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I need to be so thin that _____


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#41 frommarstosirius

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Posted 11 April 2019 - 02:38 AM

that i can wear anything i want

that i don't feel guilty whenever i eat

that i can have so much photos

that i wanna see those stupid faces of the boys who rejected me before.

that when i wear a boy's hoodie, i won't look like it's mine.

that i can get tattoos on my legs.

that i can look stunning on the scene when i play my guitar.

that i can beat the fat part of my anxiety.

that i don't have to make fun of my weight just to not let the others do.

 

and i have many more reasons...


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#42 SkinThin04

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 08:52 PM

People worry about me...... I sound like an awful person dont i?


Nah. Not awful at all. Like someone who's never had an ED and doesn't get it might day it sounds awful, but is part of this illness. I bet most of us have had that thought!!
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#43 daihnties

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 09:20 PM

my teacher start to question me and try to intervene


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#44 take_me_away_

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 09:31 PM

I'm a skeleton.

I have a thigh gap.

I'm perfect.

People tell me I have an eating disorder.


Yep, I'm messed up.
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#45 HateMeForAllTheThings

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 09:59 PM

i kill the hate


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#46 Madimuncie

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 10:03 PM

People genuinely worry and think “is she okay?”
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#47 hellbomber

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 10:10 PM

the cat calling.. and how once my mom told me it's because "i have a special body type".. i want to starve until nobody looks at me fuck


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#48 Strawberry Jellybean

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 10:11 PM

So that people will worry about me and actually want me to eat even if I don't want to.


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#49 Gardenia daintily dream

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 10:23 PM

...people get scared, and long to protect me and treat me with caution and softness.


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#50 Salamander

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 11:08 PM

I need to be so thin that someone intervenes. (Which will never happen because it has nothing to do with my weight. Im just not worth being helped or saved.)

I need to be so thin that i get put on 1:1 observation to ensure im not purging.

I need to be so thin that im considered medically incompetent.
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#51 kennedyfaye

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 11:19 PM

So that I feel confident to leave the house
So that people are shocked at my weight when they see me and worry about me not eating enough

I notice lots of us want people to worry. I use to think this was bad till I got to a low weight and it happened and suddenly everyone was so sweet and caring to me and I completely understand now. It’s like, the best feeling getting concern even from people you barely know. When I’m a normal weight I’m nonexistent but when I’m worrying people, im noticed and talked to. Sick, ahaha
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#52 julestia

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Posted 27 April 2019 - 11:20 PM

my stomach is flat in every position


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#53 sucked_alot

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 04:01 AM

i need to be so thin that I can finally tell myself that that’s enough and I’m enough
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#54 kimu

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 04:08 AM

I can feel proud.

I can walk into the wind without my fat 'muffin-topping' everywhere.
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#55 Ball00n

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 04:33 AM

I need to be thin so that I feel good about myself. People are already telling me how I've been shrinking and doing a great job with the weightloss journey but I literally do not care about anyone's opinion because I still hate myself. I just want to make myself happy for once..


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  Height: 173cm/~5'8

  GW1: 59kg/130lbs  

GW2: 50kg/110lbs

UGW: 48kg/105lbs

 

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69kg 68kg 67kg 66kg 65kg 64kg 63kg 62kg 61kg 60kg

59kg 58kg 57kg 56kg 55kg 54kg 53kg 52kg 51kg 50kg

49kg 48kg

 

Literally cannot be happy until I reach my UGW.

 

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#56 alreadylost

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 04:36 AM

I don't longer disgust myself
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#57 SinéadMcBride

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 04:41 AM

____my fingers touch when I wrap my hand
around my upper arm (I have short
fingers).
____my hips are so small I can fit comfortably in my 3 y.o. skirt
____my face does not look puffy anymore
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#58 Anagirl777

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 05:57 AM

That my thighs don’t touch
That my abs are visible

#59 Happysadyay

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 06:07 AM

That people worry about me.
That people will feel sorry for me and realise that there’s something wrong with me that I don’t show to the world.
That people will be impressed and shocked at how I manage to do so well in school with a mental problem.
That I won’t be able to grab any fat on my body
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#60 Rivaille

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Posted 28 April 2019 - 06:09 AM

So people notice im underweight.

My bones are noticeable.


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