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#9241 kopfschmerzen

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Posted 09 July 2021 - 03:55 AM

binged 3k last night and 2k this morning (muffins, chocolate spread, etc). i feel so spaced out, like nothing is real but in a bad way. i finally got back into the 'restrictive mindset' but now all i can think of is what the next binge will be. i feel so scared.


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#9242 MultitudesOfStars

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Posted 09 July 2021 - 08:12 AM

I wish I could purge, I feel so ashamed of myself and will feel so physically sick for the next day or two 🙁

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#9243 LostSoulSociety

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Posted 10 July 2021 - 08:23 AM

I really can't go a week without binging lately. I hate myself so much omg

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#9244 butttercup

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Posted 10 July 2021 - 03:29 PM

I can't stop binging. I'm not even enjoying it anymore, it's just turned into a sort of compulsion. I hate this.



#9245 HeftyBanana

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Posted 10 July 2021 - 04:59 PM

I've been so good with restricting and doing A LOT of exercise lately, but today I was so tried that I've just binged big time. My first binge in 7 days, which is so annoying. I keep being hugely trigger by my sister's colleague who has relapsed and feel like I'm in competition to be the sickest (what the fuck is wrong with me, who even thinks that?) But I keep fucking up. It's like I'm even a failure at being sick. I hate myself so much.

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GW3: 91.4 lbs / 41.5 kg (LW)

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#9246 milkxbun

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Posted 10 July 2021 - 07:04 PM

I've spent 200 quid on binge food and have been binging non stop for 4 days.

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Posted 11 July 2021 - 10:50 AM

binged today after 6 days staying binge free,,,binge, restrict, binge again,,,,its been like this for like 3 years,,,when will it ever end,,,how did i ever get to my lw ?? god i need to do better tmrw, i got 8 weeks till i at least have to be at my lw again,,,,sigh


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#9248 butttercup

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Posted 11 July 2021 - 01:06 PM

Still binging. I seriously can't stop :'( I've been in almost a month long binge phase now... they don't usually last this long. It's terrifying how much weight I've gained


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#9249 flaneur

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Posted 11 July 2021 - 03:06 PM

restriction was going well today until my family ordered kfc to eat while watching the euros. it set off a 4k calorie binge in the space if an hour and i literally want to die now lmao
i’m hungry

#9250 TeaObsessive

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Posted 11 July 2021 - 06:19 PM

I don't know if I class today as a binge, but it sure feels shit. Been at around 1000kcals a day all week, then today I eat focaccia that my husband baked, way too much dinner and then stress-ate cookies through the Euro 2020 final. Urgh. Tomorrow is weigh-day and the hope was to get 5lbs off. That won't happen.
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#9251 self-destruct

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Posted 12 July 2021 - 04:58 AM

i have dental surgery tomorrow morning that'll make it so i can't eat solid food for about a week, so in my mind that justified having a !!!!! 4000kcal binge !!!!

 

i feel like such a failure :c


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#9252 SecretsOfNeptune

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Posted 14 July 2021 - 11:02 PM

I have been binging since friday (we went camping so i thought I would give myself the weekend to eat whatever I wanted) and now I literally cant stop. Even now. Its midnight on a thursday and the cravings are just soo bad. :(

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#9253 FatWhaleAna

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Posted 14 July 2021 - 11:53 PM

I can't stop binging, no matter what I do. I'm planning to fast for the next 2 days to lose some of the weight.
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#9254 MultitudesOfStars

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Posted 19 July 2021 - 05:14 AM

Just had half of a massive extra cheesy garlic pizza - I feel disgusting but at least I’ve stopped at half, I feel so sick

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#9255 Stebula

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Posted 19 July 2021 - 09:47 AM

Binged today, enough to make me very uncomfortable, but not enough for long-lasting weight gain. Hoping it will even out within a few days. I'm upset with myself, fucking EVERY time I hit a new LW this happens. I've been binging so regularly that even though my weight drops week-to-week, I have this constant bloat and my tummy has just been looking big recently. It hasn't been flat in weeks. 


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HW - 175 (BMI 26.6)


LW - 122.7 (BMI 18.7)


CW - 124.6 (BMI 18.9)


GW1 - 121 (BMI 18.4)


GW2 - 115 (BMI 17.5)


GW3 - 105 (BMI 16.0)


UGW - Maintain 110-115



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August: 1200-1400cal

September: 1000-1200cal

October: 800-1000cal


DAYS BINGE FREE: 2


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Posted 20 July 2021 - 01:49 PM

3rd day in a row, probably way over 10k, its so so fucking scary,,,,idk how to stop, im miserable, i slept trough my dentist appointment that i had this morning and didnt even call them to make a new one, my life is a mess and its the worst,,,i feel so gross and dirty and i also havent worked out in almost a week now, i just dont know what to do, it all feels so impossible nd hard hhow can i pick myself up again after all this,,, i feel so helpless


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#9257 Femcelll

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Posted 20 July 2021 - 10:53 PM

ate like the fucking world was about to end 


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#9258 Eating Machine

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Posted 20 July 2021 - 11:23 PM

Back on my clown shit
Started with eating the whole box of Mac & Cheese and went downhill from there. The french sticks weren't even worth it (they had freezer burn).
Technically my dinner not lunch.

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#9259 whythelongface

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 05:10 AM

idk if i have BED since i b/p but yesterday i did not purge my second binge because i was so tired from my cousins visiting+sleeping med that i didnt. and i feel swollen and fat. 


 

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#9260 c:/f_uck

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Posted 21 July 2021 - 06:50 AM

2 more weeks... that's all i have to wait.


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