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Anhedonia ?

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#1 anorexicduty

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Posted 10 July 2018 - 07:28 PM

I was reading this afternoon and came across anhedonia.

 

A doctor used it to describe my mental state a long time back.

 

Anhedonia is generally accepted to mean the inability to experience pleasure.

I include the feelings of loneliness and emptiness b/c they're always present in me.

Anhedonia leads to anxiety and progressive depression.

Anhedonia is the reason I restrict/fast. I feel so much better when I do.

I don't feel pleasure but I do feel excitement.

 

Does anyone else recognize this condition in themselves?

Do you get the feelings of being empty and lonely?

Discuss please. Thank you!


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Posted 10 July 2018 - 09:13 PM

I guess I should've used an easier word to understand.


 
 
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Posted 10 July 2018 - 09:16 PM

I do experience that but idk if it's clinical or just a hormonal phase for me

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Posted 10 July 2018 - 09:40 PM

Yep! Classic depression, particularly starvation-induced. I told my therapist I was anhedonic once, and she was like, "For once use your own words and not clinical terminology." 


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Posted 10 July 2018 - 10:27 PM

Yes, this describes me. I feel I have the inability to experience pleasure. It's like I want to but can't if that makes sense.

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Posted 01 November 2018 - 05:59 AM

Yep that's me. My therapist didn't understand how can i feel so empty and discontented even though i had some friends, a little time for hobbies and a career path i liked.

Anhedonia makes me feel like a ghost, a relic of myself, when i look back to the old me. She was able to find painting pleasurable, to love her family, to appreciate the days instead of just waiting them to end, to feel accomplished by getting the top marks, to feel joy and love, to be amazed and inspired by the world. I used to have dreams and aspirations.

I remember the day i decided to become a doctor and how excited i was, how eager and hopeful for the future. How much i loved acquiring new knowledge, how interested and engaged i was.

The movies, the songs, the sunsets, my friends' smiles and hugs, the rain, the wind in my hair, the cold sea water in the morning, the empty streets at 5am, my lovely cats and dog, the wonderful mountain paths that used to make my heart light again, the travelling in Europe-museums, small streets, cathedrals, local shops, street musicians... they made me feel alive.

It's just emptiness and coldness now, like i am already dead. I still try to do some of these things, hoping the missing piece of me will come back. But the other part of me is like, what even is the point if everything sucks and i just feel more and more hollow and lonely. It scares me because the older i get, the worse it becomes, and i try to feel the emptiness with food and alcohol and pain and giving everything to the wrong people, but nothing is ever enough. 

I think it's the foundation of both my depression and anxiety. It makes me a very unbearable and intense person to be around and i always have to act in social situations. I miss myself, this is sort of unhealthy nostalgia.


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Posted 01 November 2018 - 07:22 AM

I miss myself, this is sort of unhealthy nostalgia.


Everything you typed... I wish I could cry. It was bang on.
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Posted 01 November 2018 - 07:37 AM

Have you ever tried ketamine infusions? It helped my depression and anxiety more than anti-depressants ever have. The clinic I went to makes you do 6 in a row within two weeks, then maintenance every 6 months to a year. I very, very highly reccommend it. I went from very severe depression on both tests before the first one to absense or remission of depresson before the last one.

I'd say it helped my anhedonia, social anxiety and emotional numbness the most.

I'm sorry if it seems like such an advertisment I just wish I knew about this sooner and I don't want others to go through what I did akssjsnsnd
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Posted 01 November 2018 - 07:47 AM

Have you ever tried ketamine infusions? It helped my depression and anxiety more than anti-depressants ever have. The clinic I went to makes you do 6 in a row within two weeks, then maintenance every 6 months to a year. I very, very highly reccommend it. I went from very severe depression on both tests before the first one to absense or remission of depresson before the last one.

I'd say it helped my anhedonia, social anxiety and emotional numbness the most.

I'm sorry if it seems like such an advertisment I just wish I knew about this sooner and I don't want others to go through what I did akssjsnsnd

 

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Posted 01 November 2018 - 07:52 AM

What country do you live in?

United States, dear.
height: 5' 2.4"/158.5 cm
sw: 160 lbs/72.6 kg (28.9 BMI)
cw: unknown, no scale
ugw: when i'm happy
diagnosis: an restrictive subtype

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Posted 16 January 2019 - 12:56 AM

I have this, I don't think I really know what happiness feels like. I just kinda get this feeling.


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Posted 16 January 2019 - 12:58 AM

Ever tried ketamine infusions? They're expensive but helped my anhedonia more than any SSRI/SNRI did!
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Posted 20 November 2019 - 06:49 AM

once felt cold inside

like my actual organs were cold? but it was summer and my skin was warm so that couldn't be possible?

also like i had nothing inside me 

i feel this too a lot like empty loneliness but i cant totally feel it ??

used to be worse when i was having a severe psychotic episode a few years ago

 

sorry ur feeling this it's painful i hope you find a solution 

a lot of love take care


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Posted 20 November 2019 - 07:55 AM

yes, since i was 14 years old. I feel everything less intensely, nothing seems to have a purpose. It sucks, my mind has been so numb for so many years i dont even remember how it is like to feel normal 


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Posted 03 April 2020 - 01:51 AM

yep

 

weed DESTROYS this at least for me lol


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Posted 03 April 2020 - 02:03 AM

basically dysthmia, depression, low mood all synonyms for each other


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Posted 03 April 2020 - 02:19 AM

I have depression and anhedonia, it sucks :/ Nothing is fun

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Posted 04 March 2021 - 08:21 AM

Everything you typed... I wish I could cry. It was bang on.

Agreed. I have never felt so seen. I'm absolutely feeling this way now too and I don't know how to stop it.





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