so here's me:
I've been swaying back and forth between fighting ana and being her best friend for about 6 years now. Mostly I am a low restrictor with a binge every two weeks or so (pathetic I know). When i started college I lost 20lbs and gdi I looked good... not like an angel but u know pointy hipbones and tiny fingers and all that. Now that I've been home for the summer I thought I wanted to recover but I've gained 8 lbs and I cant even look at myself, so I'm here to strengthen my relationship with ana again and make a buddy to keep me accountable.
I work out a lot because it makes me feel less crazy, gives me a "public" excuse to lose, and I'm honestly terrified of being "skinny fat" even tho there's absolutely nothing wrong with it.
I'd like to find a buddy who I can send pictures and calorie counts of my meals to and will send theirs to me. In the past this has worked really well for me and my buddies because over time we get a lil competitive and end up eating less and less and then we're both lil skinny fairies! Also, I've never done this before but I don't think its a bad idea to share bodychecks with my buddy, to keep each other on track but still spread some confidence.
Here's my stats because, hell, I would be wondering too:
GW for sunday: 105
GW next sunday: 100
I need to reach AT LEAST GW3 by August 1 and I need to reach my UGW by the 18th
looking at it now it doesn't seem so hard.
Message me if you want to be my buddy! I can't view messages until tomorrow but I'll be checking bright and early. stay lovely, stay safe