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Weird Urges?

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#1 notmywholestory

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Posted 12 July 2018 - 08:58 AM

Does anyone else get those weird impulses to cut off your fat? Like, not selfharm per say, but an urge to take a knife and just cut yourself down to a smaller size?

I feel like this is just me
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#2 ♡wintergirl♡

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Posted 12 July 2018 - 09:09 AM

i don't really think about cutting it off more like ripping it off idk like if im touching my hips or grabbing fat i wish i could just claw it off lol


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#3 LisetteMariaTruelily

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Posted 12 July 2018 - 09:10 AM

big mood

 

And like, constantly thinking of lipo for thighs (!!! like thighs ESPECIALLY), lower belly and such? Me also.


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GW1: 55kg (BMI ??)
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If I ever reach my goal BWH I'll probably shoot a Lookbook or something to celebrate it.


#4 Juliette Ferrars

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Posted 21 July 2018 - 08:49 PM

Me too! Yesterday I got so pissed off about being chubby and how my thighs moved with E.V.E.R.Y. movement so I dug my nails in till it hurt. Temporary satisfaction hahahaha  <_<



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Posted 14 August 2018 - 06:10 PM

I want to cut off my belly fat all the time so yeah


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GW1: 130

GW2: 120

GW3: 115 

UGW: 110    :wub:

 

Relapsed.

I have no idea what my weight is (too much) and I spent the last year mostly recovered

Now I see myself heading back to my anorexia days (ana oop)


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Posted 17 August 2018 - 05:27 PM

big time. sometimes i hope if i grab it enough itll just flop off on the floor.



#7 Liarose

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Posted 17 August 2018 - 05:30 PM

OH YES all the time. Especially my calves bc I just CANT get rid of weight from there. ;-;

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Posted 23 August 2018 - 11:52 PM

I'd love to get rid of this loose, dangling skin that doesn't even have fat in it.


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#9 Disneyana11

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Posted 14 September 2018 - 10:38 AM

Yes I do, I probably never actually will because... I know that's not how fat works but yeah



#10 Thaminess

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Posted 20 September 2018 - 03:15 AM

All the time. It pisses me off so much.

 

I've tried. Do not recommend.


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#11 becomingskinny

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Posted 03 October 2018 - 08:28 AM

definitely not alone in this. i don't think i'd have the courage to do it, but the thoughts cross my mind all the time


what do you do when everyone thinks you're recovered (you're not) and you've gained weight (too much) and you're at a healthy weight (not skinny enough to have an eating disorder anymore), but every waking thought is of food and calories and your body?

 

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hw: ~56kg / 123lbs

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gw1: 52kg / 114lbs

gw2: 50kg / 110lbs

gw3: 47kg / 103lbs

gw4: 45kg / 99lbs

goal weight: 43kg / 95lbs

unrealistic ugw: 40kg / 88lbs

 

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#12 scarecrows

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Posted 27 March 2019 - 06:55 PM

yep and it's gruesome. i can picture each part of the process, but i know i'd pass out way before anything could get done.


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#13 collarbonedreamer

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Posted 26 January 2020 - 06:23 PM

It is NOT just you.  If I find a part of my body I can grab onto I immediately imagine just cutting it away and throwing it in the trash to reveal my new, fatless body.  I'm obviously aware It doesn't work like that, I would never try to do that.  But like... my brain goes there like it's a fantasy.


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#14 SailorDoge

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Posted 26 January 2020 - 06:34 PM

sometimes I wanna go full XXL on myself lmao


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