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[Megarexia]

i've always had an eating disorder.., but around 5 years ago it really hit home, everything blew up on me, i realized every guy i admired was muscular, one problem, i wasn't, dbz was my show, i loved gohan, i wanted to be like gohan..  i wanted to be like superman and all my life long heroes..  i felt like thats what i needed to do to be a man, even though i was suffering from anorexia at the time.. before i start i want to thank furious pete who helped me out of the darkness and to the "light"? or is it really light? (later when i fell back into anorexia and his videos helped me back out) soon after the iron bug hit me.. hit me hard!

 

and a big shoutout to durrah who i found later, will link videos.. he literally underwent the same shit as me..

 

this is them if you haven't seen him yet

 

-furious pete

 

durrah - 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

anorexia to bigorexia transformation.

 

 

 

this is back at my lowest weight when anorexia had hold of me

 

 

 

 

 

 

after about a year or two at the gym this is what i looked like.. still unsatisfied, and still a skinny bitch, i was about 60 pounds heavier and considered healthy at the time.. but my head was killing me and eventually took over, i took every known supplement after this, i hated myself, i wanted to die still

 

 

 

 

a year later this is what i looked like.. i couldnt believe the two pictures, after a year i barely gaind anything, a few shitty pounds.. thats all so i decided to take it to the text step, i ate eerything in sight, i mean everything, 10,000 calories easily, i couldn't sleep, i couldn't do anything, i would stay home and eat, i couldn't walk, walking burns calories, I NEED CaLORIES.

 

 

 

 

 

after quitting walking altogether i took the essentials, i start doing injections of b12, i had 1000 calorie weight gainers, i ate everything in sight

 

a few years later this is what i look like... my body is okay, but it took be better, i know it took a while and i still am tiny but i did all i could.. in and out of hospitals and everything..

 

 

 

 

 

 

still not where i want to be.. i need to constatly wear baggy sweaters to hide what is under it.. i hate it but im use to it.. i hate when people try to touch me, i feel fragile.. i feel like im going to break, its hard to even find photso to upload.. i delete everything because my body is gross

 

 

this is my story.. if any other bigorexians would like to share.. please.. remember

 

you are not alone!! don't let this illness beat your head

 

i may have missed a lot, on my phone trying to link some photos and everything.. sorry, in a hurry

[nomocameltoe]

Your pics will not load for me on my phone. disappointing. Was very interested in your story and transformation thus far

[Megarexia]

I love your story. You've got a good-looking body, by the way.

 

thank you love!! :$

[Megarexia]

I have it, and my idols/obsessions are Jason Statham and Dolph Lundgren. There not that big but what wouldn't I do to look like them.... 

awh i love him too actually :c

[jordiejonesxx]

Really well explained, I know it's not much of a consolation; but you've honestly got the biggest muscles I've personally seen x

[Megarexia]

Really well explained, I know it's not much of a consolation; but you've honestly got the biggest muscles I've personally seen x

 

thanks a lot but i doubt it..

[Blondie.]

This is going to be me, I just know it.

I cant maintain an Anorexic BMI forever and this will be me.

FUCK.

[DreamFilled]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I'm so glad they added this forum. ED's aren't exclusive to restricting and wanting to lose weight, and it was about time that was recognized.
I know you might not believe me, just like many of us on the other side of the spectrum don't believe what we are told, but I do think you have a very nice muscular body! Simply put, I'm the kind of girl who freaks out when someone tries to lift me because I think they will struggle too much because of my weight, but I wouldn't worry at all if it was you because I can see you are very strong and you could lift me up with one hand without any struggle (I'm 147 lb, as frame of reference). Actually, and I hope this doesn't sound offensive, you look like the kind of guy that, if you were my friend, I'd ask you if I can punch your stomach... And I'd hurt my hand while you wouldn't feel a tickle! (Ergo, I think you look really strong ).

[♔ king]

o.o those muscles are like stones compared to my pebble-sized ones ;-;

lookin good 0-0 *cannot stop staring to save my life*

[Megarexia]

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I'm so glad they added this forum. ED's aren't exclusive to restricting and wanting to lose weight, and it was about time that was recognized.
I know you might not believe me, just like many of us on the other side of the spectrum don't believe what we are told, but I do think you have a very nice muscular body! Simply put, I'm the kind of girl who freaks out when someone tries to lift me because I think they will struggle too much because of my weight, but I wouldn't worry at all if it was you because I can see you are very strong and you could lift me up with one hand without any struggle (I'm 147 lb, as frame of reference). Actually, and I hope this doesn't sound offensive, you look like the kind of guy that, if you were my friend, I'd ask you if I can punch your stomach... And I'd hurt my hand while you wouldn't feel a tickle! (Ergo, I think you look really strong ).

 

 

o.o those muscles are like stones compared to my pebble-sized ones ;-;

lookin good 0-0 *cannot stop staring to save my life*

 

hahaha, 147 is nothing :3

 

thank you guys :$

[musicalfailure]

You've really given such good and brave insight into this condition. I did not understand bigorexia, but now I actually am starting to imagine how it must feel. It's the same sort of obsessions and body weight issues that other EDs consist of.

 

I really think you are strong and brave to battle this for so long.