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#1 ElsaXAnna

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Posted 03 November 2018 - 07:01 PM

All the damn time. It's a form of self-harm for me. Maybe one time my intestines will get blocked and I finally will die


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"I want to find someone who loves me the same way I hate myself"

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I'm bigger than my body,

I'm colder than this home,

I'm meaner than my demons,

I'm bigger than these bones.

All the kids cried out:"Please stop, you're scaring me,"

I can't help this awful energy,

God damn right, you should be scared of me,

 

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#2 stripped_to_the_b0ne8

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Posted 03 November 2018 - 09:07 PM

this reminds me of one of my friends and im kinda scared that you're her cuz i really pray that she'll never find this website but you're probably not and even if you arent i hope you stop but i know you probably wont and ahhhhhhh


girls and their curls and their gourmet vomit

boys and their toys and their six inch rockets

we're all very lovely 'til we get to know each other

as we stop becoming friends and we start becoming lovers

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#3 stripped_to_the_b0ne8

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Posted 03 November 2018 - 09:18 PM

can i be honest with you? i know its hard, but judging by some of the other posts you've made... i dont think being on a site that *UNINTENTIONALLY* promotes eds is the best thing for you rn. i mean... i know you're not gonna listen to me, but they're giving you a chance at turning your life around, take it. dont die, okay? we're the same age, and i cant even imagine how much you're going through... but with every low, you get stronger... i feel so much for you, especially because you remind me of my friend... forced recovery is hard, yeah, but it'd keep you alive, you know? even if thats not what you want now, you'll be glad you didnt die once you make it out of this. i really hope you make it out of this. that was sappy and shitty and im sorry about it. i like 'control' by halsey too btw. i saw it in ur signature. its so accurate... i mean "im bigger than my body" and "im bigger than these bones" can be taken in different ways.


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girls and their curls and their gourmet vomit

boys and their toys and their six inch rockets

we're all very lovely 'til we get to know each other

as we stop becoming friends and we start becoming lovers

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#4 crimsonraider

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Posted 04 November 2018 - 06:06 AM

:( I know the feeling (not with eating paper but with doing other things as 'weird' self harm methods). I hope you don't die and instead things start improving for you


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#5 stripped_to_the_b0ne8

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Posted 09 August 2020 - 05:49 AM

somehow i've found myself back on this thread two years later... we're both older and still fucked up... even though i know that nothing i can say would make you stop or even make u consider stopping because you're sick, we all are, i get that... i just wanna let u know that some random bitch in nyc cares about you. and while im sad that ur profile says u were online yesterday becuz i still maintain that this website is a hellhole and def not what you need, i'm really fucking glad you're alive. 


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girls and their curls and their gourmet vomit

boys and their toys and their six inch rockets

we're all very lovely 'til we get to know each other

as we stop becoming friends and we start becoming lovers

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Posted 18 August 2020 - 11:55 PM

My problem as a small child was eating paper. Got over it though.

 

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