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#9281 Stebula

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Posted 02 August 2021 - 02:37 PM

was unable to break my 1x/week binging cycle, bc today was the 7th day :(

 

new week starting tomorrow i guess


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LW - 122.7 (BMI 18.7)


CW - 124.6 (BMI 18.9)


GW1 - 121 (BMI 18.4)


GW2 - 115 (BMI 17.5)


GW3 - 105 (BMI 16.0)


UGW - Maintain 110-115



DAILY GOALS:


August: 1200-1400cal

September: 1000-1200cal

October: 800-1000cal


DAYS BINGE FREE: 2


#9282 skellyjelly

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Posted 02 August 2021 - 02:50 PM

Mom left angelfood cake in the kitchen. It was fluffy. I was being so good today until that stupid cake found me :( I'm still determined to turn things around and start losing again I've been slowly gaining since like March and it sucks

how do I remind myself how awful I felt after the last binge while I'm stuck in that loop so I can break the cycle? I probably ate almost half that stupid cake. Not even the worst binge of the past 7 days kms I'm so scared my pants will stop fitting again...


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#9283 Stebula

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Posted 03 August 2021 - 12:36 PM

Mom left angelfood cake in the kitchen. It was fluffy. I was being so good today until that stupid cake found me :( I'm still determined to turn things around and start losing again I've been slowly gaining since like March and it sucks

how do I remind myself how awful I felt after the last binge while I'm stuck in that loop so I can break the cycle? I probably ate almost half that stupid cake. Not even the worst binge of the past 7 days kms I'm so scared my pants will stop fitting again...

i feel this!! it doesn't work for me ALL THE TIME but sometimes it really does help me to go through all of my MPA posts. .  . there's so many and when I see my past self celebrating a streak of no binges or hitting a new LW, it motivates me to get there again and achieve something new so I can feel that excitement and happiness again. Likewise, I can see all the posts I made after a binge and remember how I felt and try to avoid that. Maybe this will help you? Typically it will help delay a binge, or stop a binge early, if it can't prevent one altogether, even just as a time waster and distraction it works!


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HW - 175 (BMI 26.6)


LW - 122.7 (BMI 18.7)


CW - 124.6 (BMI 18.9)


GW1 - 121 (BMI 18.4)


GW2 - 115 (BMI 17.5)


GW3 - 105 (BMI 16.0)


UGW - Maintain 110-115



DAILY GOALS:


August: 1200-1400cal

September: 1000-1200cal

October: 800-1000cal


DAYS BINGE FREE: 2


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Posted 03 August 2021 - 12:41 PM

I just "binged" chocolate and donuts after eating a fatty meal. I don't feel bad about it! I have been working very hard as of late and it was delicious.



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Posted 03 August 2021 - 04:00 PM

when will i finally stop



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Posted 03 August 2021 - 06:47 PM

i had literally just began to lose weight and had gone nearly a week binge free but no, why keep that streak when i can just fuck it all up? im so tired of this, but i swear one day im gonna get free if itโ€™s the last thing i do.



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Posted 03 August 2021 - 07:33 PM

told myself i would get the large pizza because it was cheaper and that i would only eat half ha ha ha i love lying :)


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Posted 03 August 2021 - 11:12 PM

eaten a lot of chocolate, and chocolate pretzels, other sweets n I have mini sausage rolls in the oven.... all alone at 5am.

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Posted 07 August 2021 - 10:01 AM

My period was 2 weeks late, thought I'd missed it completely but it came and along with it came insane binge urges.. I've been eating crap for the last 2 days that I've been at home. Going back to work tomorrow which helps with restricting but need to keep it up on Monday when I have another day off. Ughh I feel like such a fat failure 


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Posted 07 August 2021 - 05:14 PM

:( im so ashamed 



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#9291 Quinoa

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Posted 08 August 2021 - 01:07 AM

Family dinner really threw me off today.
Last night I couldnโ€™t sleep and I woke up late in the day which ruined my meal plans, then I come to find that my mom was making spaghetti and meatballs AND garlic bread because my sister was coming over for dinner. I fasted today until then because I knew Iโ€™d have to eat with them and only ate a small serving but later once I put all the food into mfp it was more than Iโ€™d previously planned for all of today
I got upset with my mom because whenever I decline food/express that Iโ€™m trying to cut back she makes it about her and wonโ€™t stop commenting on how sheโ€™s eaten too much or how she shouldnโ€™t have eaten something, which just makes me so uncomfortable and triggers the hell out of me
Then later I upset myself because Iโ€™ve been blowing off this guy I really like because I feel too unstable to get involved with someone and Iโ€™m so worried Iโ€™ve ruined my chances.. I donโ€™t think Iโ€™ll ever be ready or the circumstances will be perfect for me to date again
So naturally I sabotage myself further with emotional snacking (cheese, crackers, salami, cookies.. I donโ€™t even like salami what the FUCK)
Iโ€™m going to have another sleepless night, so I might as well spend it with my fat ass on my stationary bike
I feel so weak and fat even though Iโ€™m only ~200 over my BMR. Iโ€™m so impatient for this goddamn recovery weight to go away I just want to go back to being numb and not caring but I know I wonโ€™t be able to stop now until Iโ€™m back to my lw
I hate myself :(

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#9292 c:/f_uck

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Posted 08 August 2021 - 02:40 AM

I can't stop binging. I'm not even enjoying it anymore, it's just turned into a sort of compulsion. I hate this.

literally this


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Posted 08 August 2021 - 04:12 AM

Decided to make an entire pan of nachos with ground beef, cheese, sour cream, beans, guacamole, and salsa. Split it with my roommate but didnโ€™t finish my half of the pan. Couldnโ€™t purge bc Iโ€™m trying to purge once or less per day. I already purged a sandwich earlier.

 

So now Iโ€™m so full I have to lie down, plus all the dairy has congested me like hell. And full of guilt. Oh man, the guilt kills me. 


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#9294 _LUKA_

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Posted 08 August 2021 - 11:02 AM

i binged at around 3-4 am and it''s 11 am right now.

 

i purged everything i possibly could afterwards but im still so disappointed in myself


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#9295 ๐“˜๐“ผ๐“ช๐“ซ๐“ฎ๐“ต๐“ต๐“ช

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Posted 08 August 2021 - 01:00 PM

i did again... 3000kcal yay.

 

fasting tomorrow i hope


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Posted 09 August 2021 - 12:29 PM

I ate a tub of ice cream, 2 chocolate muffins and 2 snickers today. I feel disgusting


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#9297 rotting piggy

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Posted 09 August 2021 - 02:49 PM

today was supposed to be a metabolism day but i blacked out and ended up eating everything, i feel so full and gross. i'm guessing that in total all of it was more than 2000 calories in less than 30 minutes :/


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#9298 butttercup

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Posted 09 August 2021 - 04:52 PM

here I am again :'(



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Posted 09 August 2021 - 06:48 PM

Yup, in fact I'm binging right now. 


 
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#9300 c:/f_uck

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Posted 10 August 2021 - 03:17 AM

i yelled at myself in the shower this morning because i gained

 

 

and i just binged

 

 

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This video makes my appetite take a hike

 

 

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