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EDNOS anorexia bulimia eating disorder

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#21 Fatcat1971

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Posted 07 April 2019 - 07:42 AM

I was diagnoswd with anorexia, recovered, and gained extra weight. I hit a high weight 1 month ago and immediately went to omad and 600 calories. My gw is a body fat percentage, rather than a weight as I am a power lifter and dont know how much muscle mass i gaines in recovery. As i am not pursuing underweight status, i feel totally validated in my restrictions. A part of me know that i will not stop restricting and wind up underweight again. Until then, however, i am telling myself that I was never really seriously Ana, and all will be fine.
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Posted 18 June 2019 - 12:25 PM

yes. you're not alone. hope all is well. take care of yourself lovely. xo.
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#23 KindaWannaDie

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Posted 25 June 2019 - 07:13 PM

Ya... you’re definitely not alone there.
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#24 Anorexic Fairyboy

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Posted 25 June 2019 - 10:22 PM

first of all, brilliant title for the thread. second of all, i get it (i was diagnosed an-bp upon being hospitalized, when most people there were an restricting type, and even though im technically anorexic in my medical records because subtypes dont predict longitudinal course of the illness and blah blah, i feel inferior) even though its like, most people i know with eds have used all sorts of different behaviors at different times, and ive met almost no one who doesnt binge at all, and even those who binge/purge/exercise/etc more than restrict need to refeed and whatnot, i still feel like i have to be restricting 99.9% of the time to be valid.

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#25 Phtisie

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Posted 26 June 2019 - 02:44 PM

No because I hold grudges bigger than my ass could ever be, and I resent the idea that anorexia is the queen bitch of all Eds, with of course the fatties at the bottom, no matter their ed, no matter how much they suffer. It makes me very angry, so apologies to the anorexics who try not to play into that too much, but that's how I feel. I dont wish to be called that, if only out of spite.Sorry if it's offensive, i'll delete if necessary.


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Posted 01 July 2019 - 11:15 AM

I can absolutely relate. Wanting to be better than everyone else with an eating disorder. Wanting to be Anorexic, sitting high and mighty on your throne made out of Splenda packets! Yes, it's sick. But you are not alone.

 

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Posted 04 July 2019 - 06:51 PM

Yes. My goal is to be hospitalized and very underweight. I know it's fucked up but I can't help it. I have to be the sickest.

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Posted 01 August 2019 - 04:22 PM

always had the feeling that i'm faking my eating disorder.. this put it into words 


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Posted 15 September 2019 - 09:36 AM

Same here. I kinda lost control of my ed (probs ednos) and ended with bulimia for over a year, and now i'm basically a wannarexic. I hate myself so much for being bulimic :/ 


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#30 Fadedbones

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Posted 15 September 2019 - 01:34 PM


I can absolutely relate. Wanting to be better than everyone else with an eating disorder. Wanting to be Anorexic, sitting high and mighty on your throne made out of Splenda packets! Yes, it's sick. But you are not alone.




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Posted 21 October 2019 - 10:18 AM

Same. I just keep hearing the word wannarexic and boy howdy to i feel that way
even tho i barely eat over 1'000 cals a day on a good day


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#32 BridgeToNowhere1994

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Posted 21 October 2019 - 12:44 PM

Samesies here

Im never sick enough

Nobody cares

All the care goes to legit anorexics

Im a fake

I should just die

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Posted 21 October 2019 - 04:52 PM


I can absolutely relate. Wanting to be better than everyone else with an eating disorder. Wanting to be Anorexic, sitting high and mighty on your throne made out of Splenda packets! Yes, it's sick. But you are not alone.


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Posted 21 October 2019 - 10:13 PM

i feel u.. im actually bulimic but i was diagnosed ednos for a really long time and when i fit the criteria for bulimia, i  felt a sick sense of reward like 'i'M a ReAl dISoRdEred PeRSoN noW!!"

it's kind of extremely stupid bc the title doesnt denote the severity or the "real"-ness of a disorder


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Posted 01 November 2019 - 08:53 PM

I don't want a diagnosis of any kind, and my ideal body is a strong (albeit, lean) one...At the same time, a part of me does want to be clinically underweight, for that sense of validation that I do, indeed, have an eating disorder :/ That and to "make up" for my obese childhood. I would love it if someone told me I looked "sick" or "scary skinny" again, and for it to be medically true >< ugh.


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Posted 23 November 2019 - 01:57 PM

100% feel you girl!



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Posted 26 November 2019 - 04:22 PM

When I had BED, it wasn’t a “real” eating disorder. I was a pretender. It’s fake. I’m a poser.

And now that it transformed into EDNOS, if I just tried a little bit harder, I could be real. If only I were anorexic, then I would be legitimate. I’m close but not close enough.

Maybe when I hit underweight, then I will matter.

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Posted 05 February 2020 - 09:53 PM

I don't want a diagnosis of any kind, and my ideal body is a strong (albeit, lean) one...At the same time, a part of me does want to be clinically underweight, for that sense of validation that I do, indeed, have an eating disorder :/ That and to "make up" for my obese childhood. I would love it if someone told me I looked "sick" or "scary skinny" again, and for it to be medically true >< ugh.

 

Can relate! I’ve been losing weight slowly for several months now. Sometimes my family or relatives will comment on how thin I am. It’s always “well you don’t need to lose weight” or “you’re little already.” But it doesn’t matter because I’m still within healthy weight. In high school I was underweight and my school counselor told me my stomach was going concave. She said it as a concern, but I heard a compliment. I’ve been trying for years to back to that “tiny” “bony” “concave” girl. To get the status of underweight. That’s all we undiagnosed members can fight for. 


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#39 Iamsorryforbeingme

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Posted 06 February 2020 - 04:31 AM

Not really actually. I don't really care what my diagnose is. I know I struggle and if people don't believe me then thats fine. But when I was younger I defitly felt like this

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Posted 03 March 2020 - 12:33 PM

i feel ya D:

 

and then its like, AN-R takes the crown over AN-b/p (for like....................... "how anorexia should be""")

 

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within AN its also like, OBVIOUSLYYY the lower weight u are the more ur ~**~*~winning**~*~**~ at the ((very good, very good....) goal of being moSt anOReXic persON





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