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#81 Butterscoth

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Posted 10 May 2019 - 03:55 AM

No offense but 14.7 is too thin. But if you can manage youself at the weight without health complications, then it's ok I guess...


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Posted 10 May 2019 - 04:49 AM

Long as my hairs growing the 15.-2 inches a month tuen im functioning

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Posted 10 May 2019 - 05:15 AM

Yes I've functioned with my AN. For me it is when I can get on, do things without it taking over my every waking moment. I can deal with and be around food. I can socialise etc... I dont suffer depression and my anxiety is in check.

For me realistically its around BMI 16. You are living not existing.

Remaining at 14.7 you can do but yeah it gets pretty shitty as time goes on over the years.
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Highest weight I have been in years. Functioning so much better but struggling somewhat mentally and physically to accept. Learning a lot about why I am like this.

- Re-diagnosed Nov-17 - back in treatment (OP) after more than 20 years.

LBMI : Who cares - I was screwed, can't remember much, severe depression and just wanting to die, unable to maintain temperature - have no desire to return to that little hell hole.

LDBMI - Lowest Discharge BMI (after 2.5 months hospitalisation) : 11.9... and finally, after 9+ years, some form of 'recovery/insight' - just not the "Made for TV" version.

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Posted 10 May 2019 - 08:22 AM

I've functioned with BMI 16 ish for about 2 years nw. It's possible but not fun. You have to find something that motivates you beyond your ED. For ne thats my education and pole dancing/aerial. I absolutely cannot lose my PhD, so I work my arse off to ensure im n track. I also cannot cope at all without exercise and pole, so I eat enough to make sure I can still pole and not faint whilst hanging upside down by one finger.

 

I also genuinely think it helps that ive never been depressed. I have c-PTSD which can be incredibly debilitating, but not constantly like depression can. my MH is a shit show but im honestly quite grateful ive never suffered with depression. 


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Posted 30 May 2019 - 02:18 PM

Definitely.
I've been living with this for 16 years and I've had my ups and downs and recovery attempts and relapses. Anorexia never really left the picture. It was always either anorexia or EDNOS/OSFED.
Just recently, about a year ago...I wouldn't say I accepted it, more like I figured out a way to live with it and actually have a life, instead of surviving and waiting for the day to be over, for life to be over.
It's all about balance and compromise.
I'm a 31 year old woman with autoimmune diseases, married to a man who has MS, I have two dogs which quite literally saved my life, and I'm a sales coordinator and manager for a multinational company. I have so many reasons to live, to WANT to live.
So what I did is this-I came to peace with the fact that my eating disorder gives me comfort due to the fact that it's one of the few things I can control (I can't control my autoimmune issues or my husband's MS) and gives me some sense of order in my life. I came up with a plan of approximately 10 meals which, any way combined, come to a set amount of calories and it helped me to (over time) stop obsessing over calories because I know that if I eat only those meals I'll never go over my set amount. I can't work out because of my autoimmune issues, but I am allowed to walk and swim so I walk everywhere and go swimming three times a week. I excel at my job, and I actually love what I do, and that helps too.
I've been losing slowly but steadily, had no binges in months, I take my therapy regularly and my health is actually improving!
Somehow I just function better with my eating disorder than when I try to fight it.
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Posted 30 May 2019 - 02:41 PM

It really depends... I used to semi-live a normal life on 1500 cals BMI 15, the problem is that most of the normal meals at restaurants are +700 cals so whenever I was forced into reunions I was the awkward person who ordered salad instead of a burger.
Also even tho I was mantaining I still felt the urge to have restricting days where I ate around 900 - 1200 calories.

I would say no... You can’t have a normal life while struggling with anorexia. You may enjoy some moments that doesn’t involve food but in the end you will miss most of the things you could do if you didn’t have an ED
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Posted 30 May 2019 - 02:43 PM

I live a normal life, and I have rather low BMI. I get a few psychical symptoms & I don't get my periods, but other than that I lead a normal life.  



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Posted 30 May 2019 - 04:48 PM

I think it's what I'm aiming for too...half my team are pushing for full recovery but the other half believe, I guess more realistically, than being a functional anorexic, for now, is all I can hope for. I've been through years of just losing, gaining in ip, losing, and the cycle is so painful. At the moment I'm really struggling to achieve this 'functional anorexic', just keep slipping up, but I'm trying so hard. I just want to not be so ritual and rule bound..


