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#1 Adorabubble

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Posted 15 May 2018 - 05:29 PM

I'll start:
I woke up this morning and weighed myself. I'm at 123.4! I was at 128 this last Thursday! Yay!

Got depressed over what is actually nothing important during working hours. Came home and ate half a jar of nutella as soon as my roommate left because I'm sick of feeling invisible and ugly. Because, clearly, nutella is the way to improve this situation.

I then proceeded to loudly announce to no one that I fucking hate myself.

So, story-time! What was your most ED'ed moment of the day?

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Posted 15 May 2018 - 05:37 PM

Forcing myself to eat a tiny itty bitty taco so my mom wouldn't be suspicious of me not eating when in reality she probably wouldn't notice or give a shit but I think everyone is watching me all the time because I'm incredibly narcissistic
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Posted 15 May 2018 - 05:48 PM

Freaking out over the prospect of having to eat a extra 200 kcal because people kept pestering baout how i hadn't eaten anything ;-; Like i actually cried lol


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Posted 15 May 2018 - 06:36 PM

Taking an hour to decide if I want to eat a snack of 150cal..... then feeling guilty after I ate it lol ugh


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Posted 15 May 2018 - 08:15 PM

My friends who know about my ED asked me to please eat at least a multivitamin....couldn’t even do that :/ I crawled up into a ball on the floor and cried about it until finally giving in and putting it into my mouth.

I spit it out when I left..
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Posted 15 May 2018 - 08:57 PM

Went to Cava
Ordered a salad I made ahead of time on their site
Only ate half and nobody even commented on it

Easiest eating out ever (250 calories in my tummy in total)


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Posted 17 May 2018 - 05:11 PM

For today.... not bringing a proper lunch for a full 8 hour school day in a busy clinic. I just brought 12 crackers and apple sauce. Honestly it sounds pretty basic lol



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Posted 17 May 2018 - 05:18 PM

My friend told me he had once has an illness that caused him to lose like 15-20 lbs, and he could see his rib bones. I sat there for 20 minutes trying to weasel the name of the illness out of him so I could see if there was any way I could get it for myself. Ironically, I also have a deathly fear of being sick, so I ate loads of food at the same time since I was feeling super weak to make sure I didn't vomit everywhere.

 

What is my mind haha

 

(seriously anyone with that illness who's contagious hit me up though :P)


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Posted 17 May 2018 - 05:24 PM

Ooooh. So when I get particularly weak and dizzy, I go around the house taking whatever vitamin pills I can find. Well, without scanning into MFP, I took a fish oil pill, then scanned - APPARENTLY FISH OIL HAS 10 CALORIES?

I literally can't stop thinking about it now.

And honestly the fact that it bothers me so much just shows how fked I am.
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Posted 17 May 2018 - 05:25 PM

My friend told me he had once has an illness that caused him to lose like 15-20 lbs, and he could see his rib bones. I sat there for 20 minutes trying to weasel the name of the illness out of him so I could see if there was any way I could get it for myself. Ironically, I also have a deathly fear of being sick, so I ate loads of food at the same time since I was feeling super weak to make sure I didn't vomit everywhere.

 

What is my mind haha

 

(seriously anyone with that illness who's contagious hit me up though :P)

Omgosh, I have done sort of the same. I use to wish for a lot of different diseases so my parents could get off my back.


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Posted 17 May 2018 - 05:30 PM

Today, my most ed'd moment.

 

Breakfast. Sitting there, trying to decide whether I want 150 cals worth of tea or 150 cals worth of bread and peanut butter. I ate both, out of stress.

 

Walked 4 miles to make up for it.

 

And then proceeded to have more tea, milk, sugar, and bread upon getting home.

 

I'm not going on a four mile walk again.

 

I've had 808 cals. I know I'm trying to maintain. But, at the same time, I don't want to and I hate myself.



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Posted 17 May 2018 - 05:41 PM

I think my most disordered moment of the day was when I used about one tiny dip of a buffalo dipping sauce but just to make sure I didn’t go over calories I logged it as using 2 tablespoons
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Posted 17 May 2018 - 06:09 PM

probably spending an excessive amount of time calculating calories in some pasta salad and then ending up throwing out 1/3 of it anyway. second place would be trying to get my friends to eat half an apricot because i didn’t want the 10 extra calories
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Posted 17 May 2018 - 06:52 PM

Woke up feeling already like crap 'cause first days of winter + low restriction = hell on Earth.

Sadly enough, there were still two pastries left untouched out of the 726363 that I had successfully avoided eating yesterday. Wasn't feeling that strong this morning so the moment my mom left I c/s both of them in the toilet.

Ate a low cal toast, had a coffee. Then I had a second coffee, okay, still pretty normal. Then I went for my third one in the lapse of a single hour and - TMI TMI TMI -

I obviously ended up shitting my brains out for the next half hour. It was a relief tho, had been constipated for days.

Power went out, the air conditioning stoped working, started pacing uncontrollably not so much because GOTTA BURN THAT SINGLE PIECE OF TOAST but rather because I was fucking. Freezing. To death.

Took a nap for the rest of the evening up until now. Still feeling like crap and cold. Had yet another coffee.

This day SUCKS ASS lmao
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Posted 17 May 2018 - 06:52 PM

Restricted all day. Made myself a salad for dinner. Purged said salad. Then ate a square slice of pizza (kept that down...wtf) 😆😭
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Posted 18 May 2018 - 09:24 AM

Crying in my living room because I didn’t want to have lunch today. To overcome this I made lunch for my Priest and then coaxed myself into having exactly the same as him.
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Posted 18 May 2018 - 09:26 AM

I made both lunches at the Chaplaincy and we both ate our salmon bagels after Mass. I didn’t purge either I’m actually pleased that I’m recovering even though I still have thoughts about restricting and purging and fasting but I’ve stopped purging completely now
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Posted 18 May 2018 - 12:21 PM

I ate probably well over 1500 calories at dinner yesterday and now I've tried to make up for it by only having coffee and diet coke? makes sense I guess? totally won't end badly


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Posted 18 May 2018 - 01:14 PM

Little backstory: after many years of having an eating disorder I finally taught myself how to purge and yesterday was the second (and then later that day the third) time I purged my binges. I felt so awful afterwards and swore to myself to never purge again and be healthy for the next week at least and eat lots of healthy food today to help my body regenerate.

 

But what do I of course do first thing I wake up this morning? Dig through the trash-bags that my idiot self didn't throw away last night and eat the remaining three chocolate bars that I had left (they were wrapped but its still gross). And then of course I panicked and purged again. At least I'm getting better at it? I hate myself.


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Posted 18 May 2018 - 01:24 PM

Binging on breakfast bisquits, then exercising for two-three hours to burn at least some of the calories.
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