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What triggered your recent restriction phase?

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#1201 synthpunk



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Posted 28 July 2020 - 02:42 AM

dysphoria!! my hips look even wider when i gain even a little weight, and i thought i looked extra feminine after having gained slightly.
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Posted 28 July 2020 - 12:49 PM

Ngl it was my desire to go into medicine (still a few years off). I want to be that thin, perfect looking medical professional and it's triggering me hard.

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Posted 28 July 2020 - 04:46 PM

lockdown and now starting a new career in a couple of months, I want to look great and then maintain!




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Posted 29 July 2020 - 12:32 AM

I went actually insane a few months ago because of hormones and I wound up in the hospital like three times in one week and I was like okay I can't live like this I guess it's time. So after like eight years of people trying to get me on antidepressants I finally started taking them for the first time in my life and they made me SICK as hell LOL lucky me I lost like twenty pounds in a month because they made me sooo nauseated

And I desperately needed to lose those twenty pounds. I was just like binging HARD and getting drunk legit every day lol there was no end in sight so thx shitty hormones!

Eventually the nausea subsided and I kind of started slipping again but now my doc wants me to keep upping my dose so back to nonstop nausea :-)

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Posted 29 July 2020 - 08:33 AM

got weighed at the doctors lol

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Posted 29 July 2020 - 07:02 PM

Broke up with my shitty bf and for the first time in a while having a place all to myself. My own little disturbing nest to cultivate the devious shadow part of myself. Love it. Haven’t felt this happy or excited in a while, like there’s nothing standing between me and total control of my environment besides myself.
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Posted 29 July 2020 - 07:04 PM

my best friend just sent me a mirror picture of her outfit and i'm SO JEALOUS. i haven't seen her in a while and clearly she's been losing weight. she has such thin legs and calves - if i took a photo like that i'd just look so fat. i'm so huge, i'm bigger than everyone i know. why did god make me such a fat lard...literally this is so unfair. i have no self control 

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Posted 30 July 2020 - 09:58 AM

i'm not exactly sure what triggered my current episode of restriction,, but i do know that i am under a lot of stress with moving out with my boyfriend ((his parents and him have a lot of drama that they like to pretend doesn't exist after blowing up in his face,, and we have a landlord who has a shitty personality but a really nice basement suite we are able to rent out because he accepts dogs so i'll just ignore the landlord i guess,,,,))


my friends are all going through hard times and i feel like i have to be there for them, even if i don't have all the right answers,,,


and i gained almost 10lbs so i'm really trying to go back to where i was to continue my progress 

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#1209 spooky pale and fat

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Posted 30 July 2020 - 10:41 AM

the girl who was the needle in the haystack to me first doing all this unhealthy stuff (she was supposed to be one of my closest friends and she talked about how i needed to 'dress for my weight' behind my back) is losing weight healthily and seems happy and i dont want to be bigger than her so im back to eating as little as i can so i can be skinny and "win"

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Posted 30 July 2020 - 11:39 AM

I'm getting married 5 weeks from today and just really stressed

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Posted 31 July 2020 - 10:29 AM

Remorse/regret over the past. Resentment - mostly at self.

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Posted 31 July 2020 - 12:26 PM

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Posted 31 July 2020 - 02:09 PM

Quarantine and the subsequent weight gain. I reached my hw and I have cellulite on my thighs.

Height: 150cm/4'11"

CW: 46.7kg/103lbs - BMI: 20.8

GW: 45kg/99lbs - BMI: 20.0

GW: 42.6kg/94lbs - BMI: 19.0

GW: 40kg/88lbs - BMI: 17.8

UGW: 36kg/80lbs - BMI: 16.0




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Posted 31 July 2020 - 07:19 PM

I went shopping and nothing looked good on me

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Posted 31 July 2020 - 08:06 PM

i weighed myself for the first time in months and lemme tell you the numbers weren't pretty. i let myself go during lockdown.

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Posted 31 July 2020 - 08:47 PM

The numbers on the scale creeping upwards.

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Posted 01 August 2020 - 03:36 AM

Gaining weight during quarantine and my bf’s sister and her daughter (I know fucked up), the sister because she’s almost 40 and had two kids but is SUPER skinny, the daughter because she’s a small skinny child, and I’m just hella triggered by the both of them

1.73 cm | 5'8

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CW: 52.7 kg | 116.2 lbs | BMI 17.7

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Posted 01 August 2020 - 10:25 PM

My sister talking about her body measurements

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CW: 95.0lb BMI 16.6

HW: 130 BMI 22.7
Adult/current height LW: 89.4lb BMI 15.6 (1/13/19)
GW1: 120 BMI 20.9 Reached 9/24/17
GW2: 110 BMI 19.2 Reached 11/2/17
"UGW"/GW3 (I mean not really but I'm trying to stay out of the hospital this time): 95lb BMI 16.6 Reached 4/23/18
UGW: 85 BMI 14.8 if feeling good, or 70 BMI 12.2 if feeling bad, my LW as a hospitalized anorexic 4'??" 13 year old. Great. This will go great.

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Posted 02 August 2020 - 02:23 PM

My Mom had gastric bypass surgery almost a year ago. She's been telling me all about how much she's allowed to eat (1,000 or less w/ minimal sugars & carbs) It's basically an anorexic's dream diet. Anyways she's lost enough weight that she's not far off from me. Thankfully for me (not so much for her) she's experiencing her first months long plateau and it's driving her crazy. Meanwhile it's allowing me the time to get my act together. 

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Posted 03 August 2020 - 01:53 PM

I have been doing OMAD for about 3 years now (it's been the only way i've been able to sustain long-term restriction) and my ADHD meds suppressed my appetite/hunger feeling like CRAZY. They had been really messing with my anxiety levels lately, so I went off of them a few months ago. Not being used to the hungry feeling + working from home = scale creeping back up. :ph34r:  


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