calories.

 

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cookies

crackers with cream cheese

tiramisu

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#9165 Tanha

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Posted 28 May 2021 - 10:05 PM

Binged a random sonic BLT and the mint. Meant to c/s and just ate it instead.


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#9166 high-jinx

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Posted 29 May 2021 - 02:07 PM

I feel really defeated today. I broke not one, but two streaks last night and I feel so conflicted today. For one, I could kind of tell it was coming because I was breaking my diet more frequently and more consistently, so I wasn't surprised.
But to ACTUALLY binge, and to enjoy it so much, feels really fucked. Like, I indulged in all the foods I had been avoiding and was so happy before the shame snuck in.

I'm now farther away from my goals, I'm mentally backsliding with all my healthy progress, and I still REALLY want another binge today. I wish I could just fix my brain and hop off this ride

#9167 butttercup

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Posted 29 May 2021 - 02:22 PM

aaaaaahhhh binged again, third day in a row. how do I stop this :'(



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Posted 29 May 2021 - 08:49 PM

I just binged... I feel awful.
This needs to stop. :(
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#9169 LostSoulSociety

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Posted 30 May 2021 - 03:51 PM

(power slides into the thread) guess who just binged and hates herself for it babeyyy! it's me! i had 4 slices of walnut bread with dark chocolate on top. i logged the binge on mfp this time, and it wasn't as bad as it could have been? esp since just a couple of months ago, a binge would have been in the ballpark of 5k plus calories... this one was less than 1k. i guess that's what happens if i'm stuck in a house that's absolutely full to the brim of trigger foods and unable to use my coping mechanisms.

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#9170 Tanha

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Posted 31 May 2021 - 12:27 AM

I was literally just here. Tonight it was an avocado on rice cakes, part of an atkins bar, some chocolate and a frozen banana. 500+ cals I really don't need. It's like a switch just flipped in my mind. I didn't quite say "fuck it," but I said, "I'm binging."


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#9171 Pasiphaé

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Posted 31 May 2021 - 11:46 AM

A chocolate bar
A bag of vegan candy
Porridge 
 
I'm still hungry I'm tired of it... It wasn't as bad as the last binge but still. 
 
I feel like I binge every time I have a strong emotion. 

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#9172 Loki♡

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Posted 31 May 2021 - 10:02 PM

I just binged on over 3,000 calories. My heart is racing and I feel so sick. :(
Tbh I did it cause it's the last day of the month and I'm starting restriction tomorrow but now tomorrow is going to be even tougher cause I just stretched my stomach out like crazy. Fml.
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#9173 coyotea

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Posted 31 May 2021 - 10:10 PM

i just had the biggest binge i've experienced in a while

 

i had about a cup of oat milk with a whole bunch of whipped cream and chocolate syrup because i wanted something sweet. but then my roomate brought home dairy queen ice cream.

 

i had a mini blizzard, which wouldn't have been so bad on its own.

 

but then i finished the rest of my partner's milkshake as well, and it just triggered this cycle. i had a fruit bar and peanut butter, and more ice cream we had in our freezer. i know i had more food as well, i just cant' remember. all of this plus eating normally for meals. 

 

ugh i feel so full and i know i'm going to have to get weighed at the doctor's office tomorrow. i'm just stress eating because of my driver's road test coming up 


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#9174 Eating Machine

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Posted 01 June 2021 - 11:59 PM

And I binged. After being 38 days clean from bingeing. The damage:

Binge 6/1
Binge 6/1
Plus two cheese rolls from a local spot. Granted I didn't eat everything from Del Taco.

Stats:

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#9175 Sloane-Shanahan

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Posted 02 June 2021 - 12:21 AM

Anyone care to have a little bit of oatmeal with their peanut butter?  I sure do!

 

I somehow managed to make a bowl of oatmeal into an 800 calorie ordeal, which is more than my allotment for the whole day today..

 

It was so good, and hopefully it will keep me full for a while, given the protein in the peanut butter...and then I added protein powder (gelatin) to it, as well.  So I made it a good protein food, despite how oatmeal is normally a more carb heavy dish.  I also added regular cream butter on top of the peanut butter, so it was really extra decadent.

 

It's the first meal I've had since I woke up today (and it's late at night), so I don't feel so bad mentally or physically.  I'm at the point of fullness that is bordering on uncomfortable, but not surpassing it.  I just hope I can stick to fasting for the rest of the day so I can keep close to my 750 calorie goal for the day.  For the record, I high restrict most days, but am trying to go a bit lower for the next few days to balance out some recent binge days earlier this week...



#9176 Rockstarophile

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Posted 02 June 2021 - 01:34 AM

I just wanted to make my partner dinner...
*lays face down on the ground*

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Posted 02 June 2021 - 02:03 AM

It was a day of over eating and when I got home from work I than binged a lot. I did a little pit of pacing to try and help with digestion. I woke up an hour later with really bad nausea and bloating. I have a huge phobia of throwing up and almost did it a few times tonight when the nausea got really bad. Now I am sitting in front of my air conditioner fully blasting with a heating pad over my stomach hoping this will finally be the last time.

#9178 AnaTJ

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Posted 02 June 2021 - 09:05 PM

I feel like I'm just getting fatter and fatter and I don't truly understand how much weight i've gained and how bad I look

I start off the day saying ''okay I wont eat today''
and somewhere in the middle of the day I talk myself into binging "for the last time" and ''I will start tomorrow''

 

Im so tired 


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#9179 Eating Machine

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Posted 03 June 2021 - 01:28 AM


And I binged. After being 38 days clean from bingeing. The damage:


Plus two cheese rolls from a local spot. Granted I didn't eat everything from Del Taco.

I gained 5.2 lbs. Granted probably most is water weight (I took a dump last night so not that much for food weight).

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#9180 veggieboi

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Posted 04 June 2021 - 07:49 PM

Was up to 3 days until just now. Started with some dolmas, a cucumber and some hummus, then made a trip to the store to get a burrito, 3 Bobo's Oat Bars, 5 Clif Bars, a protein cookie, a bag of salt & vinegar chips, and 2 pints of ben & jerry's out of this whirled. Glad I stopped as I still had a huge hoagie, another pint of ben & jerry's and 3 more clif bars that I had grabbed that I could've eaten as well. Even though I already did just under 7000 calories in that 1 binge. Just sucks as I was talking to my therapist today about feeling positive and now this. But I am fighting the urge to purge which I think I'll be able to do and that feels like a win since I'm at 6 days without purging so far.


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