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#21 Megarexia

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Posted 26 November 2014 - 07:03 PM

You've really given such good and brave insight into this condition. I did not understand bigorexia, but now I actually am starting to imagine how it must feel. It's the same sort of obsessions and body weight issues that other EDs consist of.

 

I really think you are strong and brave to battle this for so long.

 

thank you lovely


0. Megarexia "a mental condition in which one perceives one's body as too thin, and desires it to be ever larger," 1 is the opposite of anorexia. Recent statistics indicate that six percent of men who engage in bodybuilding programs suffer from this. Megarexics often feel humiliated, are defensive about their body image, uncomfortable with talk about body building, and socially ill at ease. Individuals diagnosed as megarexics are "chronically preoccupied with the concept of increasing their body mass. When they look in the mirror, they see themselves as too small and too weak."

 

 

 

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1. "you are a troll" - No I just have different struggles with a different eating disorder, stop following me around trying to make me out to be a bad person.

 

2. "Go to a bodybuilding website" or "you'd be better off on a bodybuilding website"-  I'll go to a bodybuilding forum the moment you go to a diet forum. Same thing, right?

 

3. "you don't even have an ed"- Tired of explaining to close minded people, be a doll and scroll up to number 0.

 

 

4. "if you want better responses don't post in the anorexia forum board"- Once again, close minded, it's not the "anorexia board" It's called the "general eating disorder discussion board" where all eating disorders can be discussed, not just the "most common" one of this website.

 

 

 

5. Most people asking these are close minded people who think anorexia is the only eating disorder, don't be stupid, this world does not revolve around you, not even mental illness does, get out of your bubble and realize there are tons of other types of eating disorders out there, and this website accept all of them,  so yeah other than that, don't be dumb and i'm sure we can be great friends.

 

 

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Posted 26 November 2014 - 08:56 PM

Thank you for sharing your story. I had no idea what bigorexia was, I actually only clicked on this topic out of curiousity, but feel like I've had my eyes opened to a different and just as life affecting/ruining as anorexia or bulima. Thank you for speaking out and being so honest :)
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Posted 26 November 2014 - 11:39 PM

I'm sorry you're going through this :(
If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me :)
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Posted 27 November 2014 - 06:40 AM

I am definitely going to socialise on this part of the site more. Thanks for sharing. I do not have MD per se but I can completely relate. I train a lot and lift weights but I always see myself as being fat, no matter what. Sometimes I get a glimpse of reality and I am happy but it rarely lasts. And I feel guilt and distress when I don't go to the gym, even if I am ill or injured. Anyway, I am here to chat.
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Posted 27 November 2014 - 07:58 AM

Those muscles though

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Posted 28 November 2014 - 11:43 AM

Those veins though

I'm kinda jealous of those :)
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Posted 28 November 2014 - 01:36 PM

O my gosh! You look amazing! But I totally understand! I have the same thing. I went from 80 lbs to 96 lbs at 4'8 tops and I still feel too small!!!! My goal is 105 lbs!
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Posted 28 November 2014 - 04:23 PM

Those muscles though

 

 

Those veins though

I'm kinda jealous of those :)

 

 

O my gosh! You look amazing! But I totally understand! I have the same thing. I went from 80 lbs to 96 lbs at 4'8 tops and I still feel too small!!!! My goal is 105 lbs!

 

thanks guys :)


0. Megarexia "a mental condition in which one perceives one's body as too thin, and desires it to be ever larger," 1 is the opposite of anorexia. Recent statistics indicate that six percent of men who engage in bodybuilding programs suffer from this. Megarexics often feel humiliated, are defensive about their body image, uncomfortable with talk about body building, and socially ill at ease. Individuals diagnosed as megarexics are "chronically preoccupied with the concept of increasing their body mass. When they look in the mirror, they see themselves as too small and too weak."

 

 

 

FAQ

 

1. "you are a troll" - No I just have different struggles with a different eating disorder, stop following me around trying to make me out to be a bad person.

