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#1 voguegeh

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Posted 01 January 2018 - 04:55 PM

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my poetry dump

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i know it's not good but tbh i don't care

because i'm not really writing this for

anyone but myself, so...

i guess i'll start


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:04 PM

she's the kind of skinny sad girls wear

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she's the kind of skinny sad girls wear,

you know?

where her veins mimic tidal waves,

and her eyes hollow into bowls filled with chicken noodle soup--

no.

broth.

broth only has ten calories.

she won't let herself breathe, not for a second.

she doesn't know much about science, but she can swear up and down

that the air that she breathes will only make her

e    x    p    a    n    d

 

maybe, if she can hold it long enough,

the exhale will flatten her.

 

hipBONES ribBONES collarBONES protrude

her scale is a see-saw, teetering on emptiness

tuesday, six-am, she is 75.2 lbs

tuesday, seven twenty-two am, she is 77.8 lbs

tuesday, seven twenty-three am, she claws at her skin

because 2.6 lbs might as well be 100, and skin loss means weight loss.

 

Maybe she cared too much.

Maybe it's none of your goddamn business.

 

there's beauty in emptiness,

and when she rubs her eyes, she can see it

blue crosses and yellow girls

a childhood memory clouded by--hunger

she coughs, shaking her--hunger

black dots shield her--hunger

hunger hunger hunger hunger

 

nothing.


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:07 PM

wring my wrists

by voguegeh

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wring my wrists

jingle jingle jingle jingle

twist and twist and twist and twist

the mouth opens

the bracelet turns

the stomach churns

two inch circumference

it's only a memory, though


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:09 PM

she smiles politely

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she smiles politely,

the way her mother taught her to.

a crinkle in the corner of her eye

pulling her lips upward-- not outward--

 

it almost looked real


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:10 PM

she's the kind of skinny sad girls wear,
you know?
where her veins mimic tidal waves,
and her eyes hollow into bowls filled with chicken noodle soup--
no.
broth.
broth only has ten calories.
she won't let herself breathe, not for a second.
she doesn't know much about science, but she can swear up and down
that the air that she breathes will only make her
e x p a n d

maybe, if she can hold it long enough,
the exhale will flatten her.

hipBONES ribBONES collarBONES protrude
her scale is a see-saw, teetering on emptiness
tuesday, six-am, she is 75.2 lbs
tuesday, seven twenty-two am, she is 77.8 lbs
tuesday, seven twenty-three am, she claws at her skin
because 2.6 lbs might as well be 100, and skin loss means weight loss.

Maybe she cared too much.
Maybe it's none of your goddamn business.

there's beauty in emptiness,
and when she rubs her eyes, she can see it
blue crosses and yellow girls
a childhood memory clouded by--hunger
she coughs, shaking her--hunger
black dots shield her--hunger
hunger hunger hunger hunger

nothing.

damn well written

mentally ill but really chill

 


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:16 PM

**this isn't really a poem, more of a confession**

 

what i learned from you

by voguegeh

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i taught myself how to ride a bike
i taught myself how to roller skate
i even taught myself how to read
yes, i was one proficient ass child, i know.
sadly, though, i did not get to teach myself one thing:
how to give a blowjob
someone else did that for me.
it's not his fault, though. he was only ten or eleven himself.
and it's not like i knew what was happening either,
but guess what?
naivety and ignorance are only blessings until you grow up.
these days, i prefer to fill my mouth with food.

and now, when they ask me

"Spit, or swallow?"

i can't keep it down.

my parents insisted, when i first told them, that it was my fault

for not speaking up
for not listening

they wanted to keep it quiet,
and maybe it's because they love me

i think they just forgot.


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:16 PM

damn well written

thank you <3


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:18 PM

i love ur poetry


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:19 PM

i love ur poetry


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thanks bb!  :D


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:25 PM

aspartame

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splenda in my herbal tea

diet coke stains my teeth

vomit cakes my hair

journal filled with deadlines i can't meet

 

and i'll keep trying

hoping one day that i'll end up dying

 

aspartame

on my plain oatmeal monday morning

clipped nails leave scratches

up and down my throat

black soap arises

bloodshot eyes stream unwarranted tears

you can't pretend that you care when you don't.

ignore me all you want

i don't NEED friends.

i need

aspartame


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Posted 01 January 2018 - 05:35 PM

i can hear you

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i can hear you

i can hear each tremble in your tone

each giggle drenched in a saccharine veil

of all the fucks you never gave

 

your disguise is flickering, babe

it's time to turn on the light.


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Posted 02 January 2018 - 10:32 AM

Wow..... You have a way with words
Your poetry is just beautiful
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I'm short and bitter.

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Posted 02 January 2018 - 03:00 PM

Wow..... You have a way with words
Your poetry is just beautiful

jeez, thank you! that was really kind of you to say


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Posted 02 January 2018 - 04:21 PM

late night tinder texts

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Hi!

Jeez, I've never done this kind of thing before...

Well, here goes!

My name is XXXXX XXXX,

and I live in XXXXXXXX.

I go to XXXXXXX High School

(I love it there, I have so many XXXXXX)

My birthday is on XX/XX/XXXX

(I'm a XXXXXX baby!)

My phone number is XXX-XXX-XXXX

(Wanna XXX me up sometime?)

Maybe you'll stick around long enough

this time

to figure me out.


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Posted 02 January 2018 - 04:23 PM

let's play a game

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Let's play a game.

Rule Number One:

Keep your thoughts to yourself. Even the bad ones.

Especially the bad ones.

 

(Failure to comply may result in the loss of your loved ones.)


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Posted 02 January 2018 - 04:49 PM

my dentist always applauds me

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my dentist always applauds me

for having the widest mouth

of all his patients

 

now, my jaw

locks

and my teeth

crook

crusted over by a thick

mucus

which gushes through pursed

lips

opened just enough for a light

kiss


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Posted 05 January 2018 - 06:57 PM

(not a poem)

 

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Posted 05 January 2018 - 07:07 PM

omg...

how are you so good

how


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Posted 05 January 2018 - 07:16 PM

omg...

how are you so good

how

the answer is:

because i'm not

but i have successfully tricked you into thinking i am, so there's that


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Posted 08 January 2018 - 08:55 PM

painting glass shards

by voguegeh

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painting glass shards is a hobby I take pride in.

 

my hands may b l e e d

my teeth may c l e n c h

my tears may s t r e a m

 

but

 

painting glass shards is a hobby i take pride in.


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