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Long story (read my profile) but diagnosed with anorexia, depression, aspergers and OCD.
Still struggling with accepting my weight after 5/6th ip admission, but determined to get a healthy, normal relationship with food. 

 

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Posted 30 May 2019 - 05:48 PM

i think i’ve always been relatively functional as far as having an ed among other mental illnesses goes. But then again my lw was barely underweight (bmi 17.9 was my lowest) i’ve kept a job and stayed in school this whole time because my parents wouldn’t let me catch a break so it’s been sort of a sink or swim kinda thing, if i don’t succeed in school and finance it on my own my parents would kick me out so my ed stays sorta on the back burner. Being this functional makes me feel like a fake

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Posted 22 June 2019 - 10:44 AM

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My treatment team discharged me for being unable to engage in treatment, they talked a lot about 'functional' anorexia -- learning to control your ED instead of letting it control you so that you can balance it with a normal life.

 

...BMI? Mine is 14.7 (which isn't that low), I don't want to gain but I'm tired of feeling this shitty.

 

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I'm so so sad and sorry that your treatment team discharged you.

get that they need some engagement, but the fact that you were turning up shows engagement. They can't blame you for being resistant to recovery - that is part of the illness itself! Yes, it's a shitty situation, but it's a common one! AN is one of the only mental illnesses where it makes you think you actively want to be sicker. That is a feature of the illness, not something you should be disciplined or discharged for!

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Posted 13 September 2019 - 08:32 PM

"functional anorexia" sounds like harm reduction and damage control and living your best life

keep above minimum healthy weight

don't purge or abuse lax

maintain, don't yo-yo in size

make sure your ED doesn't get in the way of work or relationships


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Posted 04 October 2019 - 06:21 PM

Eventually I function best when heavily restricting. I try to cover up by being excellent at work, super sociable and kind, so noone would get a feeling of how much I suffer on the inside. With full blown ana I try to be the most perfect version of myself, while when I´m bingeing I let myself go in all matters. I barely go out by then because I feel terrible about myself, I´m too distracted to do a good job at work and I´m all depressed and bitchy.
 
So yeah. Actually I function better with than without. dunno...


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#93 VodkaZero

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Posted 05 December 2019 - 06:25 PM

Ugh, as soon as I restrict, my ability to function normal is all gone. I wish I could be a little more functional :(



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Posted 05 December 2019 - 08:07 PM

Mentally, I am functional while I'm relapsing and restricting. I managed to graduate college, get my first internship and then my first job in a single year while restricting and intermittent fasting. I'm still fairly sociable, I go out with friends and love to get together with my family.
Physically, restricting makes me a total wreck. I get anemia as soon as I start restricting and feel tired and unmotivated all the time. I just feel like staying in bed all day watching videos and 'forgetting' to eat, but thankfully I'm able to get up and go to work, meet friends and function as a normal person every day.
I don't want my ed to control me and I refuse to let it ruin my life, but that's mostly because I just want to be thin. I don't really have other underlying mental issues besides low self-esteem so I feel like I can control my ed a bit better
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Posted 23 December 2019 - 07:57 PM

I see myself as functional. I have no health complications, work a full time office job and travel solo multiple times a year. My BMI is 16-17.

Socially though, I've become reclusive and misanthropic, I spend lots of time alone and refuse to meet friends. I had friends when younger but am pretty much friendless now. But that could also be attributed to personality rather than ED. Behavorially though, I B/P at least once a day and that is so exhausting but heck, I still "function" at work and am fit/sane enough to travel alone


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Posted 23 December 2019 - 08:41 PM

I had my own term for this called "high functioning axorexia" lol i didnt know if this was a real thing or not until now.

I literally just described it as appearing normal on the outside while dying from your disease quietly and "safely."
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Posted 24 December 2019 - 05:24 PM

I’d say I can function with my anorexia, just not as well as I normally do when my anorexia isn’t very bad.

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Posted 09 January 2020 - 02:26 AM

for me, the ana phase (more accurate to say the restricting phase) of my ED is when i function at my best


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Posted 09 January 2020 - 07:42 AM

I graduated with the best papers from my high school with a bmi 13.

High restriction, not working out like crazy, two planned binges a month.

I'm depressed but also a perfectionist. My ed kinda """helps""" me at school bc I must be perfect.

On the other hand my social life is shit bc all my energy goes into school, working out and obsessing over food.

I'd still say I'm functional.

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Posted 09 January 2020 - 11:23 AM

i get more perfectionistic when im on track, so id say im more functional with it...





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