 

2. "Go to a bodybuilding website" or "you'd be better off on a bodybuilding website"-  I'll go to a bodybuilding forum the moment you go to a diet forum. Same thing, right?

 

3. "you don't even have an ed"- Tired of explaining to close minded people, be a doll and scroll up to number 0.

 

 

4. "if you want better responses don't post in the anorexia forum board"- Once again, close minded, it's not the "anorexia board" It's called the "general eating disorder discussion board" where all eating disorders can be discussed, not just the "most common" one of this website.

 

 

 

5. Most people asking these are close minded people who think anorexia is the only eating disorder, don't be stupid, this world does not revolve around you, not even mental illness does, get out of your bubble and realize there are tons of other types of eating disorders out there, and this website accept all of them,  so yeah other than that, don't be dumb and i'm sure we can be great friends.

 

 

CW- TOO SMALL.

            

 

 

 

 

 

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Posted 28 November 2014 - 05:53 PM

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Posted 01 December 2014 - 08:27 PM

Thank you for explaining and sharing your story! It cleared up a lot of things, and I'm glad MPA added this forum for bigorexic's such as yourself to come for support<3 

 

Oh, and I know you won't believe me when I say this, but you have one of the most muscular bodies I've ever seen:)

 

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Posted 01 December 2014 - 08:41 PM

Dude you have got a GREAT body! I'm so sorry you suffer from this eating disorder. But take it from a pretty picky girl your hot. I don't even know anyone as jacked. 

 

Hope you can get through your ED struggles though thanks for sharing your story <3


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Posted 04 December 2014 - 11:00 PM

Ok... is everyone looking at BOTH arms in that second to last photo with the blue shirt? Fishy. Thinking this isn't legit, especially since I've seen it elsewhere.

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Posted 05 December 2014 - 12:20 AM

Ok... is everyone looking at BOTH arms in that second to last photo with the blue shirt? Fishy. Thinking this isn't legit, especially since I've seen it elsewhere.

 

DUDE!!!

 

I saw that too, but I didn't want to say "why is your other arm so small" because it's like calling a person with ED fat.

But since he's banned and gone now:

 

That has been driving me NUTS!


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Posted 05 December 2014 - 12:21 AM

Ok... is everyone looking at BOTH arms in that second to last photo with the blue shirt? Fishy. Thinking this isn't legit, especially since I've seen it elsewhere.


Yeah how the posed arm is all defined and the one holding the camera is regular looking. Either he photo shopped it or he jacks off with that arm solely and because he's a loser troll, he created muscles in that arm only.

But don't worry about it too much, he's been a troll on here with multiple accounts and even though the disease he claims is real, it doesn't mean he has it.
He just doesn't have a life..

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Posted 05 December 2014 - 12:38 AM

Yeah how the posed arm is all defined and the one holding the camera is regular looking. Either he photo shopped it or he jacks off with that arm solely and because he's a loser troll, he created muscles in that arm only.

But don't worry about it too much, he's been a troll on here with multiple accounts and even though the disease he claims is real, it doesn't mean he has it.
He just doesn't have a life..


Lmfao its called flexing. and its the angle of the camera. Duh.

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Posted 05 December 2014 - 02:58 AM

Lmfao its called flexing. and its the angle of the camera. Duh.


There is no way there can be that much of a difference...
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Posted 05 December 2014 - 09:38 AM

There is no way there can be that much of a difference...


Again, the angle, half his arm isn't even showing. So yes there definitely can.

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Posted 05 December 2014 - 11:29 AM

IDK... I still feel bad for him....

 

What if yall tried to get support for you ED and everyone was like "you don't have a real eating disorder"....

 

 

I know some of his posts seem trollish... I am just saying that if it was reverse and people were judging and calling an anorexic a liar on MPA yall would be jumping all over those people


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Posted 05 December 2014 - 11:30 AM

Again, the angle, half his arm isn't even showing. So yes there definitely can.

This too...

 

Camera angels on phones do weird things to people....


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Posted 05 December 2014 - 11:31 AM

This too...

 

Camera angels on phones do weird things to people....

 

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