Long story short I have about four weeks where i'm not going to get weighed/I have (some) control of calories. I hate my body to the point of depression but if I lose weight my parents will just make me gain it back. (I'm sixteen AKA no chance of leaving home soon)
I do lots of strength training but just last week this lady said to me "Yeah, you don't look like a power lifter."
Now looking in the mirror I see what she means but the fact is last summer I did look like a power lifter but my parents made me gain 22 lbs (I've lost ten of those lbs already - without my parents knowing AKA i'm faking my weight) they think I weigh 136LBS but I'm 127ish pounds - hopefully a little less but I haven't weighed myself in a few days
So should I lose weight and try to talk my parents into letting me stay at 130? (They are dead set against this right now and won't even talk about it or [even worse] laugh at me when I ask to drop to 130)
should I keep strength training and hope I can get more ripped? which doesn't seem to be working but as i'm procrastinating exercising to write this post maybe it's no surprise I don't look like a power lifter.
My ed is about size not weight as long as I look skinny I don't care what I weigh.
Thanks for your answers.