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What triggered your recent restriction phase?


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#21 Minky31

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Posted 05 January 2019 - 05:01 PM

Been losing steadily 10kg with high calorie restricting. Started to binge-drink alcohol with binges when I was hangover the next day. It turned into a pattern on my bad days.

Didnt gain that much. But I can’t continue living like that, so its time to get back on track. Its time to get real and have control again. I was lucky I didnt gain that much from it.

Low calorie restricting for a kick-start, and because I need to feel that I achieve and manage something in my chaotic life.

I need this right now. Something destructive to keep me going. Trying to use dieting instead of alcohol and food. Doing something greener and «healthier.»


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Same here... except I gained more. Also I am in treatment, so some weight gain was mandatory which triggered the drinking and then so on.... But I'm trying to curb the drinking. You're right - high restriction is a better option.


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Posted 05 January 2019 - 05:13 PM

A combination of losing control of my intake in December and my job becoming even more stressful.
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Posted 05 January 2019 - 05:26 PM

I fell out of love.
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#24 Almost Gone Imouto

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Posted 05 January 2019 - 05:58 PM

"Hey bitch you're fat!"

"Okay cool imma just fast for 80hrs this week."

 

"Hey bitch you're still fat."

"Alright I got you, I wanna eat though but I promise I won't keep any food down."

 

"I bet you could fit that cosplay now."

"Oh shit it fits! I lost weight!"

 

"You're still a fat bitch though."

"Alright I'll do this again next week too!"

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Every day this is what goes on in my head. And sometimes out loud because I talk to myself.


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Posted 05 January 2019 - 08:03 PM

Same here... except I gained more. Also I am in treatment, so some weight gain was mandatory which triggered the drinking and then so on.... But I'm trying to curb the drinking. You're right - high restriction is a better option.


Yes. In the long run it is. I hope your treatment is going well, even if you dont feel great about it. Til longer you give it faith, the more freedom you’ll get


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Posted 05 January 2019 - 09:55 PM

I realized I gained even more weight!!



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Posted 05 January 2019 - 11:32 PM

I’m coming up on 4 years since my last bug recovery from my lowest weight. Lololol


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Posted 06 January 2019 - 01:45 AM

This phase is only four days in so I'm hoping I can stop it... Went on vacation and ate whatever I wanted. Came home and weighed myself and saw my horribly bloated weight, freaked out. In reality I think I only gained 1-2 lbs now and I'm hoping I can get out of this restrictive phase once all the bloating is gone. But who knows. :(

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Posted 06 January 2019 - 03:09 AM

Hit BMI 25 again and realised my drug abuse kills my appetite completely. I'm on my third day of fasting and back down to BMI 24.
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Posted 06 January 2019 - 05:53 AM

messing up the whole last semester
not just foodwise, but with everything... acted so weird, so hypomanic, still feel weird and like I'm afraid to go back to school since I'm so fricking weird bp mess. so self conscious it's... so embarrassing. just wanna stay home and not eat.

but today I will restrict due to no one commenting how I looked like yesterday even tho I been starving for 2.5weeks They should notice but then again no scale so no idea if I even lost
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Posted 06 January 2019 - 08:05 AM

I just had the stomach flu

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Posted 06 January 2019 - 08:08 AM

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Posted 06 January 2019 - 01:05 PM

I’m a mess these days. Me and my boyfriend have been nonstop fighting. We are both pretty mentally unstable but we love each other. Our emotions are all over the place so there’s always something wrong between us.

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Posted 06 January 2019 - 03:06 PM

Got really stressed and overwhelmed and turned to restriction to cope 


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Posted 06 January 2019 - 03:21 PM

this might not make any sense. but the thing i remember happening right when i relapsed was my ex boyfriend's fiance killing herself. idk why this would trigger me (other than me taking it incredibly hard since he and i are very very close and i felt his pain), but it was within a span of those few days that i threw away my 4 years of recovery, made an account on here after being off pro ana sites for the longest time, and began my descent back into restriction and obsession.


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Posted 06 January 2019 - 03:25 PM

it was slowly creeping up. I knew I was getting there. just hating my body and everything around me was triggering me.


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Posted 06 January 2019 - 03:26 PM

My friend who lives in a different country , came home for Christmas . He knows about my not eating and hasn’t seen me in 6 months . He said “I thought you’d look bad from what you said , but you look good , you look healthy !”
:/ fucking GRREEEEAT! ☹️
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Posted 06 January 2019 - 03:29 PM

being in europe.  feeling as if i can't have anyone i'd like...so i can control one thing by not eating. 

 

him.  dear god, him.


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Posted 06 January 2019 - 05:18 PM

Cliche I know but... new years

 

It's becoming harder every year. It's like I'm stuck 10 years ago and unable to move forward or develop my life onto the next phase.


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