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#41 Side of Pancakes

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Posted 20 May 2018 - 02:45 AM

Buying a box of frozen waffles so I could nibble around the edges of each one (all in one sitting) and throw the rest of the waffle away. I probably consumed the caloric equivalent of one or two whole waffles, but somehow it would be unacceptable to just eat one or two whole waffles.

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Posted 22 May 2018 - 01:48 PM

Well I guess it was using laxatives cause I just can't take the feeling of being full anymore


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Posted 22 May 2018 - 03:23 PM

My work randomly ordering take away food for us all to 'boost moral'. That sort of thing never usually happens, and it ruined my fucking day. I was the only one to not have any so I had a day of people asking why I wasn't having any. And just seeing the joy free food brought everyone; made me feel a weird mix of jealously and disgust. 

Only slightly disordered that that ruined my entire day...  :rolleyes:


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Posted 22 May 2018 - 03:49 PM

almost flipped in gym class when the treadmill i was using randomly stopped before i got to 150 calories burned 


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Posted 22 May 2018 - 05:41 PM

Taking 35 lax but then walking an hour to Tesco to pick up some diuretics. Almost shitting my self on the way home
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Posted 22 May 2018 - 05:41 PM

Locking myself in the closest so i could jog in place & reach my step goal.
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Posted 23 May 2018 - 12:24 AM

i was doing a face mask and while waiting, i decided to c/s. it didn't go well.



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Posted 23 May 2018 - 03:43 AM

B/p’d twice and clogged up my friends’ sink while washing my hands off....lmao oops

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Posted 23 May 2018 - 07:42 AM

Gross TMI but...

I made eggs for breakfast not knowing whether they were still good then was happy when they caused my stomach to turn and I had to run to the toilet. Happy to feel super empty now. Ridiculous.
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Posted 23 May 2018 - 11:23 AM

Making up some pasta for lunch....realising some idiot in my house had only left a spoonful of shell shaped pasta so put spaghetti with it to make it up to the "correct" amount.....

 

Cue spending over an hour on lunch when I decided I didn't like mixed pasta shapes on my plate so threw it out and started over. 

 

Now to avoid the sugar cravings from getting annoyed at myself. 


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Posted 23 May 2018 - 12:51 PM

Trying to take someone's advice and eat cashews during the early parts of the day and settling for coffee and a slim fast instead. I just cannot do solid food in the mornings; it makes me nauseated.


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Posted 23 May 2018 - 04:16 PM

Asking my debating coaches if there would be close private bathrooms at all the places will we will be eating at or provided food at. didn't get a straight answer, so might have to try quietly purge in the bathrooms if they end up being more public...


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Posted 23 May 2018 - 04:46 PM

Throwing away the cup ramen I made because calories but now drinking a lot of alcohol 😔
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Posted 23 May 2018 - 05:11 PM

I had a tums today and actually went "MMMMM" out loud because it's been that long without food

 

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Posted 23 May 2018 - 05:40 PM

I was at the grocery store buying my safe meal ingredients and they were completely out of one of the things I needed and I freaked out and stood there panic crying in the aisle at the grocery, sadly staring at the place it was supposed to be like if I cry-stared at it long enough it might appear... It did not, however eventually I remembered that there are other stores and surely the whole world wasn’t out of veggie patties
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Posted 25 May 2018 - 10:04 PM

Right now. Its 11:04 pm and I'm laying in bed with a wonderfully empty stomach and loving every minute of it.
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Posted 25 May 2018 - 10:09 PM

I made both lunches at the Chaplaincy and we both ate our salmon bagels after Mass. I didn’t purge either I’m actually pleased that I’m recovering even though I still have thoughts about restricting and purging and fasting but I’ve stopped purging completely now


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Posted 25 May 2018 - 11:34 PM

Skipped out hanging with a friend because possibility of going to a restaurant
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Posted 26 May 2018 - 01:58 PM

knowing that there was a single stall bathroom on the second floor of the restaurant my family goes to a lot and only using that one despite eating on the first floor so that i could purge in peace....


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Posted 26 May 2018 - 02:07 PM

Today, my most ed'd moment.

Breakfast. Sitting there, trying to decide whether I want 150 cals worth of tea or 150 cals worth of bread and peanut butter. I ate both, out of stress.

Walked 4 miles to make up for it.

And then proceeded to have more tea, milk, sugar, and bread upon getting home.

I'm not going on a four mile walk again.

I've had 808 cals. I know I'm trying to maintain. But, at the same time, I don't want to and I hate myself.


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